Mag-log inAt our appearance in the hallway, Darius Moss, one of the prospects, came charging toward us. Torin continued plowing forward, shoving him out of the way as he snarled, "Get the fuck out of the way Darius before I knock your ass out!"
As we passed by Darius when he hastily stepped out of the way, Darius exclaimed, "What the fuck, Tor? What the hell are you doing? Stye ain't gonna be happy, man!"
"Fuck Stye," Torin snarled as he slammed his way through the exit door.
~TORIN~
It had been hard as fuck not to burn the club down after I'd gotten Marlowe out and brought her to my room. It wasn't as if I hadn't known what she did. Fuck, I'd been trying to convince myself for the last few weeks not to go into that fucking room. To stay the hell away from it.
However, when I had gotten back from the run, I'd given in to that weakness and requested she dance for me. And God, how she'd made me want her—not like I hadn't forever it seemed anyway. I'd told myself just this once I'd enjoy her dancing for me, then I'd never request her again.
I hated that she was a room-dancer. I hated that she was subjected to the lust of other men. However, when she'd begun to dance for me, I'd become no different than any of the rest of them. Need had consumed me and I had swelled to the point I'd damn near busted the zipper out of my jeans.
I'd finally reached a point where I'd had to make her stop, as I hadn't been able to take any more, it was either stop her or fuck her. I wanted her, fuck yeah I did, but I wouldn't do that to either of us. I'd NEVER wanted another woman like I did Marlowe, but she meant more to me than just another lay. That's when I realized she was on something.
I'd been so pissed, I damn near hadn't been able to control the rage that had ripped through me at Stye. The goddamn-mother-fucker, didn't give a shit about his own daughter, his blood, and before I'd even thought through my actions, I'd picked her ass up on my shoulder, and carried her out of the club.
I'd be damned if the bastard was going to use her to line his pockets any longer. He hadn't prostituted her yet, I knew it because of Dillon, but it wouldn't be long until greed took care of that. As the Prez's daughter, Stye would get a high price for her virginity. He was into some fucked up shit, and believe me, I knew all about it—I'd been part of it from a very young age. And the face was his daughter wouldn't matter one fucking bit.
So, fuck man, what else was I to do? Let it just happen? That would have taken a stronger man than me. The cost was too goddamn high, and though little else phased me, Marlowe was my Krypton. So in a flash decision, I'd decided I'd get her ass clean and away from this life-style and her fucking dad.
~MARLOWE~
"Please, Torin? All I need is a little. Please?" I begged. I was agitated and hurt all over. My muscles were cramping, and I had body aches that felt like they were nestled down into the marrow of my bones; like growing pains, only multiplied by a hundred. Yet even worse, was the craving! God, I wanted a hit, and I wanted it bad!
I'd jerked, tugged, pulled, and damn near ripped pieces of my hair out over the last sixteen hours. Now, I couldn't stop shooting irate glances at Torin, confused that he continued to ignore me. Seemingly, a totally different person from the man who had acted so concerned about me a mere sixteen hours earlier.
Instead, he tapped away on his laptop as if he could care less whether I lived or died. Finally having enough of being ignored, I stamped my feet and screamed, "Will you fucking look at me, dammit!"
Torin raised his head, eyebrows lifted in inquiry, as he peered in my direction. Suddenly a sneezing fit seized me, and I sneezed repeatedly, spewing spit and mucus in the air before me.
With a dash for the box of Kleenex sitting across the room, I tried to stem the flow with my hand; however, it wasn't adequate defense against the volume of liquid expelling from my nose.
Finally, reaching the tissue box, I jerked a huge handful out and covered my nose as the epic fit continued unabated.
After a dozen more rapid-fire expulsions, it seemed the outbursts were finally beginning to end. Yet, I found my eyes watering and overflowing for a very different reason when a warm pair of arms slid around my waist. With the comfort, I became a sniffling, sniveling, quivering, absolute slobbering mess.
Unable to contain my misery any longer, I let out a huge sob, as drawing me back against the hard muscles of his chest, Torin settled me against him. Resting his chin on my shoulder, his warm breath caressed my ear as he breathed, "I've got you, baby girl. I'm right here with you, and I will be every step of the way through this."
Tears ran rivulets down my cheeks, and my body turned on itself—clawing at me, tooth and nail from the inside as it screamed out its pain and neediness. I forced out a broken whisper of, "It's too much… I can't do this!" Then gave a whimpering cry. "Oh God Torin, even my teeth hurt!"
As he turned me to face him, he rubbed his hands up and down my arms, warming the chills seizing me, as laying his forehead against mine, he softly growled, "You can do this, Mar. I know you can."
Anything else he might have said was left unspoken. At that exact moment, a sharp pain squeezed my stomach mercilessly, and wiggling loose of his hold, I cried, "Cramp's," as I shot past him.
A few seconds later, I was sitting on the toilet, praying for death. From outside of the bathroom's doorway, I heard Torin call, "What can I do to help?"
With tears streaming down my cheeks, and mood shifting, I screamed, "You want to help? Go fucking get me something!"
After a few seconds of silence on the other side of the door, I snarled, "No? Then kill me and put me out of my damn misery!"
Finally, I heard him snap, "I am not going to go fucking get you drugs, Marlowe. What I am going to do, though, is get your ass clean. So, get that through your goddamn head!"
