Mag-log inCassandra
With her soft voice, she said something sharp. The corner of her eyes sharpened, and she made me freeze.
Isabella being here is still very shocking to me. She’s here to make my situation even more uncomfortable. Right now, I can feel my fists clenching tighter. The soul within me is screaming loudly, then interrupted by the sound of approaching footsteps.Then my eyes met his—blue, cold, and sharp, piercing straight into mine. But there was a glint I couldn’t understand in the way he looked at me.
What is he thinking right now? Does he feel guilty towards me?That thought almost made me laugh—because a man who sees himself as so perfect like Sebastian would never feel something like that just for me—the woman he hates.
“Bella’s been in bed for too long,” he finally spoke. “She needs some fresh air, but her motor functions haven’t fully recovered yet. I could only bring her home.”
He explained it very well, but something inside me was rebelling. From the way he said it, I felt like I was being completely unfair.
We only moved into this house after our wedding. Even though I knew our marriage was a disaster, I still felt like this house was the only proof of it—or at least a place that offered some kind of comfort.
“Home?” I said with a slight scoff. “This is our home. Not hers.”
At that, Sebastian’s eyes darkened. “She’s only here for a few hours. After dinner, she’ll go back to the hospital.”
Sebastian raised his voice. “Can’t you just be a little kind?”
In that instant, he took my breath away—standing there defending Isabella. And then I realized what he had done—he cooked for Isabella, something he never once did for me.
Of course, I would never win against that woman.
A few minutes later, I found myself sitting with them around the dinner table. I couldn’t help but notice Isabella’s gaze—she kept watching me. She was observing me, but the moment our eyes met, she quickly looked away.
“The food is amazing, Sebastian,” she said, her voice sounding completely different when speaking to him. “Reminds me of when we were in Boston. Do you remember?”
Sebastian looked a bit uneasy, and glanced at me briefly before answering.
“Yes, I remember.”
“That place is full of our memories, Sebastian.” Isabella held Sebastian’s hand, gently caressing it.
In that moment, I realized—she had deliberately glanced at me. “That’s where you kissed me and promised we’d go there every time I wanted to, right?”Sebastian looked unsure for a moment, then gave a small nod. “Of course. Once you’re better, I’ll take you there.”
This situation dragged me into sadness and then...
“Ah…”
Isabella, who was eating, dropped her fork. Holding her hand, she winced in pain. Sebastian gently took her hand and brought her to get first aid, letting water run over her hand.
Right now, I was just watching them. His gaze was full of concern, and I realized—that’s how he loves someone.
“You’re still the same… making such a big deal out of something so small,” Sebastian said with a smile as he tucked a strand of hair behind Isabella’s ear.
They were wrapped in love, while I was just observing them.
I couldn’t take it any longer. I dropped the fork and went straight to the living room.
Isabella noticed me leaving and seemed to lose interest. She smiled at Sebastian and said, “I'm all done, darling. Could you help me to the living room? I have so much to catch up on with Cassandra. I’d hate for her to feel left out.”
Sebastian tenderly guided Isabella to the living room, then returned to the kitchen to wash the dishes.
Over and over again, watching how caring he was toward another woman—it broke me.
“I’ve heard a lot about you. I feel grateful, Cassandra,” Isabella’s voice pulled me back from my thoughts. “You’ve taken care of Sebastian for me while I was in a coma.”
“I didn’t do it for you.”I didn’t think about it when the marriage proposal came to me, and to me, he was...
My eyes suddenly widened because her expression shifted—and a second later, she slapped her own cheek with a sharp sound that echoed through the room.
“Why did you slap yourself?”
I stood up, wanting to stop whatever she was doing—something I didn’t understand at all. But she kept slapping herself, again and again.
“Stop it, Isabella!”
I held her hand, trying to stop her. Our eyes met, and with a smile, she said, “I can do anything to take Sebastian back.”
Her cold words left me frozen. Such a shocking and unexpected act. Sebastian… is this the woman you love?
But I didn’t have time to think about it any longer because Sebastian appeared suddenly and shoved me with a force that sent me sprawling to the floor.
My knees crashed into the edge of the table, and I felt the immediate sting of broken skin.
“What the hell are you doing!?” he roared, voice filled with fury.
I looked up at Sebastian, dazed, my body throbbing with pain.
“She… she slapped me… I was just trying to talk to her…” Isabella sobbed, clutching her cheek.
My mind went blank, The words were a lump in my throat.
"No...no, I didn't," I choked out, but the protest felt small and pathetic.
Sebastian wrapped his arms around Isabella, looking at me with cold, sharp eyes. He roared, “She just got out of the hospital and you’re already acting like this?!”
I shook my head, trembling. “I swear, I didn’t do it. I didn’t…”
Humiliation and rage churned violently inside me.
At that moment, I wanted to say that Isabella had done it to herself. But I saw it clearly—Sebastian only cared about Isabella now, and the way he looked at me was full of fury.
Sebastian grabbed my wrist and yanked me to my feet, “Apologize to Isabella.”
His command was the final straw. He wasn't just demanding a lie, he was demanding that I surrender my last shred of self-respect.
“No,” my eyes burned.
