LOGINChapter 2
Ceen
I didn't listen to him all I wanted was to get drunk and intoxicated, then get laid with anybody that wants me, I'm done begging seeking for attention, begging to feel wanted, I don't care anymore.
*Leave, leave, just leave!* The voice kept on screaming in my head, the voice that reminds me that nobody wants me, as soon as I got into my room, I threw on a bum shot, and did not even bother to change the lingerie, I grabbed my car keys and left my room
As I drove through the dark nights my tears burned my cheeks, throats dry, my heart was fucking heavy and I hated this feeling so bad, it makes me want to rip my skin off till I can't feel anything anymore.
He rejected me, he fucking did, fuck! Why does it feel like my world has crashed, fallen apart and totally destroyed. All my life that my mother paid no attention to me I didn't feel this way, all my life that I had no father I didn't crash out this much, when people didn't want to make friends with me it didn't pain this much so why does his rejection hurt so bad,
As I drove into the club downtown in Chicago, everywhere was bustling with crowd, outside, people can be seen leaning on their cars and hanging around the corners smoking, and humping each other. As soon as I stepped down from the car, I could feel some eyes on me, but I was barely seeing who they are because of the darkness and dim red lights.
I catwalked my way into the club, the disturbing smell of cigarettes ripping through the whole place, stench of alcohol lingering in every corner, men and women were doing their nasty stuff while I strides my way to the counter
“Three shots of tequila” I ordered and sat down,
“You look pretty” The bartender winked at me, but I was so emotionally unavailable to reply, I just nodded at him, as the shots of tequila was placed before me, I gulped down the first shot at once, took the second one and down the whole thing,
“Easy……” The bartender smile watching me and as I was about to take the third shot I felt a hand on my thighs and slowly looked up, it was a gentle looking guy dressed in tuxedo like my stepfather, he looked wealthy but he cannot compare to Killian when it comes to looks, and attraction.
Fuck, why the hell am I bringing up that motherfucker who just ripped my heart open and showed me he doesn't want me.
“Looks like you're alone?”
“Hmmm” I nod,
“Cool, I came alone as well, I'm Hush and you”
“I'm Ceen”
His eyes twitch and a smile appeared on his face,
“Ceen as in, Sin?” He mouthed, eyes resting on my open cleavage
“I mean you can call it that” I smile, keeping up with his stare, as his eyes undress me,
“I was thinking maybe we can have some fun tonight, you scratch my back I scratch yours, are you in?” He stretched forth his hand, that moment I suddenly felt like I'm being watched, from the corners of my eyes I saw a familiar gray orbs, *He followed me to the club* interesting,
“Sure” I smiled and took Hush’s handshake, he slowly brought my hand to his mouth and as he was about to kiss the back of my hand, a punch landed on his face, sending him across the room,
“Wooooh!” A scream tore from the crowd as everybody's attention turned towards us.
“What the fuck is wrong with you Killian?” The man growled mentioning his name, but for some reason he didn't dare try to fight back, he just stood glaring at Killian, who suddenly grabbed my hand and began to drag me out of the club even when I resisted so bad,
“Let me go”
“What the hell is wrong with you, I said let me go” I kept on yelling as we got outside trying to free from his grip, but he opened the car door and forced me inside, slamming the door shut, he got into the driver's seat and ignited the car, without saying anything to me he began driving.
“What is wrong with you I was having fun before you came, what the hell is your problem, you don't want me and you still do not want me to be with others, why are you being a pain the ass?”
The car suddenly came to a halt, with my head almost crashing against the window,
“Fuck, are you courting death, what the….”
“One more word from you and I promise you won't use your legs for the next one month”
I don't know what happened but my mouth suddenly clasped shut, I swear I've never seen him this dangerously angry before, his eyes was filled with rage, but most of all when he made that threat every fibre in me knew he meant every word, yet in-between my legs is pulsating just by hearing his command.
“You want to get laid so bad right? I'll punish you so bad that never in your life will you allow another man's hand to touch you”
I bite my bottom lips so hard, my hands clenched to my thighs, I was supposed to be afraid of his threats but my nipples were hardening and pointing out through the lingerie, I could feel Killian's eyes resting on it more than it should, he's staring like it's some appetizing meal to be devoured,
I was happy, I know he's angry right now but at least he's hungry, and it's for me, for some reasons I suddenly got excited for his punishment, I cannot wait to see what he'll do to me. As the car ignited and jerked back to life, his eyes did not leave the road till we finally got back to the mansion,
“Stay put” He ordered, and without being told twice, I didn't dare to move, I watched as he unclasp his seatbelt and came down from the car, he opened the car door for me and angrily ripped off my seatbelt, he suddenly threw me over his shoulders and began making his way into the mansion,
I stayed quiet, like the little obedient doll I was according to him. As we made it upstairs to his room and the door opened, he threw me on the bed, I watched as he closed the door, when he turned to stare at me, his gray eyes was now burning red, with something forbidden something dominating.
