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Chapter eleven
I move along the pavements towards the library.
Deep down I know whatever that girl said was true. But I still don't want to admit.
It might be that to surrender to happiness,was to accept defeat, but it was a defeat better than many victories of human bondage.
Or was I wrong.
This was the problem of letting other people into your world, right now I felt vulnerable to him.
In a way, he was holding my universe together. One move and my world would Crumble down. The sons of Adam had proven to be unreliable and full of deception in history and I wouldn't let that happen to me.
All I wanted was him to just lay in bed together with me, and talk about nothing like we did the other night. With him rubbing my hair and back. Just us against the world. Listening to the beat of each others hearts and music of th
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