Ava
~~~ Evelyn hurriedly stuffs my little box to its limit, clothes spilling out in a way that tells me the cheap contraption isn’t going to be able to shut well. “Leonel Sinclair?” She demands for the fifth time, “You slapped, splashed and kissed the Leonel Sinclair?” Even through my worry, I glance up from the cardboard box I was throwing my kitchen appliances into, “Splashed?” She waves it off, “it’s a word I use for throwing drinks in people’s faces.” “And you need this word regularly why?” Evelyn huffs out, “Ava! That’s not the point. You assaulted a billionaire. No, scratch that. You assaulted the billionaire who makes other billionaire’s look like… like us!” “You mean pretty?” I joke innocently, even though I feel my hands shake from fear. I clench them into fists. “Broke!” She throws her hands up, “He makes them look poor cause he’s that damn rich.” I know she’s taking this seriously, and I want to as well, but I need to get out of this apartment first, before The Madame finds me and demands the rent I very clearly don’t have. I’d only allowed myself to think about Mr Sinclair on the sprint back here last night. As my red hair had whipped behind me and my heart hammered at a pace that wasn’t normal. It was the first time in a long time I didn’t think of some escape plan from a desperate situation. My brain could only zero in on his name. Sinclair. Sinclair. Sinclair. It was all that played in my head even when one of my heels broke and I had to make the rest of the journey here barefoot. The moment I entered the building, I collapsed in exhaustion. Only when I woke up this morning did it hit me that I had to move. To make my next smart decision. My rent is due, and The Madame has promised me she wouldn’t be so kind with my payments this time. I’ve dealt with strict landlords before, but last time someone didn’t pay their rent to The Madame, his screams haunted us through the night before he “went away.” When I asked The Madame where, she gave the cruelest smile I’d ever seen and said, “ Be late with your rent next time and you’ll see for yourself.” So yeah, she has some punishment waiting for me if I don’t pay off my rent. A punishment I plan to never suffer. That’s why Evie, my only friend since coming to New York, is in my cramped space with me, dodging little droplets from the ceiling and packing my entire life into a few little boxes, intent on helping me run away. I can’t stay with Evelyn because she already has 3 brothers to feed and is barely scraping by. Plus, even if she offered me a room I’d never live with anyone ever again. The Incident has given me the good sense to be independent, and no one is breaking down those walls anytime soon. “I don’t care who Sinclair is or how much money he has.” I tell Evelyn, throwing my box with the other packed things, “All I care about right now is evading The Madame.” Evelyn stops zipping up my box completely, fixing her dark blue eyes on me. “Ava.” She begins, and a chill runs down my spine as her tone leaves no room for jokes, “I don’t know a lot about your past, but I do know a lot about your present. You run and hide whenever you face some crazy situation. This is the third time I’ve helped you escape a landlord. But you can’t run away from Leonel Sinclair. Where will you go in this world that he wouldn’t find you?” I let her words sink in, feeling them penetrate my guarded heart, and as much as I want to tell Evie I’ll figure it out, I know her words hold too much truth. Will I escape in a world that Leonel Sinclair can own? I shake my head, clearing my thoughts of any panic threatening to seep in. “I can’t think about that now.” I state, carrying my last set of paintbrushes. All I own now sits haphazardly in two boxes, “I want to believe after last night a billionaire would want nothing to do with me.” Evelyn’s eyes darken, “You may have some faith in him, but I don’t. Don’t you remember his divorce?” At last a shot of panic goes through me, not just because she brought up the divorce, but because of who I was when it was happening. I was bright. Beautiful. Betrayed. Now I’m shady, hopping apartments and hoping I’m never caught by the last person who housed me. “Of course I remember,” I warble out, angry at the shake in my voice, “His ex-wife Madison will never let anyone forget.” When I got my first apartment with a man who let me stay if I waitressed for free at his diner, and I was no longer too miserable from The Incident to watch tv, Madison’s account of the divorce was the first thing that showed on the old tv set. She looked worse than I did, crying on The Garrish Late Night Show about how Leonel had been a serial cheat and drunk throughout their marriage. The guy sounds awful, and the Sinclair I met at that art show only further proves that. Still, there was the fact he protected me from Mr Riggs, even if selfishly, and how he bought my paintings, even if just to get me off stage. Something about those two acts doesn’t seem to align with the rest of his character. “Look,” I state, “I know I’m in some sort of trouble, I do, but I