I should be running for my life, from that stare, but no……I stayed
I found myself gulping nervously, while he folded the sleeves of his shirt
“You fucking went out to fuck some random guy, and it's my fucking enemy? Tonight I'm going to show you what they do to a stubborn little doll like you, Now take off your clothes”
“I…..I…didn't know he was your rival” I found myself mumbling
“Take off your clothes or I'll do it, dont push me”
With my gaze resting on him, I found myself obeying every word he said, I unzipped my bum short as it fell right before his eyes, my ass bouncing on the process, slowly I took off the lingerie, my boobs popped out, everything was staring right at him,
I swear his gaze darkened, staring at me I could see his bulge thickening from his pant, he looks like he could feast on me,
“Now climb that bed and position in all fours”
CeenI have only one place in mind and that is the club, I'm going to ask about the only man that has ever wanted me in this life, call it crazy or whatever but that's how I think I needed that closure cause right now my head is spinning from all the rejections in life I literally feel like I might go berserk. Just when I thought I had Killian Romero he ended up slipping through my finger, I fucking hate myself right now, I can't even look in the mirror without thinking maybe something is wrong with me, how can I strip naked before a man and he still walked away, I know he said it's my punishment but it's not, he simply did not like what he saw, fuck I'm so pitiful.I blinked back my tears as I drove into the club which is currently empty because of course it's morning and that's what it's supposed to be. It's usually like this during the day with just a few people lurking around but at night it's buzzing with crowds.Throughout my ride I noticed one of Killian's was following you, I
CeenOn hearing his command my body was set on fire, in-between my legs dripping like the ocean as desire took over my body. Without wasting time I mounted the bed my back against him as I position my ass like an obedient little dog I am, with my head tilted backwards staring at his gaze that was fixed right on my ass, Excitement overwhelmed me, seeing how he was fighting the last bit of control on him, the darkness looming in his eyes shows just how much he wanted me, and slowly he began to take slow and predatory steps towards me, standing close to the edge of the bed, I was already a mess, my wetness is almost dripping down my thigh, “Fucking little slut” He groan as he smeared his hands on the liquid dripping down my thigh, “Taah…..” A hot spank landed on my ass cheek, “Mmmmm” I found myself moaning, it wasn't painful, it was mixed with pain and pleasure, my p*say throb and reverberate, I bite my lower lips fighting back my moans, He grabbed my waist with his left hand while
Chapter 2CeenI didn't listen to him all I wanted was to get drunk and intoxicated, then get laid with anybody that wants me, I'm done begging seeking for attention, begging to feel wanted, I don't care anymore.*Leave, leave, just leave!* The voice kept on screaming in my head, the voice that reminds me that nobody wants me, as soon as I got into my room, I threw on a bum shot, and did not even bother to change the lingerie, I grabbed my car keys and left my room As I drove through the dark nights my tears burned my cheeks, throats dry, my heart was fucking heavy and I hated this feeling so bad, it makes me want to rip my skin off till I can't feel anything anymore. He rejected me, he fucking did, fuck! Why does it feel like my world has crashed, fallen apart and totally destroyed. All my life that my mother paid no attention to me I didn't feel this way, all my life that I had no father I didn't crash out this much, when people didn't want to make friends with me it didn't pain t
CeenA burning stepfather’s attraction, the man I was not supposed to want, the man I was not supposed to crave, yet I see myself falling deeper and deeper into the chaos unwilling to let go, not that I have done anything intimate with him, but I don't even trust myself enough to not do anything if he's closest centimeter to me.Whenever he glanced or looked at me I feel like I could drown in his gaze, his stares makes me feel like I want to become his and no others, I want him to break me and destroy me in the most possible way, to claim me and make me his belonging and no one else, and that's the moment I realized I was beyond saving. Having these crazy thoughts about the man that was supposed to be my new father, my mother's new husband. I think I'm fucked up, but it's not my fault, blame it of Felisha for being the most useless mother ever, who goes out stay three months outside and completely forgets she has a daughter, what else can I do but want to be wanted especially when no







