TOVA
After an entirely enjoyable breakfast with Lady Ulka, I was escorted down to the stables where I began to saddle Bo.
Bo was being naughty today, nuzzling my hair and pushing me, not allowing me to cinch the straps. I giggled and braced my feet and he pushed against me harder. Then he growled.
I turned my head to see Gunhild, another one of the King’s children, standing outside the stable and making faces at me. She was only thirteen but was born without an ounce of kindness. She was rude to the servants and cruel to the animals. I hated that she was allowed in the stables.
“Go back to the castle, child. Bo is not amused by your presence,” I warned. Bo stomped his feet. With eight hooves, it is impressive.
She stuck her tongue out at me and flung a horse apple at me, a hardened ball of horse shit. It hit me on the side of my leg. I sighed and patted Bo.
“Sorry, Buddy. I’m not going to let this one go.” I dropped the saddle tool on the ground and took off after Gunhild, seeing her racing for the back of the large pasture. I was taller and I was faster, and I almost caught up with her when she crested a hill. Laying in wait on the other side were three more of the king’s children, including Knud. He stood up as I lurched to a stop.
“Not so sure of yourself now, are you Lady Bovine?” He grinned at me, wanting me to cry or run away. I snickered.
“Really? Lady Bovine? That’s the best you can come up with? How old are you? Ten?” I mocked him.
His eyes narrowed and he waved at his half brothers and sisters. “You better start running now, Lady Bovine. Because when we catch you, we’re going to make you bleed.”
I looked at the other three and weighed my options, but I knew that I wouldn’t run. There was a serious stubborn streak in me that wouldn’t allow me to run and hide behind others. I sighed, wishing I hadn’t dropped the saddle tool. I could have used that to hit one or two of them in the head.
One of the things that Arne, my defense instructor, had taught me was to never wait. So, I didn’t. I decided Gunhild was the weakest, and I was going to take her down, and then I was going to take Kelse down. Once both girls were out of the equation the odds would be better.
I launched myself at Gunhild who saw me coming and screamed and rolled into a ball. I used my boot to kick her in the side of the head and then turned towards Kelse before anyone had a chance to react. I used the heel of my hand to hit her chin, knocking her backwards on to her butt where she promptly burst into tears. Knud finally started to react, coming at me. I ignored him and went for his brother, Toke, and kicked him hard in the stomach.
Knud grabbed me from behind, pinning my elbows together. I stomped backwards, trying to get his feet but he moved them and we fought in a weird sort of dance. Toke got up, winded from the blow to his stomach, and came at me, punching and kicking. I took a blow to my stomach which doubled me over and then a kick to the head which made me lightheaded.
I was bent over, Knud holding my elbows tightly, so I decided to try to flip him over the top of me. I had successfully done it to Arne, but it was different when the opponent was actively trying to kill you. I braced myself, backed up and tried to push into him but all that happened was that I fell on the ground with him on top of me. I would have to ask Arne to go over that lesson with me again, because it obviously didn’t work when I tried it. I took a few more blows to the head before I heard low growling and a loud squeal.
“It’s the monster!” Toke screamed and I was let go while the four ran away, back to the castle.
Bo neighed and bumped me with his nose, trying to move me. I rolled over and grabbed his face, kissing his massive nose. “Thanks, buddy. I was in a little bit over my head.”
“Knud again?” Birgir was standing on the hill above me, looking down at me with a smirk. I shrugged.
“Don’t know. Didn’t see.”
“Bullshit.” Birgir said. “Bo broke through his stall door and raced for the edge of the pasture. Figured you got yourself into trouble again.” He walked down the hill and stuck his hand out. I grabbed it and he pulled me to my feet and handed me a kerchief. I dabbed it to my nose, stopping the blood.
“Care to tell me who did this?”
I shrugged. “No, not really.”
Birgir sighed deeply. “You’re too stubborn for your own good, Tova,” he said. “I can make sure this doesn’t happen again.”
I grinned at him. “No, you can’t. King Erik won’t punish his kids they way they need to be punished. And if you were to try you would be exiled and I would lose my most favorite person in this entire kingdom.”
“Favorite, huh?” he looked pleased. He dug a package out of his jacket pocket and handed it to me. “Happy Birthday, Tova,” he said.
I took the package wrapped loosely in fabric and tied with a piece of string. Curious, I untied it and looked at the lump of brown substance that now sat in my hand. Tears stung my eyes.
“Is this pemmican?” I asked in a whisper. He nodded at me.
“I remember you said your mom used to make this for you and you missed it.” His voice was a little gruff and he looked away in embarrassment.
I threw my arms around him and hugged him. “This is probably the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me.” I said. “Who made it?”