can’t worry right now. When I get out of here Evie my first priority will be fixing this mess. I promise.” Her blue eyes soften, and she anxiously runs a hand through her strawberry blonde ponytail. “Okay.” She concedes, “Let’s just get you out of here.” I nod, relief flooding me, and together we rush out with my two boxes and load them into her run-down car. It’s only as I’m about to step inside that I fold my hands over my chest and realize with horror that my pendant is missing. “Shit,” I say, closing the car door behind me as Evelyn calls out to me. If it was anything else I’d have let it go, but that necklace is the last thing of my mother that I own. I run into the bedroom and desperately feel under the springy mattress until my fingers loop around cold metal. Bingo. Relief floods me as I pull out the Jade-colored butterfly necklace, but right now looking at it makes my heart flutter with guilt. I wonder what mum would think if she saw me today. Would she be able to understand what I’ve become? I don’t have too much time to think about it because the door of the apartment creaks open. My heart jolts, and on reflex I reach into my pocket and grab my knife. “Ava, Ava,” I hear the familiar tsk of The Madame as a chill through me. “Why don’t you come to the living room? Oh, and leave your knife. It wouldn’t do much good against me.”Ava ~~~ Like I would ever drop my knife. I come out of the room, my hand wrapped around the blade, ignoring her warning entirely. The Madame sits cross-legged on the couch, her large frame taking up most of the space. She’s staring at the blank tv even after I make my appearance. Even though she doesn’t look at me, that evil smile she’d used to warn me about the late payment of my rent sits on her face, ready to take a bite out of me. She switches on the television and for some odd reason flips to the news channel. “So,” she starts, “I heard a rumor about you.” My blood runs cold. How did she know I was already planning to leave? The only person who I told was Evelyn, and she would never snitch. Finally The Madame turns her soulless eyes towards me, “Actually I heard two, but let’s start with the one that directly affects my wallet.” In one swift motion she pulls a gun out of her pocket, and it takes everything in me not to scream. Guns take me back to The Incid
Ava ~~~ “You can go little fool,” The Madame tells me, but I’m too stunned to move, much less feel grateful for evading death once again. “But remember,” she continues, “You have much bigger devils to worry about other than me from now on.” I stand a little taller, even though my heart is threatening to pound out of my chest. “You should watch the way you talk to me from now on,” I say unconvincingly. I’m not even sure what any of this means, and already leveraging my Sinclair status feels unnatural. “Should I?” She questions smugly, her wicked smile fixed firmly on her face. “I’ll take that into consideration when I see this disaster of a marriage play out.” The news story switches to something else, an interview with bestselling author Nicco Moretti on his latest book in his Owl Hunter series, but I can’t muster the emotion needed to feel happy about it. I rush out the door, hearing The Madame’s cruel laugh as I make my way back to Evelyn’s car. I don’t even look
Ava ~~~ “You look so good it might make him forget you’re late.” Evie rationalizes as we stand outside the dark-tinted double doors. They’re so large that no matter how much we crane our necks up we don’t see the top. I glance down at my outfit; a body con dark blue dress accessorized with my butterfly necklace, black stilettos and my fiery hair looped into a bun at the base of my neck. By the time we pulled this outfit out of my limited selection of clothes, there was only enough time for Evie to dust blush on my cheeks and gloss my lips with dark red lipstick. It’s more makeup than I’ve done in years, partly because I can’t afford it, but mostly because, between fearing for my life and trying to hide the truth of my past, getting dolled up slips my mind. “I deserve to be late,” I tell her cooly. No more fucking around. No more letting people fuck around with me. If Mr Sinclair wants a wedding of all things then he must need it more than I do. Besides, it’s only 5:20, how
Ava ~~~ The moment Evelyn and Oliver are out of the room, the tension in the air thickens. I clench my legs together to stop the throbbing that is now torturing my pussy. It embarrasses me that I would ever crave arrogant Sinclair. He rounds the table, holding the remainder of the contract as he strides slowly towards me. “You think this is funny?” He begins, looking up at me finally. “Do you realise the position you’ve put me in?” I scoff. The most that will happen to Sinclair if I don’t go through with signing the contract is some messy tabloids about his character, a character that is already in question for many. The worst that could happen to me? Being found by one of the people who can ruin me the most. The unfairness of it makes me even angrier at him. “I’m sorry my world doesn’t revolve around you, Sinclair,” I say. “I know you’re used to getting everything you want, but I think you’ve forgotten that I have wants too.” He chuckles. A low, spiteful chuckle. “Of
