LOGINKaima
I had never imagined leaving my pack at this point in time and joining another, but here I was, standing at the threshold of another Alpha's land, about to surrender my bond and step into a new pack—a new life.
I sighed. Not as if I have a choice. The Moon Goddess wanted me to, and who was I to disobey her?
I just stood, contemplating what to do. Why did I have to be the one to save him? I didn’t even know from what, but I kept telling myself it was fine. I was doing this to find my mate, that was all that mattered.
The sooner I get this over with, the sooner I find him.
The air was heavier as I stepped into the Nightbane territory. Nyx stirred inside me, unsettled yet expectant, as a strange energy brushed against my skin.
“You must be the one I've been waiting for, the one looking for a new pack,” a voice said warmly.
I turned to see a man standing before me with a warm smile, but I knew better. His stance screamed warrior, protective, yet open.
“I’m Oliver, Beta of the Nightbane pack,” he introduced himself with a small nod. “Alpha Nathan is waiting, right this way.”
Alpha Nathan. The sound of the name alone sent a shiver through me. My stomach knotted with nerves. I wasn’t sure what to expect.
But when I followed Oliver into the room where he was, and my eyes fell on him standing there tall, broad shoulders, breathtakingly handsome—my breath caught. But that wasn’t what caught my attention.
He had a genuine welcoming smile on his face. Nothing like what I had expected when I embarked on this journey.
So this was Alpha Nathan, the one I was supposed to save.
But he looked perfectly fine to me.
His presence radiated authority. It was commanding without even an effort, but just like the moon goddess had said, he wasn’t like the… others.
“Have a seat,” he said gently as his Beta stepped out of the room, leaving just the both of us.
The room was quiet for a moment.
I sat still, trying to gather my thoughts, while Nathan watched me curiously from head to toe. I’d expected Nyx to have said something, but she was quiet all through, as if lost in her own world.
“So, what brings you to New York?” he asked casually, like he was really interested, not just pretending. There was something about him that made me want to let my guard down. “Why leave your old pack behind?”
I forced a smile, trying my possible best to keep the lie convincing. “I…I lost someone really important to me, and I just needed a change… a new start. My old pack was fine, but I need a change of environment because everything there reminds me of what I didn't want to remember.”
He looked at me with eyes that softened as though he truly understood where I was coming from. “Change can be good,” he said softly, with a deep voice I felt I would never get tired of listening to. “And I’m really sorry for your loss.”
I just stared at him, my throat tightening. There was something about him—something that made me feel… comfortable, like I could tell him anything and he would understand. It was strange. I didn’t know what to make of it and it unsettled me. He was a stranger, but he didn't feel like one to.
He was kind, empathetic, soft. In general… a gentleman. Nothing like other Alphas I had come across before, the ones who were always too busy proving their superiority, trying to make you know who's in charge—emitting a cold aura that will keep you trembling in their presence.
“That’s one way to put it,” I said, my voice steady, my gaze drifting to the door. For some weird reason, I suddenly felt shy to look at him.
A playful smile tugged at his lips. “So you’re looking for a new pack, and you came all the way to New York. Brave move.”
I laughed shakingly. I hadn’t expected this warmth from an Alpha. He wasn’t acting like the ruler of one of the most powerful packs—he was just acting like… a man, an actual person. Which planet did he fall off from? Because it sure as hell wasn’t this same one I've lived in all my life.
After a moment, he got up gracefully and motioned for me to follow. “Well, let’s get this over with. If you are going to join the Nightbane, we’ll need to perform the binding ritual to sever your bond with your old pack and establish you with us.”
My throat dried up instantly.
I’d done this before—a long time ago when I had accompanied one of my sisters on a different mission. But it still felt strange, my heart skipping a beat as I stood up.
He reached for my hands, gently guiding me to the center of the room where a few candles were in a circle.
“Don’t worry, it won’t hurt.” he assured, smiling softly, his voice soothing. “This is just to sever whatever you had with your old pack and bind you to me and to my pack as your new Alpha. Breathe, okay?” His voice calmed me down, but my heart kept racing fast.
Well, that was strange. Kaima, calm down, I scolded myself silently.
Nathan began to chant the words, and slowly I felt a strange pull between the both of us, like an invisible thread pulling us together. With each word he spoke, I felt the bond with my old pack break.
And just as quickly as it started, it ended.
The strange connection I had felt vanished instantly, like it was never there, leaving me with a faint echo at the back of my mind.
Nathan looked at me with a small, knowing smile, but there was something else in his eyes. “You’re officially a member of the Nightbane pack, Kaima.”
I nodded, forcing a smile, trying to hide the unease that had settled in my chest unease I couldn’t explain. I felt confused at what I was feeling.
The ritual was over,
But what exactly did it do to me?
Nathan looked at me carefully, his voice dropped. “Are you all right?” he asked softly.
“Yes… yes, I am,” I replied quickly.
“So how does it feel to be part of a new pack?”
“It feels… different,” I said honestly, my voice barely audible. I wasn’t sure he was going to help me.
Nathan was quiet for a while, his gaze searching my face for a brief moment before nodding thoughtfully, and I couldn’t help but wonder if he had felt it too—the unexplainable pull, or was that my mind playing tricks on me?
I felt Nyx stir inside of me, her curiosity and unease matching mine. ‘What the hell was that?’ Her voice was a low murmur in my mind.
‘I don’t know,’ I replied in a whisper.
Nathan took a step back and watched me again with those intense blue eyes before saying, “I think you would fit perfectly here, Kaima. I look forward to having you in the pack. I know you don’t have a place to stay yet, so you can stay here. Someone will show you to your room.”
“Thank you,” I murmured, my voice crackling.
