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I’m running on fumes.
Not the poetic kind of exhaustion—no, the ugly, bone-deep kind that makes time stretch into something shapeless and endless. Like I’ve been stuck in this shift long enough to forget there’s a world outside the hospital walls. Sleep feels theoretical at this point. If I really push myself, I can vaguely recall collapsing onto that narrow break room couch for three hours. Or maybe I imagined it. My body moves before I think too hard about it, carrying me toward the staff lounge like it’s operating on instinct alone. Food. Maybe that’ll fix something. Or at least make me feel less like I’m about to collapse. Inside, a few nurses and doctors from other departments are scattered around the small tables, mid-conversation, mid-bite, mid-everything. “Liana.” Jenny’s voice cuts through the low murmur of the lounge before I even register where it’s coming from. I turn toward it instinctively—familiar, grounding—and spot her at one of the small tables, already halfway through a plate of pasta. I make a beeline for her, dropping into the chair across from her without ceremony. The movement feels heavier than it should, like my body’s reminding me I’ve pushed it a little too far. We’ve been on the same track since med school—same lectures, same sleepless nights, same grind. Now we’re both second-year residents, and somehow it still feels like we’re trying to prove we belong. “I’m starving,” I mutter, not waiting for permission as I grab her fork and immediately dig in. “Easy,” she says, shooting me a look that’s equal parts judgment and amusement. “No one’s trying to take it away from you.” “Today’s just… one of those days.” I barely pause between bites, the words slipping out around the food. “I need it to be over already.” “Don’t even start,” she groans, though there’s a spark of excitement lighting up her voice that doesn’t match mine. “We’ve got that party tonight—Mr. Stone’s thing.” Right. That. Mr. Stone—the primary sponsor, one of the founding pillars of Bellevue. The kind of man whose name gets lowered voices and straightened backs. Jenny leans forward slightly, like the thought alone gives her energy. “I’ve been waiting two years for this,” she adds, almost giddy. “We finally made it onto the invite list.” I let out a quiet groan, dragging the fork through another bite like it personally offended me. “Yeah… I don’t think I’m going.” Her expression snaps, disbelief flashing across her face. “You can’t not go. That’s basically an insult.” “It’s not about wanting to or not,” I say, my voice flattening with fatigue. I drop the fork for a second, rubbing a hand over my face like I can wipe the exhaustion off. “I genuinely don’t think my body’s capable of it tonight.” “One more hour,” she says, like that alone solves everything. “You go home, crash, sleep as long as you want. You’ll be fine by tonight.” There’s no room left in her tone for argument—she’s already decided for me. “And besides…” Her voice drops, conspiratorial, her eyes flicking briefly around the room before she leans in closer. “I heard Mr. Stone’s new son is going to be there.” I pause mid-motion, the fork hovering uselessly in my hand. “His what?” I blink at her, certain I misheard. “His new son,” she repeats, lowering her voice even further until it’s practically a whisper against the air between us. She tilts her head closer, like she’s passing state secrets. “Apparently, aside from his wife and the kids everyone knows about, there’s another one. From some other woman. He only found him a few years ago.” A short, breathy laugh slips out of me before I can stop it. Of course Jenny knows this. If there’s information floating anywhere within a five-mile radius—scandal, rumor, whispered speculation—she’ll catch it like it’s her full-time job. I don’t even try to guess where she got it from. Mr. Stone guards his personal life like it’s classified. “Jesus, Jenny,” I mutter, shaking my head as I drop the fork back onto her plate. “You don’t have to believe every random thing people throw at you.” I shoot her a look, half warning, half exhausted. “And maybe don’t relay all of it to me either.” “I’m serious,” she insists, straightening slightly, like she’s about to defend a thesis. “This isn’t random gossip. It’s solid—came from someone very close to the Stone family.” Her gaze flickers across the room again, cautious. “My source says Mr. Stone’s been bringing the new son into the business—against his wife’s wishes. Like, fully involved. Grooming him for everything.” A pause, loaded with implication. “Even though his actual kids have been running things for years.” There’s a glint in her eyes now—the kind that feeds on