Reckless decision

Stepping out of my reservation I watch the party unfold on the ground floor with mixed emotions, though I couldn't help but admire the simple but classy decor. There were exotic canapés and cocktails flowing freely, as an events planner it's almost like a default setting to me now, always observing every details in an event.

"Come on Cassie" I chided myself.

I wasn't here for work but to let go and have a good time but somehow I still ended up remembering that jerk and my heart squeezed with pain then anger.

We met again after university during an event that was planned by the company I worked in. Since then we got in touch often and when he asked me out again, even though I wasn't really ready then, I accepted a bit hesitant.

The first few months of our relationship was rocky because my trauma, and yes I was a bit adamant about visiting a shrink but if our relationship was to work, which I sort of felt obligated to make it work, I decided it was time to see a shrink and sort out whatever was in my head to prove I wasn't broken. I hated seeing a shrink but decided it was time, since I owed it to myself and our relationship and look where that got me.

I've got to stop living in the past and live in the present. Thinking of the present I couldn't help but think of the beautiful stranger I met today, Damian. He was so hot and mysterious, seems like a guy you wouldn't want to mess with yet he seemed to draw me in, too bad I may never see him again.

Standing at the far end of this hall, I watched everyone interact but I was lost in thoughts. My phone pings in my pocket bringing me out of my thought, it was a message from Matt.

Matt: You okay?

Matt had been there for me so long I  couldn't remember a version of my life without him. University, Career disasters, even family drama.He always showed up. Even when I didn't ask.

Matt: Eva called me, which means things are bad.

I laughed.

Cassie: She's dramatic.

Matt: That's not a no.

Cassie: I think I'm tired.

Matt: Then stop surviving for a minute.

My throat tightened unexpectedly, because maybe he was right. Maybe survival wasn't enough anymore, maybe I wanted something else.

Something reckless, something selfish, something entirely for myself.

I slide my phone back into the pocket of my floral yellow and white knee length sundress. It was night already as I stepped out to get some night air.

"You look really lost in thought fiorelliona." he whispered, his breath fans my neck.

I whip my head so fast it nearly falls off.

"It's you." my insides lurch unexpectedly from the some what familiar voice.

His lips tug into a smirk.

Staring at him with better lighting makes him even more handsome and I'm appreciating his looks.

He easily towers over me standing so close in his 6'1 height with thick brown hair, piercing blue eyes and a light stubble. I'm sure women swoon at his feet and follow him around doe-eyed and lust sick.

"Were you thinking of me just now" there's slight humor in his expression.

"No"

I recovered just as quickly as I was shocked.

"You clean up nice" I retort, eyeing him. He was in a white beach shirt, khaki trousers and vans.

"And you look lovely tesorina he grins widely.

"I take it that the party in there isn't to your taste."

"Yes-No, it's just-I'm used to being in gathering like that, mostly because of work, you know having to plan events and all" I couldn't stop rambling, what was wrong with me.

Why was I telling him that, he doesn't need to know, what if he is a serial killer or sociopath.

He seemed to notice my unease.

"Do you want to take a walk?"

His eyes were really mesmerizing maybe it wasn't such a good idea to stare into his eyes.

"Yes" I heard myself say without even thinking. I followed him sheepishly as we walked he kept pointing out different places and every fun stuff being done there.

"Wow! It's really uhmm.. crazy and amazing here."

"You like this?"

"Yes-No-I mean, everyone here seems to be genuinely having a good time here and letting go."

"Is that good or bad?" we stopped several feet from the crowd around the bonfire near the ocean, he takes my elbow making me turn toward him "Do you want to let go"  he raised an eyebrow giving me a mischievous look.

"Mmm, not really but I think I need to else I might self implode."

He laughs.

"Why is that?" he leads me to one of the kegs there and pours me a drink into one of the disposable cups and pours one for himself too. "You didn't seem to be having a good time on the ship and at the party at the reservation."

"Well you wouldn't if you caught your partner cheating on you."

"Mmm, he must be a fool to have done that to you, it's his loss." Something flickers across his face.

We look at the people having fun and dancing and both giggle maybe it was the drink or maybe I was really starting to let go.

"Come on, one dance." he gives me a cheeky smile. I lace me hands with his and we start moving to the rhythm of the latin pop song, occasionally laughing when I missed some steps. This was fun and he smells so amazing, like expensive cologne.

"You know, now that I think of it, you seem quite familiar with the environments. So are you a tour guide or native?"

"None"

"So, what brings you here, it can't be vacation if you were working on the ship." I say more to myself than to him.

"It could be both,"the edge of his lips tugged into a smug grin "I like to multitask, I like getting to know my environment well if I'm to do an amazing work."

"What exactly do you do?" the question came out before I could even stop myself from asking.

"A bit of this and that," he said wryly. "But If you want I could be your tour guide."

"That wouldn't be such a bad idea" I don't know why but my heart begins pounding harder. "How much is the f*e?"

"I'm quite expensive, I'll give you a free tour, my treat." there's a mischievous glint in his eyes.

The music ends and a slow paced music begins but we didn't pull away, our bodies mold into each other, grinding to the rhythm.

"How expensive," I breathe softly trying to fill the awkward silence. "It can't possibly cost an arm and a leg." 

He  moves a bit to look at me and gives me a knowing smile and his eyes drift to my lips for the second time tonight.

He doesn't bother hiding the lust in his eyes, I should be panicking now but I'm not. Instead I'm excited and scared at the same time.

He wants to kiss me, I can see it in his face. I nod slightly inching a bit closer, enough to let him know I yearn for it too.

Then his lips come crashing down to mine with intensity.