He grinned. “It’s safe to eat. I went to a little village on the other side of the lake. They had a lady there that was from the Forest Country like your folks. She said she knew how to make it. I’ve never had it, so you’ll have to tell me if it’s good. If it is, I’ll get you more.”
I sniffed. I couldn’t believe he remembered. I broke it in half and handed a piece over. “Try it.”
He looked at it with suspicion. “What is it?”
“I was only six when you came and got me. I don’t remember! I just know I loved it.” I sniffed my portion deeply, memories flooding me. I took a bite and almost swooned.
“Birgir! It’s amazing!” he looked pleased at my enthusiasm. He took a bite of the portion he had and then shrugged, handing it back. “Probably an acquired taste?”
I laughed. “Probably.” I carefully wrapped the remaining and tucked it into a saddlebag. I finished cinching Bo’s saddle and then turned to Birgir.
“Do you want to come with?”
He nodded. “Yeah. I already dismissed your guard. I’m going to have a talk with him, though, for allowing this to happen to you.” He gently touched my swollen eye. I grinned at him, though a little lopsided from my swollen lip.
“It wasn’t his fault. I ran out the back door. Plus I gave more than I got,” I said, proudly.
“I know you did, little one,” he said.
Our castle was on a huge island in the middle of a large lake. For six months out of the year it was frozen, and we were able to ride across it. Spring has started and the ice was no longer stable, so we were unable to leave the island. We decided to ride around the shoreline, most of which was on top of a cliff.
We galloped for awhile and I let Bo take the lead. Birgir was on a borrowed beast, another eight-legged beast named Troi. She was not as fast as Bo but willing to follow and give it her all. I laughed with delight as Bo thundered along the cliff, dangerously close. I heard Birgir shout in alarm behind me, but I ignored him. Bo was surefooted and he knew what he was doing.
We waited for Birgir and Troi at the highest point of the island, on top of a cliff overlooking the sea. The wind blew my hair straight back from my head as I looked out over the gray, foreboding lake. He slowed Troi to a walk and came up on me.
“You’ve turned into a beautiful woman, little one,” he said. I turned to him with a smile.
“Thank you, Birgir. That’s a great compliment!”
He looked confused. “Do you not hear that from anyone?”
I shrugged, pulling my cloak around me tighter. “Not really. Lady Ulka talks to me about how to be beautiful. The Illegitimates tell me I look like a pig or a cow or a horse’s anus. The Concubines hide behind their hands and talk about how unfortunate my hair color is, or my fat lips or my skinny legs.” I looked at him. “So, nope. You’re the only one that has ever told me I’m beautiful.”
He looked at me with disbelief. “You realize the illegitimates and the concubines are angry and jealous, right?”
I laughed. “It doesn’t bother me much. The only time it does is when I find that King Erik is in the castle, and he finds time for one of his other women.” And he doesn’t come see me, but I didn’t add that out loud. That would be presumptuous of me to say. The High King can see who he wants to see when he wants to see them.
A horn sounded in the distance and Birgir turned his steed back towards the castle. “Speaking of the High King, it looks as if he will be there for your birthday dinner tonight,” he said. “You had better get back. You need to give your ladies in waiting time to deal with your black eye.”
TOVA Birgir led the way back to the stable, not allowing me to take my time on the way back. I was a little miffed at him and at the High King; it was my birthday and I certainly didn’t want to spend it in uncomfortable dresses with my hair pulled up too tight and shoes that pinched. I wanted to wear my buckskin leggings with a shift over the top and my hair loose and not contained. I wanted to be riding Bo through the glades. I didn’t want to be a lady, the next Queen. I wanted to just be Tova. I was sitting in my bath after being fussed at by Frida for my black eye. She had disappeared to gather supplies to make me presentable tonight and I lay back, sighing with relief. I didn’t like being chastised like I was a child, though in their minds I was still the scared six-year-old that showed up smelly and cowed. I lay back and let my feet float to the top of the water, idly watching my toes when the outer door to my cham
TOVA Birgir squeezed my upper arm gently, guiding me to follow the guard. “Come with me,” I whispered, frantically. “I can’t, Little One. I’ve not been invited. You will be fine. I won’t take my eyes off of you,” he cooed reassuringly into my ear. I wasn’t placated. I knew that the High King could do whatever he wanted to me, including death, and there wouldn’t be a thing Birgir could do. I followed the guard, trying not to look like I was being led to the gallows. I passed Lady Ulka who gave me a sympathetic smile and a conspiratory wink. Normally I would find that funny but not tonight. Tonight just turned for the worse for me. The guard held my chair and I slipped into it like I had been taught. He started to slide it in, and I moved with the chair, causing it to loudly clank on the ground and my face to redden. One of the King’s Concubines giggled, and several other gu