HIM ~~~ It has been 4 years, and still, I wake up with Jade on my mind. She runs in my thoughts and makes all my memories feel like bliss. Like hell. Jade. The reason I still want to live. Jade. The very person I want to kill. It has to be me that ends her pretty little life. I wonder what she thinks when she remembers that night. Does her pussy throb with how good I gave it to her? The little “O” I made her mouth form as she threw back her head of red hair for me? How she almost came all over my fingers? Or does she only remember after? The men I brought to take her away? It needed to happen because of what she did. Does she even remember what she did? The things she took from me with the same hands she used to caress me? Likely not. Perfect little Jade who could never remember anything she’s done wrong. I never stopped looking for her. There isn’t an area in Pennsylvania that I don’t know. Her underwear is still in my pocket, the scent of it even 4 years later dri
Ava ~~~ Evie and I stand outside Axion Towers, two minutes after Sinclair dismissed me, and before we can decide my next move, Oliver ambles out of the building, a new contract in his hand. “Oh great. Sinclair sent him.” Evie sighs at me. Oliver gives her his bright, mischievous smile, “You know, some might say your annoyance with me is really attraction.” Evie turns tomato red, which only makes Oliver’s smile brighter. Seriously, you'd think the guy was working at an ice cream shop with how happy he seemed. “Who are you to Sinclair anyway?” I ask. He turns to me and his golden eyes scan me. “I could ask the same of you, future Mrs Sinclair.” Hearing someone refer to me as Sinclair’s future wife sends a jolt through me. Sinclair must really trust him if he lets Oliver in on the secret. “But to answer your question, Ava, I’m Leonel’s lawyer, PR manager, and organiser, and sometimes I make deliveries.” On that last point, he winks at Evie, who rolls her eyes. Now I
Ava ~~~ I can't stop thinking about the car that almost hit me. There's a familiarity to it that reminds me of the past. But what? My thoughts are silenced by a thick cloud of hairspray my stylist, Brianna, seems to be using to try and kill me. As I cough she tsks, “Get used to it, Miss Allard. You’ll be in my dressing room more often from now on.” Oliver drove me straight to the luxury studio, one owned by Sinclair’s family. It looks more like a hotel than a studio with high ceilings and chandeliers dropping down from them. Brianna looks like the sort of person who belongs in the styling chair, not the person who should be doing the styling; with flawless Carmel skin and a sleek auburn bob that frames her heart-shaped face and suits her warm brown eyes. But as the cloud of hairspray clears, I look in the mirror and realize I might belong in this chair just as much as her. “Is that… me?” Her reflection grins, “ Yes ma'am. You're looking at the new and improved Ava
Ava~~~Sinclair goes to the mansion without me.I stand outside the studio, a jacket draped over my shoulders, trying hard not to scream.Does he just expect I’d find my way?“Fucking Sinclair,” I mutter under my breath. But just before I mumble another curse, something parked in the corner catches my eye.With a gasp, I realize it’s the car.It’s a blue Jeep with odd tyres, so distinct I know I’ve seen it before.I peer over my shoulder, wondering if Sinclair had come back for me.Nope.With nothing else to do, I walk over, my heels clicking against the pavement.When I get to the car, it’s empty. The only thing inside is a mess: snack bags, plastic bottles, and a dollar-sign air freshener hanging from the mirror.I stumble back.No.It can’t be.There’s only one person I know who had that exact air freshener dangling from their blue car.Could it be… him?The sun is suddenly too hot, the air too thick. I feel like I might pass out if I don’t find shade.No. No. No. No. No.A hand g
Ava ~~~ I go still where I am, afraid if I move, another problem may fall on my head. Sinclair is wearing the same thing I am: a basic T-shirt and jeans, but I can see the outline of his muscled body through the shirt. If not for the mention of a problem, I might have let my mind wander to his shirtlessness. I sigh, settling into the seat before the huge breakfast spread that has been laid out for me. “Sinclair, I just woke up. Can we make problems an afternoon activity?” I’ve never been the type to joke around, certainly not like Oliver, but something in me wants to get the slightly vulnerable Sinclair I had yesterday, the one who held me and told me I’m brave. But he doesn’t even look at me, saying, “Genevive Garrish wants to interview us.” Genevive Garrish? I know I’ve heard that name before. As I spoon some fruit salad into my mouth, it hits me. “Hold on… Genevive Garrish as in The Garrish Late Night Show host?” Sinclair nods, still not looking at me. “The very same.”
