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The days after I received the news of my father's death went by in a blur. I’d stopped counting how many times I woke up and forgot, only to remember and feel the loss all over again.
Two weeks.
That's how long it took for the reality of our situation to crash down on us completely.
Mom had sat me down at the kitchen table one night. The same table where Dad used to do crossword puzzles. Where he'd help me with math problems even though he was terrible at them. Where he'd kiss the top of my head every morning before work.
I felt like smashing it right now.
"We need to talk, baby." Her voice was raspy; she must have been crying again. She was always crying now, or pretending not to cry, which was somehow worse.
"Okay." I braced myself.
"The funeral costs..." She swallowed hard. "And the medical bills from before, the mortgage. Your father's life insurance—it's not enough. It's not nearly enough."
"How much are we talking?"
When she told me the number, my stomach dropped to the floor.
Why did life have to be so damn hard?
I could imagine Alison laughing at me.
"We're going to lose the house," she whispered. "I've tried everything. I've called everyone. But with just my salary—"
"What if I get a job?"
"Lena, you're in school. You have your scholarship to think about—"
"I don't care about—"
"You do care." She reached for my hand. "Your father cared too; he wanted you to have opportunities he never had. I won't let his death take that from you."
"Then what do we do?"
She was quiet for a long time. When she finally spoke, she wouldn't meet my eyes.
"The family I work for—they made an offer. Their youngest son needs someone to watch him after school. He's seven. He needs patience, someone who can work with him and their oldest, he's been struggling with his classes, falling behind. His grades are affecting something important for him, sports, I think."
I waited, not liking where this was going.
"They need one person who can do both. Help with the little one and tutor the older one." Mom finally looked at me. "It pays well, Lena. Really well. Enough to cover the debt and keep the house. The mother said if you took the position, we could even work out a schedule around your school hours. You'd basically live there during the week, but—"
"Wait." I held up my hand. "Live there? At their house?"
"Just weekdays. You'd have your own room. They have a whole guest area. It's not like—"
"Mom, I don't even know these people."
"You know me. I've worked for them for five years. They're good people, Lena. The mother is kind; she’s the one who suggested this. She said she'd rather hire someone she trusts than go through an agency."
"And the son I'd be tutoring? What's he like?"
Mom hesitated, just a fraction of a second. But I saw it.
Oh, he must be a Jerk then.
"He's... a typical teenager. Focused on whatever his sport is. Maybe a little spoiled, but his mother says he just needs the right motivation."
I thought about it.
Thought about spending my afternoons with some rich kid who probably looked at people like me and saw nothing.
It reminded me of Alison.
I thought about walking into a house where my mother worked, where she cleaned up after them, where she was invisible.
But I also thought about the number Mom had said, the debt she had mentioned, and I didn’t want to lose Dad’s house.
"Okay," I heard myself say. "I'll do it."
Mom's face crumpled with relief. "Really?"
"Really. Set up the meeting."
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I stood in front of a house that looked nothing like anything I'd ever seen in person.
Mansion was the word. Three stories of glass and stone, a circular driveway, perfectly manicured lawns, and a fountain.
A fountain. A freaking fountain
Like people actually lived like this.
I tugged at my shirt, suddenly aware that I was wearing the same jeans I'd worn to school all week. The only jeans that still fit right are the ones with the small hole near the pocket that I'd been meaning to fix.
The woman who answered the door was beautiful in that effortless way rich women are—perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect smile that somehow looked genuine.
"Lena! I'm so glad you came." She pulled me into a hug like we were old friends. "Your mother speaks so highly of you. Come in, come in."
The inside was worse. Or better, depending on your perspective.
Marble floors stretched as far as I could see, a staircase that belonged in movies and arts on the walls that probably cost more than our house.
We sat in a living room that felt bigger than my entire home. While she talked about the position—hours, responsibilities, pay…… my head was spinning.
Actually, the pay made my head spin; it was more than double what I'd expected.
"Martin is the priority," she explained. "He's seven. He's verbal but struggles with social situations; he needs consistency and patience. His last nanny didn't work out because she couldn't understand his triggers."
"I understand," I said, and I did. My cousin growing up had autism, so I'd learned early how to communicate without words.
"And my older son..." She sighed. "He's a harder case. He’s stubborn, headstrong, and he doesn’t ike admitting he needs help, but his father is adamant that his grades improve. If his GPA drops any lower, he'll be off the team, and that's not an option."