TOVA If I had thought my torment was over because the acting High Queen Ulka had said it was to be over, I was mistaken. I underestimated the sheer pettiness of women, and the pleasure men take in watching us fight. I had made it through the soup course without mishap, speaking to no one and not minding at all. I usually sit in the corner, so I don’t have the opportunity to observe and watch people and I was enjoying it. I tried hard to do it astutely so that no one would notice. That is why I wasn’t aware that I was being spoken to until I was. I realized Queen Marta was speaking to me. “I’m sorry?” I said, smiling and leaning forward a little so I could see her better. She smiled sweetly at me and repeated. “Do you enjoy your studies?” I smiled back at her. She seemed like she was genuinely interested. “Yes, your highness, I do. Of course, I enjoy some more than others, but they are all i
TOVA Thankfully dinner didn’t go on much longer. I wasn’t sure what to think of what had happened between the High King and myself. I knew that he had a lot to drink with dinner and I was sure that had a lot to do with his attitude towards me. In the past he barely spoke to me or acknowledged my presence. It was not uncommon for us to go a year without him seeing me. I was shocked he was so familiar with me tonigh. I was not a naïve child anymore. I am still innocent, in that way, but I knew what was to take place in the marriage bed and I knew where babies came from. When I said that my education was well rounded, I wasn’t kidding. The midwife and the medicine man gave me a formal sex* education but the servants gave me an informal one. Where the midwife prattled on about it being my duty and an honor, the servant girls spoke of passion and pleasure. It appears that, with the right person, it was much mor
TOVA I looked at High King Erik with alarm. He was in my bath chamber, and I was naked under the water. The bubbles hid most of me, but he was my betrothed, and there was nothing improper about him being here. He was High King. He could be anywhere he wanted to be. He was also irritated with me. I am used to him being angry with me, but usually just because I was existing, not because I’ve actually done anything. I should have been very afraid, knowing how volatile and brutal he could be, but I wasn’t. I was angry. I still had enough self-preservation to know that I should not provoke him while he was angry. I lowered my eyes while I considered my words. “And now you’re ignoring me?” he continued to shout. Okay, that’s it. Forget it. I’ll probably be whipped tomorrow morning, but he was making me mad. “Yes, High King. I am ignoring your question. I refuse to lie to y
ERIKI left Tova’s chamber and almost ran into Birgir who backed against the wall and inclined his head slightly, showing respect. I ignored him and the pang of jealousy that ran through me when he entered her chamber door, going to her to check on her wellbeing.I didn’t regret making my mother’s lover my future wife’s Keeper. There was no one better to keep her safe and I knew that he would die for her, and he would not betray me with her. I smiled ruefully. My mother kept him too busy to consider taking another lover.I marched back to my wing of the castle, ignoring the concubine that came out of her room to intercept me. When she stepped in front of me, I pushed her aside, causing her to stumble. I did not even look at her. She was nothing to me anymore.Ever since dinner last night I have been unable to get Tova out of my mind. She was smart and sassy, and she commanded re
ERIK My mother left my chambers and I sat and thought a few minutes, and my mind kept returning to how lovely Tova looked tonight, especially when she stood up from her bath. The memory of the water and bubbles streaming off from her form made me hard again and I licked my lips in arousal. I sighed, gathered up my things and went to visit one of my concubines. Nita was my newest acquisition, purchased from her father a six months ago from a small fishing village. I had been riding with my groom when I saw her on the edge of the lake and had to have her. I spoke to her father and the deal was made. A bag of gold for his daughter. He was pleased and she, not so much. I know the women of my harem are easily jealous and not kind to newcomers, but she handled herself well. She had her own tiny apartment that was built into the seventh hallway, traditionally where the concubines are housed. They have their own courtya
TOVA Three days after the king was in my bath chamber, I watched from my windows as five of the eight concubines that the King kept were escorted out of the castle. The wagons led, heavily loaded with the belongings of the women and children. Then a few servants followed, leading some of the younger kids by the hands. The women followed last, also in a wagon, glaring murderously at those around them. One noticed me looking at them and pointed. The other four turned their gaze to me and started shouting. Birgir came and pulled me away from the window. “This is of no consequence to you, Tova,” he stated. I looked at him, confused. “Where are they going? And why are they angry?” Birgir sighed. “The King has prepared a compound for them on the shore village.” I was shocked. The shore village was on the other side of the lake. Those wagons would be floated over the water and the women and children would be put into a boat. Even crossing at the narrowest spot on the lake