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Chapter 24 - Boy's night
I always find it difficult to sit still on days I’m off. I never know what to do with myself, I get so restless.
Tonight I tried something different; instead of keeping busy I opted to just be. I made sure that the kids are fed and washed. Now they’re fast asleep. I always make sure they turn in early on Sundays.
I make myself a cup of tea and sit at the island. I play music softly and just chill out. My mind drifts to Golden. I didn’t expect to have such a great time with her on our “date.” Once I got over my nerves, it felt natural.
We go along so well and she was so comfortable around me. The way she let me take her hand and lead her down the street; the way she placed her head on my arm. I never imagined that she and I would spend time together and she would enjoy my company.
My phone rings breaking my meditative state.
It’s Zach
“Hey” I say answering the phone.
“Hey. Are you h
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