Ava ~~~ Oliver tells me no. Okay, technically his exact words are: “Are you out of your fucking mind, Ava?” The answer is yes, out of my mind with sleepiness and stress, but I clutch the phone tighter and argue, “Who does it hurt, Oliver? Sinclair and I aren’t officially together, and he always gets his way. Why don’t I get mine?” He sighs. “Real marriage or not, Leonel doesn’t want you getting Moretti’s number. And maybe it’s for a good reason other than jealousy. Maybe he—” “Wait, slow down. Sinclair’s jealous?” There’s a long pause on Oliver’s end. Finally, he clears his throat. “That’s not important. Look, I like you, Ava. Sure, you’re crazy, but I work for crazy, so I think we’ll get along fine. Just… I can’t give you that number. I’m more loyal to Sinclair than I am to you.” A new layer of respect settles in my mind for Oliver. The way he sticks up for Sinclair (even though the guy very clearly has a stick shoved up his ass) is endearing. “Okay, Oliver,” I conc
Ava ~~~ When my mum was diagnosed with cancer, she’d only told me, “Huh? Look how two days can change everything.” She was trying to joke for my sake, of course, but there was no denying the truth of the statement. Just two days before, we’d all been in the yard: me, Mum, and Dad, laughing while Dad grilled some steaks. It was also the day she gave me the butterfly necklace. “It didn’t cost much,” she shrugged when I told her it was too expensive, her short red hair blowing in the breeze. She didn’t realize it would be priceless to me. Dad took a “business trip” that night, kissing Mum on the cheek as she smiled, and then coming over to kiss me the same way, saying, “Whatever happens, Ava, you deserve the whole world.” I thought it was just cute, and without realizing it was a goodbye, I stretched up to hug him. It was the last hug I ever gave him. Mum fainted the next day when he’d stopped receiving her calls, and what we thought was the result of heartbreak turned o
Ava ~~~ I rush back inside, hearing the door lock automatically the moment I’m back on the tiled floors of the mansion. But this does nothing to lessen my anxiety. He’s here. This close to where I live. How long will it take him to find ways to bypass all the locks? And even if that will never be a worry, what about when I try and go outside? I have to go outside, don’t I? Suddenly the door lock isn’t enough. I run to one of the couches and see a maid vacuuming around it. She looks up at me with a smile already plastered across her face, but at the sight of me it falls. “Mrs. Sinclair, is everything alright?” I shake my head frantically. He’s here. He’s here to take me. I crouch under the huge couch, my knees slamming to the ground in a way that elicits a gasp from the maid, but I don’t care about the pain right now. I only put my hands under the couch and start pulling. It barely budges, moving about a centimeter. “Help me move this to the door,” I hurry out. She looks at
Ava ~~~ I want to lean on the wall next to me to catch my breath, but when I stretch out my hand to rest on the surface, I realise it's not there. It's only when I turn to my left that I see the four walls of this house are so far apart that I can run to the other side. Only the expensive marble floors would make me slip as I moved. In the middle of the huge living room, there's a marble Greek-like statue surrounded by the softest-looking white couches I've ever seen. This is all overlooked by huge windows that show the expansive garden, which may as well be a field. It’s so beautiful, yet I can’t truly appreciate that with this fear that's still rattling in me. The only thing I fully feel is shock that Sinclair did this house by himself. Sinclair. The reminder of him knocks the sense back into me. I wouldn't have seen that car if not for him. If he had just done the right thing and brought me home himself. Fuming, I stomp towards the large winding staircase. As I go
