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FREYA__09

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My body was curled into a ball, wanting to make myself as small as possible. I wanted to disappear.

For how long did I remain on the bed filled with self loathe and humiliation just staring at the blank ceiling?

The tears had stopped falling, I had told myself earlier that I would bravely face whatever hardship that came my way, nothing could have ever prepared me for him.

I looked out the window to realize that it was morning already, the pain had kept me awake all night.

I still felt him even though he was gone. His taunts, touch, breath. I could still feel everything. My eyes shifted downward to my thigh and the sight of my blood mixed with his dried semen sickened me.

My stomach revolted and with great difficulty, I managed to limp from the bed, my eyes tearing up from the pain each movement caused.

I was raped.

Never in a million years would I have thought that one day, I would become that girl.

Maybe it was because I didn't beg him enough, perhaps I s