"I'll do my best."
"I know you will. Lena, I want you to know—I don't see this as charity. I see this as helping each other. Your mother is invaluable to our family. If we can help her by helping you, that's what family does."
Family.
She said it like we were already part of theirs.
"Mom said I'd be staying here during the week?"
"If that works for you. We have a guest room prepared. You'd have complete privacy, and you'd still see your mother every day—she's here most mornings anyway."
I nodded, trying to process.
"Speaking of which",—she checked her watch—"my son should be home from practice soon. I'd like you to meet him before we finalise anything. Martin's with his therapist, but you'll meet him tomorrow."
My stomach clenched. "Okay."
The front door slammed open before I was ready, followed by heavy footsteps and a deep voice —low, annoyed, talking to someone on the phone.
"I don't care what Coach says. I'm not working with some random tutor. I told you I'd fix my grades myself."
The boy from the phone walked into the living room and stopped dead as his eyes landed on me.
Recognition flashed across his face—surprise, then confusion, then something darker.
Rage
Jace Dawson.
The quarterback, the very one who held the camera, who watched me get destroyed and said it wasn't his problem.
My crush, ironically
"No," he said flatly.
His mother frowned. "Jace, this is Lena. She's going to be tutoring you and helping with Martin."
"No." He said it again, harder this time. "Absolutely not."
"Jace Michael Dawson—"
"You don't understand." He was staring at me like I'd grown a second head. "She goes to my school. She's—" He stopped himself.
I stood up, my legs felt shaky, but my voice came out steady. "I go to your school. That's right, and…and you know what else is right? I need this job, my family needs this job. So whatever problem you have with me, I suggest you get over it."
His mother looked between us, confused. "Is there something I should know?"
"No," I said at the same time Jace said, "Yes."
Silence.
Jace ran a hand through his hair. His jaw was tight. I watched him struggle with something—maybe pride, maybe guilt, maybe the memory of his phone pointed at me while Alison shoved me to the ground.
"It's nothing," he finally muttered. "Whatever. Do what the fuck you fucking want."
“Jason”, his mother chided
He turned and walked out.
His mother sighed. "I apologise for him. He's... going through a phase."
A phase? That's what she called it. I resisted the urge to laugh.
I thought about quitting here and then? about telling her I'd find another job, any job, rather than spend one second under the same roof as the boy who watched me get bullied and called it not his problem.
Then I thought about Mom's face when she told me we might lose the house.
"It's fine," I said. "I can handle him."
She smiled, relieved. "Wonderful. When can you start?"
I swallowed every ounce of pride I had left.
"Tomorrow."
I blinked. "Huh?""You kind of stopped listening and started staring at nothing. You seem really worried about something." Martin poked my arm. "You haven’t done that in a while, are you okay?”Out of the mouths of babes."Of course I’m okay. Sorry about that, bud. Let's get back to work."Martin giggled, “You called me bud, just like Jace usually does.”“Oh.” I blinked. How long have I been doing that?” I asked, surprised to hear it. I barely noticed that I was picking up some of Jace's mannerisms, probably from all the time we used to spend together.“I didn't notice it either, until Jace told me and asked me to keep it a secret.""A secret?" I asled.Martin's eyes went wide when he realised it wasn't a secret anymore. "Uh oh. I probably shouldn't have said that""But don’t worry,” Marcus grinned, “I don’t mind it. And I'm sure Jace doesn't mind either, so it’s okay.”I cleared my throat, muttering, “Alright then. Let’s continue.”We were deep into a discussion about how the introdu
The question hung in the air between us, still unanswered, even after ten seconds of staring at him, dumbfounded like an idiot.Do you still love Jace?I opened my mouth. Closed it. Opened it again.The answer should have been simple. No. Of course not. After everything he'd done, everything he'd put me through—But I simply couldn’t make myself say the words.My mind spun through a thousand justifications, a thousand different explanations for why I couldn’t just be honest, but my throat had closed up completely.Meanwhile, Noah’s expression turned dark."That's what I thought." He turned to leave."Wait—please," I begged desperately, shutting the door and standing in front of it to stop him from leaving. "It's not—of course I don't love him. I mean… love is such a strong word. I don't know if that's even what I'd call it, but—""But what, Lena?" Noah cut me off, his voice eerily calm. "I think I’ve heard more than enough. I don’t need you repeating the same new lines over and over a
