FLIRTING WITH MY SISTER'S EX

ARIANNA'S POV

Walking down the hall's veranda, his hand firmly holding mine the sky was getting dark, outside was quiet you could hear our foot steps from a mile away.

" where are you taking me.?" I asked still looking outside, the view was beautiful I could see Canada lights from here

" we're getting there" he smiled at me, I didn't like his smile, it was chessy or maybe it made me feel chessy. after few minutes of walking I was already feeling cold, then we entered a little penthouse it was beautiful, small but beautiful and at the balcony had the best thing money can buy the outskirts of Canada was so beautiful, the lights it's not even that dark yet but the lights were still very nice my parents loved Canada I guess,

" what's the time.? " he asked covering my shoulders with his black suit is he being sweet,

" 12: 40 " which was surprising when are they going to close the party tonight, whatever as long as I'm out of there

" good" handing over a martini to me, is he serious, what the fuck am I doing here, I watched him sit down on a hanging chair patting the side

" come baby doll, sit"

" don't call me that" sitting down beside him, I stare at him, his eyes focused on the sky, while sipping his martini

" don't look at me baby face, you'll miss it"

" ugh, miss what"

" the fucking northern lights, are you sure you're Canadian"

my eyes still fixed at him surprised, the last time I saw the northern lights was with my mom, the one that died of cancer, the one that ended up not being my real mother, coming down from the chair

" I'm not doing this"

" doing what"

" this"

" watching the fucking northern lights"

" why did you bring me here"

" to see the fucking lights with you"

" why" "

" because that's what she did everyday, watching the Canadian lights, since she was like seven, we played here alot I was like 12 then, she would wish she had a sister, then she wouldn't be so lonely, then seven years earlier when she found out about you she became obsessed, I mean I thought I was obsessed but turns out I only knew you for like three weeks, "

" and how do you know all of this " he couldn't even let me finish before showing me the book, it was like a big journal, taking it from him I gasp

" you read her diary "

" of course I read her diary, how do you think I knew about the fucking drugs " gulping down his martini " that fucker did things to her, I mean like I had a hunch but this is just way beyond it "

looking at the diary my heart races, a million thoughts fill my head

" and now in there we're supposed to act like nothing happened, and I'm going to hear Alex cry throughout this night and maybe throughout this fucking week "

" so when you ask me why am here, I'm here to drink a martini and see the northern lights "

still looking at the diary, the cover was so colourful filled with heart and bow stickers I didn't want to open the book I just wanted to stare at the cover forever

" Alex was the only one that really saw her you know, I just saw her as a lonely girl with a shitty psychopath of a Dad, others were just jealous, "

of course they were, looking up the sky lits up at about two miles away, the lights were always beautiful. I look at the book again all I could think of were the lies, my mom, Valerie, my whole life was a lie, I never even got to spread her fucking ashes, neither of my moms,a tear roll down my eyes and I brush it off quickly, I could feel Shake's eyes on me, he tries to reach out but I resist

" you could have left me at the party"

" what"

" you think I don't think about her I'm fucking her now, all her pictures and personality I'm responsible for it now, and she's not the only one I lost okay, I lost my mom too" my voice still shaking trying so hard to hold back my tears, his hands cup my cheek I look up to him and his eyes are watering too

" I'm sorry". his voice low and suppressed

" I'm gonna get that bastard, I promise you" he retreated, one step at a time slowly away from me which was painful because I liked it better when he was near, leaning at the railing the lights shine brighter all I could think of was Shakes breath on my shoulders, his lips grazing it, I've never felt so sensitive in my shoulders, looking back at him, his side profile is perfect, the jawline made it look like Greek art

" why'd you do it " turning to me confusion written all over his face, slowly walking towards him till there was little space between us

" why did you smell my shoulders in the closet that day" my fingers touching his lips

" you almost kissed it"

" what are you doing" his voice low, almost like his trying to control himself, I slide my hands through his arms, cupping his cheeks his lips were parted, I wanted him to touch me, hold, kiss me, fuck me

" same thing you did that day" my hands go up to his neck, then I lean in and kiss him on the neck, , then another kiss, going to kiss him again he grabs my waist and holds me so close the was no single space between us, I could hear his heart beating fast, my breasts against his very muscular chest, he's eyes looking down at me, his breathing is heavy, leaning down towards my face his grip on my waist tightens, his lips brushing against mine

" we need to get back" he grabs my hand and we walk towards the main house, I was furious, why did he do that to me, urgh why did I make the first move getting to my room I curl myself up under my blanket

" goodnight baby doll"

I didn't respond I couldn't, baby doll!! is he out of his mind, I'm not his baby doll, the door clicks shut. Valerie's diary still in my hand I skip to the last page and there's a lot of blank pages left, grabbing a pen I was angry, angry that I want my sister's ex, angry that he keeps playing with my body, kisses me, touches me and leave me half way begging for more, angry that I have to wear this contact lenses, I probably look like Valerie who is dead, while kissing her ex, I'm angry that I couldn't stop myself dropping the pen on the book and close it then I fling it across the room,

" he'll beg for it next time, I'll make sure of that "