تسجيل الدخولThe girls laughed harder, while Alison beamed like she'd just won an award and the guys the whole school cheered for during games, the guys everyone worshipped just watched.
Some of them smirked and some pulled out their own phones.
"Wait," one of them said, I think his name was Marcus. "Isn't that the girl who tutors?"
"Tutors?" Another guy laughed. "Who'd let her near their kids? She'd eat all their food."
More laughter erupted. It echoed off the locker room walls, bouncing around, multiplying, until it felt like the whole world was laughing at me.
Alison grabbed my hair this time, twisting until I gasped. "Since you love watching so much, let's give you a real show. On your knees."
"No..."
She shoved me hard.
I hit the floor hard enough to jar my teeth. My palms scraped against the gritty tile, skin burning. Above me, phones pointed down like weapons, recording every second.
"Please," I breathed, but the word was swallowed by their laughter.
"Please what?" Alison crouched in front of me, patting my head like I was a dog. "Please stop? But we're just getting started. Besides"—she glanced back at Jace, who was still filming, his expression utterly blank—"we're creating content. Right, Jace?"
He shrugged. "Not my problem."
Not my problem.
Three words and that’s all it took.
Three words from the boy I'd been stupid enough to think might be different, three words that told me everything I needed to know about who he really was.
The door burst open again.
"WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?"
Coach Miller's voice cut through the laughter like causing everyone to freeze.
Alison was on her feet instantly, her face changing into an expression of innocence so practiced it was almost impressive. "Coach! Thank god you're here. We found her like this. I think she fell?"
Fell.
I wish I actually fell
I stared up at her, then at the others. Every single one of them nodded along, faces blank with lies.
Jason though, really even had the decency to act like he was lying he looked like he didn’t care if he was caught
"That right?" Coach Miller looked at me, then at the phones still in some of their hands. "Then why do half of you have your phones out?"
"Snapchat," someone muttered. "We were just—"
"Out. All of you. Now."
They scattered like roaches. Alison shot me one last scalding look over her shoulder—.
“This isn't over” she mouthed
Jace was the last to leave, he pocketed his phone without looking at me, without a single flicker of guilt or shame or anything. Like I was invisible. Like I was nothing.
Yeah Lena, actually you are…..at least to him
Coach Miller helped me up. "You okay, kid?"
I nodded because my voice was gone.
"You want to report this? I saw enough. I'll back you up."
Report it.
Report the daughter of the most powerful man in the city. Report the quarterback who could have any college he wanted. Report half the football team and half the cheerleading squad.
Even Jon snow in game of thrones would run from such oppposition
And I would probably lose my scholarship in the process because people like Alison had parents who'd sue the school for defamation. Lose my future because no college would touch a girl who caused drama.
"No," I heard myself say. "I'm fine. I fell."
Coach studied me for a long moment. I could guess the emotion that passed through his eyes—pity, maybe. Or disappointment. I couldn't tell which was worse.
"Get home safe," he finally said.
I grabbed my bag and ran.
The hallway was empty by now. Everyone had cleared out, probably headed to practice or after-school activities or their nice homes with their nice families.
I hugged my books to my chest and walked fast, not stopping until I hit the front doors.
Outside, the air was cool, the afternoon sun made everything look like gold. I walked home on autopilot.
Past the fancy houses near school, past the strip mall with the dollar store, past the pawn shop and the check-cashing place, until I reached our street.
Small houses, some with chain-link fences, most with at least one car up on blocks. Our house was the pale blue one at the end, the one with the peeling paint and the rose bushes my dad planted when I was little.
Dad.
The thought of him made my chest loosen just a little. Dad always knew how to make things better.
He'd wrap me in a hug and tell me their opinions didn't matter, that I was beautiful and smart and destined for things they couldn't even imagine. He believed in me so hard sometimes I almost believed it too.
I climbed the porch steps and reached for the door, already imagining his voice, his hug—
The door opened before I touched it.
My mother stood there.
Her face was pale, grey, almost. Like someone had drained all the color out of her.
Her eyes were red and swollen, mascara tracked down her cheeks in dark lines.
She was still wearing her work uniform, the apron from the house she worked at twisted in her hands like she'd been gripping it for hours.
"Mom?" My voice came out in a whisper…..Scared. "What's wrong?"
She opened her mouth, then shut it. Her lips parted
Then she crumbled.
Her knees buckled and I barely caught her, barely got us both through the door before we were on the floor together, her weight against me as I held her, as her sobs tore through the silence of our tiny living room.
"It's your father," she choked out. "Lena, baby, it's your father—"
The words after that didn't make sense. They couldn't make sense.
Heart attack.
At work.
Gone before the ambulance arrived.
I'm so sorry. He's gone. He's gone. He's gone.
I held my mother and stared at the wall while my chest felt like it was going to explode from pressure
He's gone.
Dad is gone.
In that moment, with my mother sobbing in my arms and my body still aching from where Alison slammed me into lockers and Jace's voice still echoing “not my problem” in my head.