"I'm a fucking junky, Torin…accept it and get that through your goddamn head!" I spat back at him.
"No," he barked, before I heard the thump of his bare heels as he stomped away.
Staring at the floor, in pain and miserable, I muttered brokenly, "Fuck you, Torin."
The morning of the wedding felt nothing like I expected. I had imagined nerves. Shaking hands. A stomach that flipped every five seconds. Maybe a rush of panic that made me question every choice that had carried me here. But when sunlight poured through the loft windows and warmed the side of my face, I woke with nothing except a quiet stillness settling into my bones.It felt like standing at the center of a bridge I had been walking toward my entire life.Torin was not beside me. His side of the bed was rumpled and warm, the pillow still carrying the shape of his head. A small folded note sat near my hand.Went to the house early to help set up. I did not want to wake you. I love you. Come when you are ready.I smiled at it like a fool. My heart kicked in a steady, certain rhythm. No cold clamps of fear. No shadows creeping along the edges of my mind. Just warmth blooming outward from the center of my chest.Jess and Tannin were already in the kitchen when I stepped out. Jess had a
The rest of the day passed in that strange, weightless way where everything felt louder and softer at the same time. Like someone had peeled back a layer of silence I didn’t even know I’d been living under.The note and the photo stayed on the counter beside my sketchbook. No one touched them without asking. No one hovered. The space around them felt sacred. Untidy but important.Torin made lunch even though Rook swore he wasn’t hungry and then ate half the pan himself. Tannin complained about needing more sleep and then stayed awake for five more hours just to make sure Reif didn’t disappear on us again. Jess came and went, muttering about paperwork and police incompetence and how none of us better call him past midnight unless someone was literally bleeding. Reif hovered in the corner like he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to belong here but wanted to anyway.Late afternoon sunlight slanted across the loft, turning everything honey-gold. I sat on the floor by the coffee table with my
I must have stood on that balcony for nearly ten minutes before I trusted my legs to move again. The city noise drifted up in warm, steady waves. Car horns. Music from two blocks over. Laughter echoing faintly between buildings. It all felt strangely normal considering something inside me had just shifted in a way I could not name yet.Torin stayed behind me without crowding me. His chest brushed my back now and then when he breathed. His hands rested lightly on my hips as though he wanted to hold me tight but knew I needed space too.“You sure you want to go back inside?” he asked.“Yeah,” I whispered. “I don’t want to hide out here all day.”He kissed the back of my shoulder. “I’m here.”That was enough to get my feet moving.When I stepped inside, the loft felt different. Not bad. Just… heavier in a way that meant everyone in the room knew something had cracked open. Jess stood near the counter wiping crumbs off the surface, a pointless task since there had been no crumbs to begin
The day felt like it wanted to split itself in half. One part humming with the quiet joy of planning a wedding I never thought I would get to have. The other part carrying the heavy shadow of that letter. The handwriting. The truth wrapped inside it like a fuse waiting for a match.Skye wasn’t the only one trying to keep you apart. The words haunted the edges of every moment.I tried to focus on the stack of fabric swatches spread across the table. Jess had found the box tucked behind the bar’s old storage closet. Silk in soft blues. Lace in creamy ivory. A darker piece in a deep wine color that Tannin kept insisting would “look lethal on me in the best possible way”. But every so often my gaze drifted toward the folded letter resting beside my elbow. Torin noticed. He always noticed.He brushed his hand along my back as he passed behind me, his touch slow and grounding. “You want to take a break?” he asked softly.I shook my head. “If I stop, I’ll just start thinking again.”“You ar
~Marlowe~I found Ginger in the guest room sitting cross-legged on the bed, her gray-streaked red hair braided over one shoulder while she folded laundry like she hadn’t spent the last decade traveling the country with Burdock. She looked up the second I stepped into the doorway. Her eyes, warm and sharp all at once, softened in a way that made something inside me loosen.“Come on in, baby,” she said, patting the bed beside her. “You look like someone carrying something heavy.”I sat beside her slowly. The sketchbook trembled just enough in my hands that she noticed. Ginger always noticed.“What’s in there?” she asked gently.I opened it without answering. The photo slid out first—my mother with two toddlers who looked eerily like mirror halves of each other. Me and Rook. The note followed, old and creased and written in handwriting I didn’t recognize.Ginger inhaled sharply the moment she saw it.“You know it,” I whispered.She nodded once. “Yeah,” she said quietly. “I do.”I swallow
I closed my sketchbook slowly. The photo and note tucked inside no longer felt like a wound. They felt like a hinge, something letting an old door finally swing shut.Torin pulled me fully into his arms and held me there. He was warm. Solid. Steady. “You ready to join the chaos?” he asked softly.I nodded. “Yeah,” I said. “I think I am ready for everything now.”He smiled, kissed me once, and stood so he could pull me up with him.As we walked toward the kitchen, I thought of my mother’s letter, the woman she used to be, the girl I used to be, the life I used to have. And then I thought of this one. This home. This love. This strange, beautiful family I had chosen and who had chosen me back.The past finally felt like just that. Past. Tomorrow could be anything. And for once in my life, I wanted to meet it head on.The next morning, the loft hummed in that soft, quiet way it only did when everyone else was still asleep. Or pretending to be. Rook snored loud enough to suggest he had no







