1.Pilot

As the final school bell rang, signaling the start of winter break, students and teachers alike gathered their things quickly; I too piled my notebooks and textbooks high into my red backpack before joining the sea of my peers in the crowded hallway.

Talk of what was going to fill the next two weeks, from wasting time in front of the newest reality TV show to secret parties, it seemed like everyone had something going on. I just wanted to seclude myself in my room and read a few books that I've been dying to get too…

His large hands gripped my hips backward, grinding on me as pleasure danced its way through my entire being, and I couldn't help the moan that escaped me.

“Fuck angel,” He growled against my earlobe, nipping at a sensitive spot. “I could take you all night long. Again and again,”

He continued his movements, driving himself into me repeatedly and I snaked my hand down my front, fingers circling my bud with intensity, desire, and the need to feel all that I could in a short moment.

“That's right,” he growled. “I want you to feel how wet, how needy you are for me angel. Feel how much your pussy pulses for me,”

“Hey Valerie,” A familiar voice pulled me from my erotic read aloud in my head, the chapter last night so good that I may have done my own guilty pleasure… Blinking hard a few times to rid the sinful thoughts, I found myself in front of my locker.

“Hey Austyn,” I smiled as I put my textbooks away and turned to look at my best friend. I immediately knew something was up - her gorgeous almond skin was flushed pink and eyes of brown wide like she had just run a marathon. I couldn't help but raise a questioning eyebrow.

Austyn chuckled at my look before fixing a few fly aways from her ponytail; no doubt it was a certain quarterback who had made my friend look like this. “You're still coming with me tonight, right?”

Ingoring what lingered between us, aka the did you just fuck questions, I shut my locker and we began walking in the crowd. “I'm not sure, Aus… I'm not much of a partier and it's out of town? What if you and William sneak away and I'm left by myself?”

Just thinking about having to interact with strangers made me break out in a cold sweat; I wasn't used to being around anyone besides school and luckily my friend since kindergarten, Austyn. She was the closest I got to having ‘normal’ experiences. Austyn dragged me to football games, the mall on the weekend sometimes, and every so often a party.

Austyn rolled her eyes and grabbed my hand, leading me through the crowd which only now was starting to dissipate. “I won't leave you alone Valerie, plus me and William already did our thing,”

William wasn't Austyn's first boyfriend by far, but he was her first first. I think Austyn did truly love Will, it was just a question if he truly loved her back; there were times I'm sure he did, like when he brought her homemade soup and bread when she was sick, and there were times I didn't think he did, like leaving her in the rain because he wanted to leave the outdoor movie early…

And I, having no experience with boys, had no room to talk.

But confirming my thought process of why she may have been so flushed, I just nodded and agreed. “But my mom will wanna know what time to expect me back-”

“Don't worry,” Austyn cut my sentence off as we met the outdoors, the bitter cold already nipping my cheeks and the clouds blanketed the sky above. “I already told Maranda,” my mom. “That I'm picking you up and we're having a weekend long Christmas movie premiere,”

Austyn moved her hands out as she talked, adding her dramatic flare to her words and I couldn't help the laugh that escaped my lips, a white puff of air that came from me reminding me just how cold it was.

“I'll pick you up at seven,” Austyn kissed my cheek before pushing me up the bus steps; the stale smell of something I couldn't quite place forced its way into my nose as I found my seat. “And dress sexy!” Austyn yelled to me, her voice muffled by the window between us.

Rolling my eyes, I waved at her before she blew me a kiss and off she went.

*

“Sexy?” I questioned myself, looking into the mirror; my black sweater and jeans that hugged my curves stared back at me. “Is this sexy?” I knew the answer but deciding to ignore it, I tried my best to apply some mascara in hopes it would make my dull blue eyes pop and a hint of silvery glitter to my eyelids. I wiped some pink matte lipstick that my mom had given me for my birthday a few months back into my lips, liking the way it made them look pouty.

Behind me, my speaker played soft classical music, calming my nerves and thoughts with no avail; I had already made sure my phone was charged and an extra book was put into my purse just in case I found myself alone.

Austyn: We r out front

Sighing and giving myself a mental pep talk, I shot back a quick response and headed towards the front door; pausing I looked back at my empty house.

My mom was barely ever home because she was always on mission trips… We never went to church when I was younger but after my dad left her, she decided she needed to help out those less fortunate. Which was amazing and she does so many great things, but I couldn't help but feel abandoned.

Especially now, looking at the Christmas tree and its beautiful warm white lights that only I put up, I couldn't help but wish I had someone, just once.