I realized something terrible.
My life was going to get a whole lot worse
This nerd had balls of steel, I'd give her that.She had threatened my football career.My. Actual. Fucking. Football. Career.I sat on the edge of my bed, stared at the ceiling and breathed through my nose because the only other alternative was putting my angry fist through the wall, and I'd promised Martin that I would try.I'd said those exact words three years ago after the last massive fight with my father, sitting on the edge of my brother's bed while Martin looked up at me with those eyes that trusted me more than I deserved. I'll try, buddy. I promise.I was trying. I was sitting here trying to be calm instead of going back downstairs and flipping that entire dining room table and dragging that bratty girl out by her hair, and that was trying.The thing making it worse, the thing sitting on top of the anger like salt on an injury and stopping me from doing what I actually wanted, was the mother situation.Because if Lena reported me, my mother would do what she always did when
NINEMartin had fallen asleep mid-sentence.One moment he was telling me about the classification system he'd invented for his train collection that was colour-coded by era, which I chose not to point out was exactly the kind of thing I did with curriculum notes at two in the morning, and the next his head was drooping toward the table. No warning. Just gone.I sat there for a moment watching him sleep, his cheek pressed against his forearm, with his model train, apparently his favourite one, still tucked under his elbow.He trusted me enough to fall asleep in front of me.I didn't know why that hit as hard as it did. I just sat with it for a second before I carefully gathered his papers, stacked them, capped his pen, and then walked him upstairs with one hand on his shoulder to keep him pointed in the right direction. He didn't wake up fully. Just shuffled alongside me on autopilot, climbed into his bed still mostly unconscious, and curled around his train as he'd probably done a t
EIGHT"So this is what you came to talk to my brother about?"I shrank back in my chair before I could stop myself. Jace was in the kitchen doorway blocking out the light with his massive frame, his dark eyes on me, arms crossed. Apparently, he’d been watching us from the top of the stairs full of suspicion, with a pissed-off expression on his face.Why the heck was he acting like this? What was I doing to do, kidnap Martin?"We were just talking," I said. "That's all.""You're supposed to be teaching him schoolwork.""Its.. It’s important for teachers to build trust with their students so that they are more open to learning. One of the ways to do that is by chatting about their interests.” I tried to explain.“Is that so?”I continued, “Yes. Anyway, we already finished the assessment. We were just…”"Just what exactly?"I opened my mouth. Closed it. Then I stared straight at the table, completely unable to look at anything, most especially him because looking at him directly still re
SEVEN"What?"I never expected it, he’d been such a quiet kid so far, asking very few questions, and now all of a sudden he was asking me that?!Martin blinked at me, tilted his head in confusion, then he repeated himself again like he'd been perfectly clear the first time."I asked you a question. I said are you my brother's girlfriend?""No," I said. "Absolutely not."He considered it for a while, biting his lip and thinking hard. "Are you sure?""Very.""Because there's always different girls here and he tells me they're his girlfriends." A pause. "You could be one and not know.""I think I'd know.""He has a lot.""I'm sure he does." I didn't bother hiding my disgust at those words.There's no way I’d ever go out with a guy like that, he’d cured me of my crush completely. Sure I was plain and on the bigger side and I wasn’t exactly his type, and everyone would probably say I would be lucky to be with a boy as great and handsome and popular as him…"But I'm not one of them. I'm her
SIXI was such a fool.In his office earlier, Coach Ellis had looked at me with care and affection, saying he knew something was wrong and giving me the chance to tell him myself.I hadn’t taken it.I’d sat in that chair across from his desk and smiled and said everything was fine. I was only adjusting to a new schedule, there was absolutely nothing to worry about at all.I watched him watch me lie to his face for the first time since I’d met him, and it made me feel so incredibly gross, that I wanted to throw up in my mouth.I didn’t talk to him about my home life and the issue with Jace’s family, but it wasn’t because I didn’t trust him. I simply didn’t want to inconvenience him, especially he was already doing so much for me in school.Coach just nodded slowly. He didn’t look very convinced, but he smiled and said “Okay, Lena, my door is always open. If you ever need anything, make sure to come to me first, alright?”It was the first time I'd ever lied to Coach Ellis.And now this
Jace's POVWe lost the fucking game.Now, Coach was screaming at me, the team captain who’d royally fucked up, and I stood there with my helmet under my arm and took every word with my mouth shut because what the fuck was I going to say.That I couldn’t see the field, because every time I’d lined up to throw, I kept seeing her face instead, those stupid brown eyes looking at me from across the hallway.I hit the gym showers, not the locker room, because I was still too full of shame and disappointment over losing that I couldn’t yet face my team and give them the encouragement and morale they needed.But despite the hot water rushing over my head, I still couldn’t focus.The thing that was killing me, the thing I couldn’t get my head around, was that it made no fucking sense.She was nothing. She was a plain, stubborn, broke, socially invisible nerd who had no business being within ten feet of my life, and yet there I was, throwing interceptions, losing games, unable to concentrate be







