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CHAPTER TEN: The Unasked Question

ผู้เขียน: A. Cavelle
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When I finally told my mom, I braced for the world to crack open and swallow me whole.

I expected the loud, dramatic reaction I’d been conditioned to anticipate from every movie and lifetime of family chaos: yelling, screaming, a door slammed so hard the house shook—something violent and tangible enough to match the cyclone of panic and shame twisting inside my gut. I craved a drama that would let me externalize the fear. But what came first wasn’t anger. It wasn’t even emotion.

It was silence.

A profound, suffocating, terrifying silence that didn’t just fill the space between us; it seemed to leach all the sound, the air, the possibility out of the moment. It was a vacuum of response. It made me feel like the ground beneath me wasn’t steady anymore, like the world itself had stopped spinning, holding its breath in profound, judgmental shock.

“Mom,” I whispered, forcing the single syllable out, my voice barely a thread, a pitiful plea for help. “I need to tell you something. I need yo
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