Chapter 3

Xian West's P.O.V.

"Xi? Xi? Wake up, you need to take your meds" I was awakened by Ace, slightly tapping my hand. 

I opened my eyes and saw him looking at me, beside him is a nurse holding a tray with a small cup containing my meds and a glass of water. 

Ace helped me sit on my bed, the nurse handed me the small cup with meds, I took it and drank my medicine.

After I drank my medicine the nurse checked me and left. 

I am now just staring at the ceiling of my room when I suddenly remembered the dream that I had last night. 

In the dream I saw Ayesha, in that dream I was able to propose to her and she said yes. 

After that, she still went to Paris and I started my investment company uears after when she returned we got married and lived a happy life with our kids. 

I smiled subconsciously as I thought of that, but my smile turned to a sad one when I remember that she is gone now and that can never happen in this lifetime. 

I turned to look at Ace, I saw him peeling an orange, and after that he sliced an apple. 

He placed the peeled orange and sliced apple on a plate and approached me. 

"Here, eat this." He handed me the plate. 

While eating I asked him. "Ace, do you know where is Ayesha's grave?" 

He looked at me, he went silent; falling into deep thought. 

"Yeah, I remember now that her parents told me where" he took a bite from his apple after answering me. 

"Can you take me there? I just want to talk to her." I said while continuing to eat the fruits on my plate. 

"Yeah, we can go there after you got discharged" he stood up from his sit to get me water.

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After a few more weeks I am finally discharged from the hospital, I am now in my room, resting. 

Even though I am discharged the doctor still advised me to rest for a few more weeks as I am still weak. 

I am now packing my clothes in my suitcase as I am planning to go to the States to visit Ayesha's grave. 

I cannot wait for another few weeks, I have already been delayed when I was still confined in the hospital. 

I am almost done with packing when the door of my room suddenly sprung open. 

"What do you think you're doing?" I heard an emotionless voice behind me. 

"I am packing my clothes, I am going to the States" I answered without turning my head, I just continued packing my clothes. 

"You are not going anywhere!!" My father raised his voice. 

"What?! I am going to the States, I need to go to Ayesha" I zipped my suitcase and faced him. 

"No, you will stay here and recover, you will never go there" he decisively said and turned to walk out of my room. 

"I am going there whether you like it or not, it's not like you care for me," I shouted, looking at him provocatively. 

"Xian! You are not going to that woman, not now, not ever. Look at you now, you are talking back at me, ever since you've known that woman you learned to go against me is this what you have learned from her?!!" He stopped on his track and faced me. 

"Don't you ever disrespect Ayesha!! It is not that I learned from her how to rebel, I just realized that I don't want to be your puppet anymore, A puppet that will do everything you want and decide things for me. I am my own self and I get to decide what I want." I started to get angry, he had never accepted my relationship with Ayesha ever since. 

He thinks that Ayesha is a bad influence on me. For all I know it is just that ever since I have known Ayesha, his leash on me has started to loosen and he hates that. 

"You are not going anywhere, that is final. You are in my house so you must obey everything that I said. You will never get out of this room until you have fully recovered." He roared and went out of my room. 

The door of my room banged as he forcefully closed it. I rushed toward my door to open it, but I was too late as I heard from the outside that it is being locked. 

Yeah, my room can be locked from the outside, it has always been like that since I can remember. 

My father always locked me here as punishment whenever my grades downsides a bit, I will need to study and study until I can make sure that my grades won't go down again. 

During those times, he will not allow anyone to approach my room and he will not even give me food, I will only be able to eat when Yaya would sneak in some food at midnight when Dad is already asleep. 

I slumped to my bed and sighed. How am I going to get out of here? I need to go to the States and visit Ayesha. 

I let myself drown in my thoughts, I reminisce the moments I had with Ayesha. 

I was awakened when I heard someone knocking on my door, I didn't know I had fallen asleep. 

I turned to look at who entered my room. 

I saw Yaya entering with a tray of food in her hand. 

She approached me. 

"Xi, here eat this, I know that you have not eaten yet as your Dad locked your room" he placed the tray in front of me. 

"After that, drink your meds, so that you can continue your sleep." She just watched me eat, seating on the side of my bed. 

I started eating quietly, after I finished eating, I drank my meds, and Yaya stood up to tidy up my plate. 

She bid me goodnight and then went out of my room. 

Weeks passed and I can now go out of my room. Finally, if I can't still go out of my room and stayed there even for one more day, I would have probably gone crazy now. 

I am now on my way to the airport, Ace would go with me, I told my parents that I would live with Ace for a week and didn't told them that I am going to the States. 

