MasukMercy Hale did not walk quickly.
This was the first rule of her, though I did not understand it as a rule yet. She moved through the forest with deliberate economy, neither rushing nor hesitating, as if speed were a negotiation she had already concluded and found unnecessary. Branches bent out of her way. Roots revealed themselves just in time. I stumbled less when I followed her than when I tried to watch where I was going.
Behind us, the field roared.
Ahead of us, the woods pretended not to notice.
“You’re going to get me killed,” I said, because panic looks for prophecy when it can’t find logic.
Mercy did not turn around. “No,” she said calmly. “You’re already alive. That’s the complication.”
That answer lodged somewhere uncomfortable.
We moved deeper into the trees, the light thinning as the canopy thickened. Smoke drifted in low ribbons, clinging to the bark, settling into my hair and clothes until I smelled like a place I had never meant to be. My heart refused to slow, as if it suspected this calm was conditional.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“Away from the version of you that dies quickly,” Mercy replied.
I opened my mouth to ask a dozen questions and shut it again. The forest rewarded my restraint with silence.
We did not get far.
The shouting changed pitch.
I felt it before I understood it, a sharp rise that cut through the background noise and turned it into something directional. Mercy stopped abruptly and raised a hand.
“Listen,” she said.
I did.
Footsteps. Organized this time. Not running. Advancing.
Men emerged from between the trees ahead of us, weapons raised but not firing. Their uniforms were worn, mismatched, lived in. Continental soldiers, then. Close enough to safety to be dangerous.
One of them stopped short when he saw us.
His reaction was wrong.
Not hostile. Not startled. He did not even raise his musket. He simply looked at me as if the world had introduced an unexpected variable and he was adjusting accordingly.
“You shouldn’t be here,” he said.
It was not accusation. It was concern, immediate and unadorned.
“I know,” I said, because something in his voice made honesty feel safer than explanation.
He stepped closer, lowering his weapon fully now. I noticed his hands again, steady despite the chaos, scarred in the way of someone who had learned things the hard way and retained them. He looked younger than I expected and older than he should have.
“Are you hurt?” he asked.
“No.”
“You sure?”
“Yes.”
He nodded once, accepting this as fact rather than reassurance. That felt important, though I could not yet explain why.
Mercy watched him closely, her expression unreadable. Not wary. Not approving. Calculating, softened by familiarity.
“You always find them,” she said quietly.
The man glanced at her. “Find who?”
“Men who stay,” she replied.
He frowned slightly. “Stay where?”
“Exactly.”
His attention returned to me, sharper now. “Thomas Reed,” he said. “My name.”
It landed with weight, as if names were still contracts here.
“Eliza,” I replied. I almost added my last name and stopped myself, uncertain which century it belonged to.
A cannon sounded somewhere beyond the trees, low and furious, the kind of sound that rearranges priorities. Thomas swore under his breath.
“British patrol’s moving through from the east,” he said. “We need to relocate. Now.”
He did not ask us if we could keep up. He assumed we would. Mercy inclined her head slightly, the smallest signal of assent.
Thomas turned to me and offered his hand.
I hesitated.
Touch felt like commitment, and I was already too deep in something I did not understand. Still, I took it.
His grip was warm. Solid. Real.
Time did not shift.
I noticed that immediately. The pressure behind my eyes remained steady, contained. The forest did not blur or pull. The moment held.
We moved together, Thomas leading now, Mercy falling slightly behind us. He navigated the terrain with practiced ease, pausing when the forest demanded it, adjusting his pace when I faltered. He did not hover. He did not rush me. He trusted my footing without knowing why.
That trust settled into me like ballast.
“Where are you from?” he asked quietly as we walked.
I considered several lies and discarded them all. “Somewhere far.”
He accepted this. “That tracks.”
Mercy snorted softly behind us.
We reached a shallow ravine where the sound of the battle dulled again, swallowed by earth and leaves. Thomas motioned us down, scanning the ridgeline with a focus that suggested he had survived this before.
I realized then that he was not merely calm.
He was consistent.
The world had changed violently around us, but he had not adjusted his center to match it. He moved as if the rules still applied, even when evidence suggested otherwise.
That consistency tugged at something inside me.
“Eliza,” Mercy said quietly.
I turned. She was watching me now, not Thomas, her gaze sharp and measuring.
“Yes?”
“Do not pull,” she warned.
“I don’t know how.”
“That’s when it’s most dangerous.”
Before I could ask what she meant, a musket fired nearby. The sound cracked through the ravine, close enough to feel. Thomas reacted instantly, pulling me down as he dropped.
Leaves slapped my face. Dirt filled my mouth. My heart lurched.
“Stay with me,” he said, and I could not tell if he meant physically or temporally.
I stayed.
The ground shuddered as another cannon fired. Time pressed in, curious, alert.
I waited for the pull.
It did not come.
I realized then, with a clarity that frightened me, that time behaved differently around him.
As if it were watching him too.
As if it were deciding something.
When the moment passed and we moved again, Thomas did not look at me differently. Mercy did.
Her mouth tightened just enough to betray concern.