drama. “Apparently, it’s causing a mess inside the family. Arguments about control… money… who gets what.” I let out a slow breath, the air leaving my lungs in a quiet exhale as I lean back in my chair. It should be interesting. Scandal like that usually is. But instead of getting pulled into it, my attention drifts somewhere else entirely—somewhere far more obvious. My eyes narrow slightly, a faint, knowing smirk tugging at the corner of my mouth. “Jenny.” “Mm?” she perks up instantly, expectant, like she’s waiting for me to match her enthusiasm. I tilt my head just enough to catch her reaction head-on. “Your very reliable source wouldn’t happen to be Dr. Evan Phillips… would it?” Over the past few weeks, the unexplained disappearances. The way she suddenly finds reasons to be in certain corridors. The look on her face whenever he walks by—like she forgets how to act normal for a second too long. I didn’t even have to try to notice. Didn’t have to look for it. It was just… there. Subtle, my ass. She is sleeping with him. And if anyone else figured that out? Yeah. She’d be completely fucked. “Shhh—no. Of course not,” she blurts out, way too fast, way too loud for someone trying to play it cool. The panic on her face is so obvious it’s almost painful. I break. A laugh slips out before I can stop it, low at first, then sharper, spilling over. “Oh my God, Jenny… you’re such an idiot,” I manage between breaths, shaking my head. Her eyes widen, somewhere between defensive and embarrassed. “How the hell do you even know?” I lean back slightly, lifting a shoulder in a lazy shrug, still riding the edge of amusement. “Maybe because you’re not nearly as subtle as you think you are.” I tilt my head, studying her for a second longer. “Or maybe because you’re my best friend, and I know you better than you know yourself.” The humor fades just a notch, something more serious settling underneath. “But seriously—get it together,” I add, quieter now, more deliberate. “And for the love of God, don’t go around repeating everything he tells you to every girl in this place.” Her expression shifts immediately, guilt creeping in, softening her features. She looks down for a second, then back up at me. “You have no idea how badly I wanted to tell you,” she admits, voice dropping again. “But he made it very clear—if anyone finds out… if it reaches the board…” She exhales, tension slipping through her words. “It’s going to be a problem. For both of us.” I give a small, dismissive nod, letting it go. She’s my friend. Technically, maybe I should feel something about it—offended she didn’t tell me, or at least curious enough to pry into the details. That’s what people usually do, right? Dig, ask, dissect every little piece of someone else’s relationship like it’s entertainment. But honestly? God knows how much I’ve enjoyed not knowing. And I’d like to keep it that way. I really don’t need to learn what Evan’s favorite food is. Or—Jesus—the color of his underwear. “Don’t worry about it,” I say, and this time, I mean it. No edge, no sarcasm—just something simple and real. “As long as you’re happy, I’m good. Whatever the reason is… even if I don’t know it.” She smiles at that—soft, relieved—and leans in to kiss my cheek. “You’re the best.” Yeah. Sure. She pushes her chair back and stands, already halfway out of the moment. “Alright, I’ve gotta run. I’ll see you tonight, babe.” I return a faint smile, giving her a small nod as she walks off. “Yeah,” I murmur under my breath, more to myself than anything. “Tonight.”Only a narrow opening reveals itself—just wide enough to see inside. And what I see— I don’t believe it. Not at first. Then the smell hits. Sharp. Metallic. Unmistakable. Blood. It floods my senses, tangled with sweat, alcohol, and that sterile, clinical scent I know too well—the kind that clings to hospitals, to operating rooms, to places where bodies are cut open and put back together. My stomach twists. Inside, figures in white scrubs move quickly between rows of makeshift beds. Their motions are efficient, practiced—but rushed. Too rushed. On those beds—God— Men. Broken. Covered in blood, soaked through, their clothes ruined, their bodies barely holding together. Some are conscious, groaning, low and guttural. Others lie too still, their chests rising in shallow, uneven breaths. The floor—It’s red. Not stained. Drenched. IV lines hang from metal poles, swaying slightly as people move past them. Equipment is scattered, half-organized, half-forgotten, like this place was