I wrenched my arm free from his grip and slapped him across the face without hesitation, “I said it wasn’t me!”
Sebastian widened his eyes in disbelief. Isabella flew to her mouth with fear. Before he could accuse me again, I continued: “We’re even now.”
I turned and walked away, my feet dragging me from the suffocating living room.
Cassandra“God, thank You for still granting me life, for allowing someone as broken as me to have a child like Miles. This Christmas as well, I am grateful because You have made Miles’s condition even better.”“God, I hope my life from now on will continue to improve and be filled with happiness.”I immediately rose from my kneeling position after praying, then sat on the sofa and gazed at the sky, snow falling outside the window of my room.After finishing all my activities today, I sank into my emotions. There was an understanding within me that I am becoming better, even though this year has truly been full of surprises.I have always tried to keep growing for the better, to endure, and to focus on my son and on the life ahead. At this time, I can do anything by relying on myself.It reminded me of memories of past troubles. I took a deep breath while closing my eyes.Scenes from the past repeating themselves…Something forced my body, making my hands tremble, tightening my breath
CassandraJust by watching the snow continue to fall outside, I can already feel the cold. I know it isn’t as severe as before, but still, I haven’t given Miles permission to go outside.I hold his hand and sit in the living room, where the large Christmas tree glows with its decorative lights. The Christmas atmosphere still feels warm, even though it’s just the two of us.Miles straightens his clothes, a green sweater like a Christmas tree and a red hat. I’m wearing the same as him, making sure that we truly share the same happiness.The Christmas songs we play make the holiday atmosphere even stronger. Since Miles was not even a year old, he has celebrated Christmas with a wide smile. I still remember—back then, he peed on Dylan’s clothes, and everyone laughed at the incident.Now, it’s just the two of us. In front of the Christmas tree, we take photos. It feels a little different, but the two of us remain inseparable.Maybe trying to convince myself that this truly doesn’t affect m
CassandraPreparing for Christmas wasn’t as hectic as in previous years because there were no guests at all to welcome. I mean, not as many as the Kingsley family used to have in the past.Here, I don’t have many friends. Just coworkers who know me on a surface level. Even so, I don’t feel empty at all. I have Miles and Nakka. Genna had to return to her hometown because she needed to see her children and grandchildren.She wanted to stay here, but I encouraged her to go home. Having a family is something wonderful.And to fill my quiet time without any work, aside from playing with Miles, I’ve grown fond of watching dramas on my tablet.Enjoying this calm moment gives me the chance to understand other things. Sometimes, as I watch the drama I’m following, I wonder whether something extraordinary like what happens to them will ever happen to me.I set my tablet down and walk toward the window when something white catches my attention.The first snowfall, so peaceful to look at. My brea
CassandraI had taken care of him for two days, and it felt relieving to finally be free from having to care for him anymore. He had recovered.And all day long, I didn’t see him at all. I managed it very well, leaving before breakfast and coming home earlier than usual, so after playing with Miles, I went straight to my room to rest, and perhaps it could be said that I was hiding from him.I was just a little scared to meet him. Maybe that’s how it could be described.When he hugged me without a shirt on, I could feel his skin so clearly. His strong, warm body, his distinctive scent… ah, I could remember that moment so vividly.Especially his scent, that was what made me unable to trust myself. How could I remember it so clearly, as if it were deeply embedded in my consciousness?I didn’t want to assume that it happened because I still had feelings for him.Unsure of myself, I avoided him. My heart was anxious, it was terrifying to make the same mistake again.Fortunately, until the
SebastianIt had been two days since I lay in my room because I was sick, feverish.In my entire life, I had never acted spoiled just because of a fever; I even kept going to work. But right now, showing myself to be weak and a little spoiled wasn’t a problem.“Wouldn’t it be better if you were treated at the hospital instead?” Alden’s voice was extremely annoying to me.My gaze, which had been directed at Cassandra standing in the corner of my room getting a drink, immediately shifted to Alden.“You would recover faster.”“Be quiet, Alden,” I ordered him.The smile on his face was irritating. I knew exactly what he was doing, he was trying to tease me.As Cassandra walked toward me, I glared at Alden, warning him not to ruin my happiness.I did lie to Cassandra, enjoying the way she treated me. Every time she checked on my condition, I realized that she still cared about me. Based on that, I thought I might be able to bring our relationship even closer.“This is your water.” She hand
CassandraAs the warmth of his body spread to me, I felt my heart beating wildly, as if it were about to burst out of my chest. I struggled to breathe; panic rose as my hands tried to push him away, but Sebastian held them back.His smile was sweet—yeah, that was the judgment I automatically gave it. And that sweet smile felt like a weapon, one that made me unable to refuse anything he did.He placed my hand on his cheek, then spoke softly, fucking making me lose control even more.“Feel it. Do I really have a fever?” His brow furrowed slightly; the way he responded showed he was teasing me. “You’re so attentive to me, Sandra. Even I didn’t realize it.”His words left me standing there for a long moment, as if I were defeated, because I myself didn’t even understand why I noticed that this man had a fever.It’s been so long since I kept paying attention to his every move. I thought it had been ages since I would know anything about him the way I used to.Not wanting to admit my defeat