“You’re trouble,” she said to me later, when Thomas was out of earshot.
“I didn’t mean to be.”
“No one ever does.”
Ahead of us, Thomas waited, patient and unassuming, a fixed point in a landscape that refused to be stable.
I felt time watching us all.
And for the first time, I wondered who it would decide to keep.
I learn Eliza the way soldiers learn land.Not by claiming it. Not by crossing it quickly. By watching how it behaves when pressure is applied and when it is not.This is not romantic language. Romance implies fantasy. This is survival.She has changed the room without moving a chair.That was the first thing I noticed.After her refusal, after the quiet declaration that rearranged nothing and altered everything, the tavern began behaving differently around her. Sounds bent subtly in her vicinity. The fire burned straighter. The floorboards complained less. Even the air seemed to slow, as if it had learned that rushing her was pointless.Eliza no longer feels like a person you approach.She feels like a place you enter carefully.I sit across the room from her and study the boundaries the way I once studied ridgelines and tree cover. Where the light catches her hair. Where shadows pool near her feet. Where her stillness creates resistance instead of invitation.There are safe distance
Time tries a different angle when it realizes I am no longer chaseable.It does not pull me sideways in the night. It does not dangle Thomas’s face in the trees like bait. It does not fracture the village in obvious ways that would invite Mercy’s hands and thread and wax.No.Time becomes practical.It starts taking small things.The kind of losses that make people move without thinking.A spoon goes missing from the tavern’s shelf and the woman washing dishes panics, turning the kitchen upside down as if the universe will collapse without proper silver. A child’s shoe vanishes mid-step and his mother drops to her knees in the road, sobbing, searching the dirt like grief is a kind of sight.Ordinary desperation.The world runs on it.Time expects me to run too.It expects me to react the way I used to: reach, pull, correct. It expects my body to betray my new grammar the moment something I care about is threatened.So it chooses something that should make me move.It chooses Thomas.N
I stop thinking of myself as someone who moves.This is not despair. It is not resignation. It is not the quiet defeat time keeps mistaking for compliance.It is logistics.Movement has become expensive. Every step forward or backward creates drag, like I’m wading through something thick enough to notice me. Time tracks motion. It anticipates trajectory. It prepares punishment based on momentum.Stillness, I’m learning, confuses it.So I sit.Not dramatically. Not in meditation. Not in any posture that would suggest ritual or intent. I sit the way women have always sat when the world refuses to accommodate them: spine straight, hands idle, eyes open.I choose a place near the hearth because fire behaves honestly. It burns where it is. It does not attempt to be elsewhere.I breathe.Not deep. Not shallow. Just enough to exist.Here.I am no longer practicing the grammar the way Mercy taught it. Practice implies improvement. Improvement implies an endpoint. Time likes endpoints. It plan
Mercy told me not to practice alone.Which is exactly why I do.Not out of spite, though spite is a comforting flavor when fear becomes too bland. I do it because I can feel the shape of the next punishment forming, and I refuse to meet it untrained. Time has already taken my voice. It has already shown me Thomas’s death. It is already learning new ways to isolate me.So I learn too.Quietly. Dangerously. Like an animal teaching itself the fence line by touching it with its nose.I wait until the village settles into sleep and pretense. The tavern’s sounds fade to the slow creak of timber and the small crackle of dying coals. Mercy’s footsteps stop above me. Thomas’s breathing becomes steady in the far room, the kind of deep rest he allows himself only when exhaustion wins the argument.I slip outside with no shoes.The ground is cold and damp, honest in a way the floorboards never are. Dirt doesn’t lie. It accepts your weight or it doesn’t. It holds you or it lets you sink. I can wor
Thomas is in the room with me and I am not allowed to want him the way my body wants him.That is the first cruelty.Not that time stole my voice. Not that it showed me his death like a rehearsal and left the image lodged behind my eyes. The worst part is simpler: my skin recognizes him as safety, and safety has become a weapon.So I keep my hands folded.I keep them tucked into my sleeves, fingers curled tight enough to ache, as if pain might be easier to manage than longing. I sit near the hearth where Mercy prefers me, in the radius of warmth she can monitor and the quiet she can control. The fire pops softly, like it’s trying to speak on my behalf.Thomas stands by the window, staring out at the road as if he can will the world into behaving by sheer steadiness.He doesn’t turn.He’s giving me space.He’s trying.That almost breaks me.Because I remember kissing him.I remember it with the kind of certainty that belongs to truth, not imagination.My mind has filed the sensation aw
Thomas is in the room with me and I am not allowed to want him the way my body wants him.That is the first cruelty.Not that time stole my voice. Not that it showed me his death like a rehearsal and left the image lodged behind my eyes. The worst part is simpler: my skin recognizes him as safety, and safety has become a weapon.So I keep my hands folded.I keep them tucked into my sleeves, fingers curled tight enough to ache, as if pain might be easier to manage than longing. I sit near the hearth where Mercy prefers me, in the radius of warmth she can monitor and the quiet she can control. The fire pops softly, like it’s trying to speak on my behalf.Thomas stands by the window, staring out at the road as if he can will the w