Ava~~~Sinclair goes to the mansion without me.I stand outside the studio, a jacket draped over my shoulders, trying hard not to scream.Does he just expect I’d find my way?“Fucking Sinclair,” I mutter under my breath. But just before I mumble another curse, something parked in the corner catches my eye.With a gasp, I realize it’s the car.It’s a blue Jeep with odd tyres, so distinct I know I’ve seen it before.I peer over my shoulder, wondering if Sinclair had come back for me.Nope.With nothing else to do, I walk over, my heels clicking against the pavement.When I get to the car, it’s empty. The only thing inside is a mess: snack bags, plastic bottles, and a dollar-sign air freshener hanging from the mirror.I stumble back.No.It can’t be.There’s only one person I know who had that exact air freshener dangling from their blue car.Could it be… him?The sun is suddenly too hot, the air too thick. I feel like I might pass out if I don’t find shade.No. No. No. No. No.A hand g
Ava ~~~ I can't stop thinking about the car that almost hit me. There's a familiarity to it that reminds me of the past. But what? My thoughts are silenced by a thick cloud of hairspray my stylist, Brianna, seems to be using to try and kill me. As I cough she tsks, “Get used to it, Miss Allard. You’ll be in my dressing room more often from now on.” Oliver drove me straight to the luxury studio, one owned by Sinclair’s family. It looks more like a hotel than a studio with high ceilings and chandeliers dropping down from them. Brianna looks like the sort of person who belongs in the styling chair, not the person who should be doing the styling; with flawless Carmel skin and a sleek auburn bob that frames her heart-shaped face and suits her warm brown eyes. But as the cloud of hairspray clears, I look in the mirror and realize I might belong in this chair just as much as her. “Is that… me?” Her reflection grins, “ Yes ma'am. You're looking at the new and improved Ava
Ava ~~~ Evie and I stand outside Axion Towers, two minutes after Sinclair dismissed me, and before we can decide my next move, Oliver ambles out of the building, a new contract in his hand. “Oh great. Sinclair sent him.” Evie sighs at me. Oliver gives her his bright, mischievous smile, “You know, some might say your annoyance with me is really attraction.” Evie turns tomato red, which only makes Oliver’s smile brighter. Seriously, you'd think the guy was working at an ice cream shop with how happy he seemed. “Who are you to Sinclair anyway?” I ask. He turns to me and his golden eyes scan me. “I could ask the same of you, future Mrs Sinclair.” Hearing someone refer to me as Sinclair’s future wife sends a jolt through me. Sinclair must really trust him if he lets Oliver in on the secret. “But to answer your question, Ava, I’m Leonel’s lawyer, PR manager, and organiser, and sometimes I make deliveries.” On that last point, he winks at Evie, who rolls her eyes. Now I
HIM ~~~ It has been 4 years, and still, I wake up with Jade on my mind. She runs in my thoughts and makes all my memories feel like bliss. Like hell. Jade. The reason I still want to live. Jade. The very person I want to kill. It has to be me that ends her pretty little life. I wonder what she thinks when she remembers that night. Does her pussy throb with how good I gave it to her? The little “O” I made her mouth form as she threw back her head of red hair for me? How she almost came all over my fingers? Or does she only remember after? The men I brought to take her away? It needed to happen because of what she did. Does she even remember what she did? The things she took from me with the same hands she used to caress me? Likely not. Perfect little Jade who could never remember anything she’s done wrong. I never stopped looking for her. There isn’t an area in Pennsylvania that I don’t know. Her underwear is still in my pocket, the scent of it even 4 years later dri