The Discovery

I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard those moans coming from his room. My feet had never felt this heavy before, all I could do was mindlessly drag my body one step at a time, silently praying all this was just a figment of my imagination. Maybe I wasn't seeing clearly from the distance.

I had used my spare keys to get into Dean's apartment to give him a surprise, looks like I was the one who got surprised instead, jokes on me.

My hands trembled, curling into fists at my side, I desperately needed to hold on to something. For some reason I couldn't breathe properly. I suddenly didn't want to take another step and confirm whatever this was.

I was a coward.

Now I felt really stupid in this sexy lingerie I was in, I hugged the jacket I wore on top closer, wanting to turn away and pretend I hadn't witnessed what I just did. How could I just stay silent after everything I had witnessed, why couldn't I just barge in there and confront him. I had never felt so little before, so insignificant.

Looking closer from the ajar door, I watched, bile rising up my throat as he held her to the wardrobe kissing her passionately all over her face and neck with her legs wrapped around his waist, his hands sliding deep into her gown as she moaned in delight.

If I were to be honest she was quiet gorgeous, a petite blonde lady.

But I couldn't just turn away, my feet kept moving before I could think. When I finally reached the door and yanked it open, he turned and it seemed like his face was drained of blood.

"Cass" he said in a very horrified voice.

"So this is what you've been up to lately" was all I could say when I finally found my voice.

I willed myself not to shed a single tear in front of them.

"Cass," he said again now regaining his composure and letting go of the bimbo.

"I-I can explain, t-this means nothing, I'm sorry" he tried to explained.

"Nothing!" I yelled.

"How long have you been doing this," I finally snapped, the betrayal and anger finally kicking in.

"Tell me Dean" I said exasperated.

"Babe I-"

"Don't you dare babe me now" I spat

With that I turned around and stomped off all the anger I felt before turning to tears pooling in my eyes and threatening to spill at any moment.

I desperately needed to leave before I crumbled right in front of them. Walking out of his apartment building I hurriedly got into my car just as I was about to drive off Dean got in front of my car.

"Cassie I know you are mad but please can you just listen to me, you can't just leave like this, babe I'm sorry."

I still couldn't get rid of the horrible image of both of them in his room together.  It's been a year, a year of trying to make our relationship work. A year of convincing myself that I was finally normal. That I had finally learned how to let someone close despite being almost sexually assaulted. I stepped out of the car.

"You're sorry, for what exactly, is it for cheating or for getting caught?"

"Which one exactly?"

"I know you think I'm an ass but come on you don't expect me to go all celibate just cause you aren't ready to be with anyone yet. Come on Cassie, be realistic I have needs to, these things happen, I'm a man."

"Then why did you tell me it was okay with you and I could take my time, whenever I was ready, why" I half yelled.

"Cause I didn't know it will take this long Cass, I love you, I really do but I also have needs and need to release some steams."

"Then why didn't you say anything all these times, I thought you were okay, I-I was planning a big surprise for you tonight."

"What surprise, Cass, can we just leave this all here. Look, I know I messed up and I'm sorry, I don't want to loose you." 

"Well good luck with that, cause you just did" I said as I hurriedly got into my car.

"You're not really serious about that right" a scared look plastered on his face as he stood right in front of the car.

I pulled back and jammed with full force silently praying he moved out before he got hit. Yes I was angry and all but I wasn't about to add sociopathic girlfriend who ran her boyfriend over after she caught him cheating to the news headlines.

I drove straight home, hopefully Eva was home, cause I wasn't with my keys. Eva and I met in college and after she saved me from almost being sexually assaulted we became best friends.

While I worked as an event planner in Deluxa celebration company she on the other hand was an artist, she loved expressing herself with arts, although she wasn't a big name yet. She had a little art academy and was still saving up to open an art gallery. Eva had always been the brave one, the loud one, the one who never seemed afraid of anything but I was the opposite. Careful and predictable. Maybe too predictable and the truth was I was getting exhausted. Exhausted from always doing the right thing. Always planning and proving myself, especially at work.

I knocked frantically on the door, cause i left my keys inside. When she opened the door, she had that look of what just happened to you plastered on her face.

"Oh girl, what did that ass-wipe do now" and that was all it took for me to completely break down.

When I finally regained a bit of my composure we were sitting on her couch and she was handing tissues to me.

"I caught him cheating Eva, and he wasn't really sorry about it, I'm pretty sure he is more sorry that I caught him in the act than the fact of him cheating" I said flatly not having the energy to go on.

"Girl, he is such an ass, he doesn't deserve you in the slightest." Eva exhale heavily.

"You know what you need now is a vacation to a very exotic location, where you don't have to think about all the bullshit going on in your life right now."

"Yeah, I couldn't agree more, who knows maybe I'll date all the hot men there and shove it to his face" I retort but the look on her face said, she didn't believe me.

She laughed "As if you can go through with it, I would love to come with you but my artwork will be on display in Vegas and LA this week."

It would be really nice to have her with me but I don't want her bailing on her exhibition just because of my boyfriend drama. I didn't really believe myself in the dating aspect too but anything was better than sitting here and wallowing in self pity, with that being said I took my phone, called in to work to use up my leave since I hadn't used it for once. After that I started making a research on the places with the hottest men and best resort.

I really needed this and I was definitely going to have the best time of my life, hopefully.