It wasn’t long before a maid stepped in, and as she walked me through the hallway of the mansion, I couldn’t seem to get Alpha Nathan off my mind.
I wasn’t just here to be part of a pack. I reminded myself. The Moon Goddess had brought me here for a reason, and I would find out what it was. I didn’t have time to be having thoughts about Alpha Nathan when I was supposed to be saving him—
but from what, exactly?
I sighed. Mother, please help me… because right now I really do need it.
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CHAPTER 111 — HIS APOLOGY KaimaThe moment I reached the bottom of the stairs, I froze, completely stunned.My breath was completely stolen away because the entire penthouse looked like it was pulled out of a movie or something.There were roses… everywhere.Red roses spread across the counter, petals scattered on the floor. My eyes fell on the cake on the dining table with I’m sorry written in messy icing.Silver and gold balloons floated near it. One massive, one shaped like a heart had I’M SORRY printed on it in huge letters.The air smelled of candles and fresh flowers, my two favourite things.My heart swelled. I just stood there, not moving or blinking. I was afraid that if I blinked everything would disappear and I would wake up from this dream. I still didn’t believe that it was real.That was when I saw him.Nicholai.Standing in the middle of everything, he looked like he hadn’t slept, not just for hours but for days. His hair was a mess, his shirt wrinkled, his eyes tired
KaimaI didn't know when I started crying.I only realized it when my vision got so blurred I couldn't see the ceiling anymore, and when I blinked, the tears slid down my cheeks and into the pillow. And within minutes the sheets were wet and cold, becoming uncomfortable, but I didn’t care. My chest hurt, my throat hurt. I was trying my hardest to stop crying but I couldn't hold it in anymore.Nicholai actually left.He actually went to Tara's place.I sobbed, the sound filling the room.“Kaima,” I heard Nyx call, her voice soft in the back of my mind. “Please calm down,” she said, trying to soothe me.But the crying only became worse. I buried my face into the pillow and cried harder.“He left me, Nyx,” I choked out the words. “He actually left.”“She's sick,” Nyx said. “You saw the message. He only went to check on her, that's all. He didn't leave you. It just makes him a good person.”“But…what if Nicholai doesn't love me anymore?” my voice cracked as another sob shook me. “What if
NicholaiShit… shit… shit.The words left my mouth as I rushed down the stairs, out the house and into my car. My heart was still back with Kaima even when I drove to Tara's place.I couldn't get how she looked at me out of my head. I knew I was hurting her so badly and it was breaking me.Ever since I got my memories of what Tara and I shared, I've just been being pulled in two opposite directions and I hated it.Just check up on her quickly, I told myself. Make sure she's okay, then go back and explain everything and fix it.I knew it wasn't going to be as easy as saying it but I had to find a way to fix things.When I got to Tara's, from the door I could hear soft uneven breathing from inside. I pushed the door gently and stepped in.TaraShe was curled on the couch, a heavy blanket covered her and she was still shivering violently. Her skin was pale, her teeth chattering together, traces of sweat on her forehead. Her lips trembled as she tried to speak.“N… Nicholai.”I knelt besi
Nicholai It had only been a few days of Kaima asking for space and it felt like something was actually tearing me apart from the inside.Whoever said alcohol was the best way to go when you feel like a complete mess was so wrong because right now it wasn't doing any damn thing for me.I had downed almost every bottle in the house—whiskey, vodka, rum, even the cheap trash I wouldn't touch on a normal day.But swallowing it felt like I was literally drinking water. There was no burn, not even a sting. Absolutely nothing.I knew I couldn't feel anything because Kaima wasn't here... and without her everything feels wrong and meaningless.I didn't just want her, I needed her. Kaima was my drug and without her I could not function properly. My chest was so tight and it felt like all my senses were super heightened more than usual. I could even hear someone getting out of their car from like so many streets away. Every second without her was torment.So I just sat at the kitchen bar, bottle
KaimaI didn’t know when the words slipped out. Maybe it was because of how Nathan looked at me, or maybe it was how safe I felt with him. I wasn’t sure, but no matter how I tried to deny it, I always felt safe with Nathan. And the way he spoke so gently, so calmly… sometimes I wondered if he was truly an alpha because he was too… kind.“Nathan, I feel it too whenever you aren’t okay.”He looked surprised, but not that surprised, really.“Yeah?”“So… how am I feeling right now?”I didn’t reply for a moment, trying to concentrate, but I didn’t feel anything from him. It was just my emotions that were all over the place.“I… don’t know,” I said, disappointed.“Hey… it’s fine, okay?” he smiled.“I don’t know when it started. I think… it was when I was still at the packhouse or when I moved. I’m not sure, but when something is wrong, my chest tightens—like something is pulling at me, like I’m supposed to check on you or something.”I quickly stopped myself from continuing further.This wa
NathanI was bored out of my goddamn mind as the pack elders talked about… I wasn’t sure what the hell they were even talking about, but I had to be in attendance as the Alpha. I kept watching her from the corner of my eyes.Kaima sat beside me, her head down. She held her pen and… a notebook? I hadn’t realized it earlier, but she never uses a notebook. It’s always an iPad.At first I thought she was taking notes like she always did during these meetings.But the longer I watched her, the more wrong everything felt.Her pen was moving, yes, but she wasn’t writing.She was just pressing the tip of the pen into the paper, over and over again. It was just a single dot that darkened the more she pressed the pen on it.She kept doing that, and for almost an hour she hadn’t lifted her head. Not once.Something was definitely off with her.I leaned in a little toward her.“Kaima… are you okay?”She jumped slightly like she had forgotten I was right next to her. Her eyes snapped to me, wild a