I stood outside my house for a full minute, my hand on the doorknob, unable to make myself turn it.What if Noah had already seen the photos? What if he'd already decided that I wasn't worth the trouble?What if I walked in there and lost the last person I had left who was still on my side?I took a shaky breath and opened the door to find Noah sitting on my bed, waiting patiently for me.His posture was unnaturally stiff, his spine straight, his hands resting on his knees, and his jaw tight with tension.He wasn't looking at his phone, nor was he looking at anything else. Instead, he just stared at the wall like he was trying to see through it with a betrayed look on his face."So I guess you two are back together, aren’t you?” He started, his voice quiet.I would’ve preferred it if he had yelled at me, because at least then it would’ve been some kind of reaction, instead of this tense silence. I swallowed nervously, wringing my hands, trying to find the right words to say. "Noah—"
I stood frozen in Marco's Pizza, my mind spinning while I tried to process what had just happened. Jace was gone before I could follow while I waited there like a fool, shocked beyond belief, wondering when exactly I’d become the kind of girl that got followed around by paparazzi.At least Jace was gone now, I thought, that’s the end of that. I wouldn't have to think about that again.I was just about to leave when my phone suddenly buzzed in my hand.I heaved a sigh of relief when I saw it was an incoming call from Nicole."Hey, Nicole. How’s your morning going? You won’t believe what just happened to me…” I started, desperately needing to get it all off my chest."Girl." Nicole's voice was cold and flat. Nothing at all like the bubbly warmth that I'd gotten used to over spring break. "What the hell did you do?"“I… I don’t understand. What do you mean?” I asked, my voice sounding thin and pathetic. “If this is about our road trip, I haven’t talked to my mom yet but I think…”"Don't
Marco appeared with two waters, and I was grateful for the attention. "You kids want anything to eat?""Not yet," Jace said, not taking his eyes off me. "Thanks, Marco."When Marco left, Jace leaned forward. "How've you really been?" At the same time I asked, “How are you feeling?”He didn’t make any move to answer my question, so instead I answered his."I’ve been good. Great, actually." I forced brightness into my voice. "School starts again in a week, and so does cheerleading. I'm excited.""Right. Cheerleading." His jaw tightened. "With Allison."I sighed, “Not everyone can have the luxury of having everything practically handed to them. In my case, I have to tolerate people I don’t like, just so I can be happy and do what I love. I think it’s a decent trade-off.”Jace gave a short, bitter laugh."Really? The girl who's made your life hell for four years is suddenly tolerable.”"That’s not what I said. And look, all of this is only possible because—""Because of Noah.“ He stated ac
"Lena?" Noah's voice was getting closer. "Are you awake yet? Where are you?”I shoved my phone under the pillow and called out, "I’m in the bathroom! Be right there!"I slipped out of bed and grabbed the first clothes I could find, a pair of jeans and a hoodie. My hands were shaking as I pulled them on.Think. Think.You could sneak out through the bathroom door, the thought came.And so that’s what I did; I locked it from the inside, then quietly opened the window.It led to the small balcony that connected to the trellis where I could creep down if I was brave Enough.I worried Mrs Dawson would probably have a lot of confused questions for me if she saw me sneaking out of their house so early in the morning, but I was sure I could disappear and make it back before Martin’s lesson time passed."Lena? You okay in there?""Yeah! Just—" I flushed the toilet for dramatic effect. "Give me a minute!"I climbed out onto the balcony, my sneakers barely making a sound on the wood. The trellis
The church was fuller than I expected.That was the first thing that got me. Walking through those doors with my mother's arm through mine and seeing how many people had come. Some faces I half recognised and half that I didn't. The room was full of people who had known my father in chapters of hi
NINEMartin had fallen asleep mid-sentence.One moment he was telling me about the classification system he'd invented for his train collection that was colour-coded by era, and the next his head was drooping toward the table. No warning. Just gone.I sat there for a moment watching him sleep, his
"Okay but Jace," Devon said, having descended safely from the bleachers at some point. "Real talk. She's cute, right? You gonna take her out?"I put my phone back in my pocket."I'll pass," I said, looking away from the crowd to instead stare at my watch. 8:25. I wasn't interested in getting into a
TWENTY THREE"I…"I had an answer ready that I'd rehearsed on my way here in case anyone noticed the giant red handprint on my face that was now turning into an ugly bruise.It was perfectly reasonable, one that wouldn't reveal anything about my broken family life, and I was about to deliver it when