As we have landed, I told Ace that we go to Ayesha immediately and go to the hotel after. 

He agreed and now we are on the way there. 

After an hour he stopped the car in front of a cemetery. 

We alighted the car and he guided the way. 

After a few minutes of walking, he stopped in front of a grave, I looked at the name written on the grave. 

And there I see a very familiar name, "Ayesha Hansley". 

I started gasping for air as I felt different kinds of emotions all at the same time. 

I felt happy, sad, scared, despaired, and many other different emotions that I cannot name. 

Ace saw this and patted my shoulder. 

"Bro, calm down. I would be waiting for you in the car" I nodded at him and then he started to walk away. 

When I saw him walk away, I sat in front of the grave and caressed it. 

"Hi love" tears rolled down my eyes as soon as I said that. 

"How are you?" I felt a slump in my throat as I started sobbing. 

"Love, why are you so unfair? why did you not wait for me?" I said in between my sobs, hoping she would answer me. 

"Love, did you know that I am planning to propose to you that night at our dinner? I thought that night would be perfect, I would propose to you, you would say yes, and then we would plan our wedding" I wander my eyes at my surroundings. It looks peaceful here. 

"Love, I am not mad at you for not telling me that you're leaving the country to further your studies, in fact, I am happy for you because I know how much you want to become a fashion designer, I was just shocked that's why I raised my voice at you" I looked at her grave. 

"I would have still accepted your decision, remember that I told you that I would always be your number one supporter. That even if the world is against you, I would be there to stand beside you, that's how much I loved you, Love." I started to get difficulty breathing as I kept sobbing, carefully caressing her grave, as if I were touching her face. 

"I'm sorry if I made you scared that night, I'm sorry, because of me we got into an accident if only I did not let my emotions get the best of me, I'm sorry, Love. I'm sorry, because of me you died." My cries started to get louder as I keep muttering I'm sorry. 

My sight gets blurry as tears keep rolling down my eyes, I keep apologizing on her grave. 

I lay down next to the grave still crying and apologizing. 

I heard footsteps approaching me. 

I turned my head and saw a woman approaching. 

"It is not your fault, it is an accident, stop blaming yourself." She said as she approaches me. 

"A-Ayesha? Is that you?" She's alive!

"No, My name is Aisha" she handed me a handkerchief. 

"It is you, Ayesha, if it is not you, why would you say that?" I asked her doubtfully. And that face, it looks exactly like Ayesha.

"Oh, that. I just heard you mention that you two got into an accident" She looked at her watched. 

"I need to go, I have a meeting to attend to" She turned around and started walking away without waiting for my answer. 

"W-wait," I said weakly but she still continued walking away. 

I was stunned for a few minutes before I sorted my thoughts. 

Yeah, how can she be alive, I am here right now in her grave, I must be hallucinating. 

And that girl earlier, the way she dresses is different from Ayesha, Ayesha always wears dresses while the girl earlier dresses formally. 

I threw that to the back of my mind and continued to lie down beside Ayesha's grave. 

A few minutes after laying down, I fell asleep. 

"Xi? Wake up, It is dark already." He tapped me. 

I opened my eyes and saw that it is really dark, I fell asleep here. 

But to be honest, my sleep here was really peaceful, unlike the other days where I would always awaken with empty feelings. 

I stood up and I shook off the dirt and grass on my body. 

"Let's go?" He turned to me and started walking. 

I followed him from behind and it took us a few minutes to get to the car. 

We alighted the car and went to the hotel, Ace booked a hotel even before our flight so that we do not have to worry about our accommodation here. 

While on the way, I started a conversation. 

"Ace, earlier I thought I saw Ayesha" I turned to him. 

"Really? But how can that be possible, she is gone now, bro. I know that you miss her, but don't you think it's time to let go?" He said without looking at me as he was driving. 

"I know that, that is why I immediately thought that I was hallucinating, and must have mistaken her for Ayesha. Besides she dresses way too formally, unlike Ayesha who likes to wear dresses" I stopped for a while. 

I am contemplating what he said. Is it really time to let go? No, I still love her and I don't think I could ever move on. She will always be in my heart, and that will never change, my heart belongs only to her. 

"Yeah, maybe you're right, maybe it is really time to let go and move on." I lied. 

I don't want him to worry about me anymore as he has done so many things for me already. 

I am already deeply indebted to him and I am really grateful to God for letting Ace come into my life, to be best friends and brothers even though we're not related we treat each other as brothers.

As soon as we reached our hotel room, I went straight ahead to the bathroom to take a bath, after that I laid on my bed, thinking about Ayesha, especially the first day we met.