My eyes light up before I can stop them, something sharp and bright rushing through me as I open the message. “You left without saying goodbye.” A breath catches in my throat, but my fingers are already moving, fast, instinctive. “I thought everything we did last night was a goodbye.” The reply comes almost instantly. “Forget goodbye. Come back to me. I want to have you—always. Fuck everything and everyone that isn’t us.” It hits me like a surge—sudden, intoxicating, electric. Something floods my veins, fast and overwhelming, lifting me higher than before, higher than I should let myself go. My heart kicks hard against my ribs, my grip tightening around the phone as that dangerous, impossible feeling spreads— Hope. “I’ll come after my shift.” I type without hesitation, the decision already made somewhere deeper than logic. His reply comes almost immediately. “I’m at one of my father’s estates near the hospital. Come now. Just a few minutes.” I pause. A flicker of doubt c
By the time I make it back to my apartment, I’m so late I barely have time to breathe—let alone take a proper shower. I twist the tap open and step under the water, barely giving it a chance to warm. It hits my skin in a rushed cascade, and I drag my hands over my body in quick, distracted motions, like I’m trying to erase something and hold onto it at the same time. It’s pointless. He’s still there. In the faint marks on my skin. In the lingering heat beneath it. In the scent that no amount of hurried washing can quite strip away. I shut the water off too soon. There’s no time. My hands move fast—too fast—as I gather my damp hair, twisting it up without care. A few strokes of makeup follow, rushed, imperfect, just enough to make me look presentable instead of wrecked. I catch my reflection for half a second. It’s convincing. Barely. As a precaution, I swallow a pill dry, the motion automatic, detached—just another thing to control in a night that spiraled far beyond
My ass hits the cold, unforgiving surface of a table, and I’m already moving—fumbling with his belt, yanking at the buttons of his pants with shaking fingers. And then my hand is on him, wrapping around his thickness, his length, his heat. He’s hard as steel for me, every vein throbbing under my fingertips, pulsing with the same desperate need that’s tearing me apart. God, I want it. With a sharp tug, he shoves his pants and briefs down just enough, freeing himself. His cock presses against my entrance, hot and heavy, and I freeze, my breath catching in my throat. Then—he thrusts. A gasp tears from my lips as he fills me, stretching me, owning me. My body clenches around him, a broken sound escaping me—half pain, half pleasure, all need. “Fuck,” he growls in my ear, his voice rough, wrecked. “I missed you.” My back flattens against the table as he begins. At first, it’s too much—too full, too deep, too raw. But then the pain melts into something else, something sweet, something
For a heartbeat, he freezes. Shock locks him in place, his body rigid, unmoving. But I don’t stop. I can’t. I kiss him with everything I have, like this is the only language left to me. My hands tangling in his hair, my body pressing against his like I can fuse us together if I just try hard enough. And then—just as suddenly—he pulls me back a fraction, just enough to look at me. His eyes search mine, filled with questions, with doubt, with something unsteady. “Have me,” I whisper against his lips, the words barely more than breath. “And let me have you. One last time.” I don’t wait. I surge up again, capturing his mouth with mine. For a few agonizing seconds, he’s motionless, suspended between resistance and surrender. And then— His arms wrap around me, tight, almost desperate, hauling me up against him, until I’m balanced on the tips of my shoes. His restraint breaks, his hesitation shattering as he pulls me in, closer, deeper—like he’s trying to consume the moment
My entire body gives out. My knees buckle, the strength just drains out of me like something vital has been ripped loose. I would’ve hit the floor if he wasn’t holding me. If his hands weren’t there, bracing me, taking my full weight like I’m something fragile he can’t afford to drop. “W-what?” My voice trembles, barely holding together. He says nothing. I should’ve seen it coming. I did see it coming—didn’t I? The way she was always there. The way he never pushed her away. Maybe some part of me already knew. But knowing… and hearing it from him? It’s not the same. It knocks the air straight out of my lungs. I can’t breathe. I can’t think. It’s like something is crushing my chest from the inside out. But I don’t stay broken. The embers of fury ignite, slow at first, then roaring to life. Heat floods my face, my ears ringing with the rush of blood, my skin prickling as it spreads. It burns through the shock, through the ache, until it’s the only thing I can hold onto.







