Masuk
Adrian Hale had always believed that predictability was a kind of peace. A lecture hall at eight in the morning, the familiar echo of shoes on polished floors, students half-asleep and half-engaged—these were the patterns that made his life quiet, clean, and manageable. No surprises. No disturbances. Nothing that required him to feel more than he intended.
And then she enrolled. Eden Marlowe walked into his classroom. It was the second week of the semester—early, as she always did—and Adrian felt the shift in the air before he even saw her. It was subtle, like the faintest change in barometric pressure before a storm, but he felt it all the same. He always did. She wasn’t loud or dramatic. In fact, she moved with a deliberate calmness, her bag slung over her shoulder, her notebook in hand, her gaze sweeping the room before landing right where he stood. That look—steady, unhesitant, quietly bold—hit him with the force of a confession he didn’t want to hear. He forced himself to break eye contact first. He always did. “Miss Marlowe,” he said when she settled into the front row, his tone clipped, cool, professional to a fault. “Early again.” Her lips curved, just a hint. “I like the quiet before everyone comes in. I can think better.” “Good habit,” he replied, adjusting his stack of papers with more precision than necessary. “Focus is valuable.” “You make it easy,” she said softly. He didn’t answer. He couldn’t. He kept his attention on the lectern, on the textbook, on anything other than the dangerous warmth in her voice. When the rest of the students filtered in, Adrian began his lecture. His voice was steady, authoritative, perfectly composed. But underneath that thin layer of veneer, he felt the gravitational pull of her attention. She listened differently from the others—not with passive absorption but with sharp, piercing interest that made him feel as though he were the one being studied. Every time he posed a question, her hand lifted. Every time he pushed the class toward a deeper interpretation, her eyes lit like she was daring him to go further. Every time he looked away from her, he felt the tension tighten around his ribs like a band. It wasn’t flirtation. Not outwardly. But something in her posture, her confidence, her quiet persistence—it threaded its way into his awareness and refused to leave. Halfway through, he made the mistake of asking a question far too abstract for the room. A question about intent. About desire versus action. About the ways we justify what we choose. No one raised a hand. Except Eden. Of course. When he called on her, she didn’t glance at her notes. She didn’t hesitate. Her answer was composed, incisive, and far more intimate than he could have anticipated. “It’s easy to claim restraint,” she said, her voice low, calm, unflinching. “But harder to admit when you want something you shouldn’t.” His pulse stumbled. She held his gaze the entire time she spoke, unblinking, unreadable, and impossibly sure of herself—for a student whose words should have been academic, not personal. He swallowed, the lecture slipping a beat. “Thank you, Miss Marlowe,” he managed, but his voice was rough at the edges. When class ended, he dismissed them quickly. Too quickly. He needed distance—space to breathe, to restore the careful barriers she kept cracking with nothing more than her presence. Students gathered their things, filed out of the room in clusters, chatter rising in the background. But Eden didn’t move. She lingered at her desk, fingers lightly tracing the edge of her notebook before she approached him. “Professor Hale?” He forced himself not to react, not to let the tension in his shoulders betray him. “Miss Marlowe,” he said without looking up. “Is there something you need?” She hesitated, only for a moment. “I wanted to confirm about office hours. You said I could come by.” His jaw tightened. “Yes. If you need clarification on the material.” Her smile was subtle, but it felt like a hand closing around his chest. “I do. I want to understand everything you’re teaching.” He searched her expression for mockery, for intention—anything that would allow him to dismiss the pull between them as his imagination. But her eyes were steady. Genuine. Adult. Dangerous. “Three o’clock,” he said at last, each word slow, controlled. “Tomorrow.” “Three,” she echoed, her voice softer this time. Then she added, “I’m looking forward to it.” She turned and walked away, her scent lingering in the air, her presence fading far too slowly. Adrian sat at his desk long after the door closed behind her, his palms pressed to the cool wood, his breath uneven. He had been untouched by temptation for years. Untouched by anything real.Adrian arrived on campus the next morning with a single, desperate intention:Be normal.Be composed.Professional.Untouched by the memory of her body pressed against his, her mouth under his, her voice whispering don’t make me ask you to lock it next time.Pretend yesterday didn’t happen.Pretend he hadn’t pinned her against a wall and kissed her until they both shook.Pretend he didn’t wake up with his cock already hard, already aching for the mouth he’d tasted and the softness he’d held.Pretend.It was laughable.He stepped into the building and immediately felt her somewhere inside the walls. Not literally—just the awareness of her, the certainty that she was near, that she existed in the same air he was breathing.He kept walking anyway, forcing his hands into his coat pockets to hide the tremor.He passed colleagues in the hall.They greeted him.He responded.Normal.Except his voice sounded wrong to his own ears—too low, too strained, like the residue of last night’s groans
He saw it coming before it happened.The moment he walked into the lecture hall, he knew. Her spot in the front row, the way her gaze followed him from the door to the desk, the soft, almost shy curve of her mouth when their eyes met—They were not going to get through this class untouched by what had happened.He gripped the edge of the lectern harder than necessary and began the lecture anyway.His voice sounded normal.His skin did not feel normal.Every time he looked up from his notes, he found her watching him with a quiet intensity that made his thoughts slip. She wrote things down. She nodded. She frowned in concentration at the right moments.She looked like any other diligent student.He knew better.He knew how her lips felt under his, how her hands felt in his hair, how her breath hitched when he kissed the side of her throat. He knew the exact pressure it took to make her lean into him.He also knew she remembered all of it.Near the end of class, he asked a question he b
Adrian didn’t go straight home after kissing her.He walked the long way across campus — down paths he never took, through courtyards still slick with last night’s rain, past clusters of laughing students whose ease made something inside him twist.He needed distance.He needed cold air.He needed anything that wasn’t the feel of her mouth under his, her body arching into him, her whisper of please still echoing in his blood.But the farther he walked, the sharper the memory became.Her lips — soft, warm, eager.Her breath — trembling.Her hands — sliding up into his hair like she’d been waiting to do it.The little sound she made when he kissed her throat.His chest tightened until he had to stop walking entirely.He sat on a low stone wall, bracing his elbows on his knees, breathing hard.This wasn’t just desire anymore.Desire would have burned itself out by now.This was something deeper.Worse.Unmanageable.He stared at his hands — the same hands that had held her face so gently
Adrian told himself he was only going to his office to drop off his bag.Just that.Nothing else.He walked down the hall with what he hoped passed for composure, though his body buzzed with the same unsettled heat that had been simmering in his blood since the meeting yesterday. He couldn’t stop seeing her across the table, couldn’t stop hearing her voice, couldn’t stop replaying that small, devastating question: Are you okay?He hadn’t answered.He didn’t know how.He reached his door.Key in hand.Breath too unsteady.He opened it—And stopped breathing entirely.She was there.Sitting on the edge of his desk like she belonged there.Eden.Sweater slightly oversized.Hair down.Legs dangling.Notebook beside her hip.Her eyes lifted slowly, as though she’d been waiting for this exact second.“Hi,” she whispered.His pulse cracked.“Eden.” His voice came out lower, rougher than he intended. “How—why are you—”“I needed to see you.”Simple.Unvarnished.Devastating.He closed the doo
Adrian spent the entire morning doing the one thing he knew was pathetic and completely ineffective:Avoiding her.He left his office earlier than usual.He took the side stairwell instead of the main one.He kept his head down when he crossed the quad, pretending the cold wind stinging his cheeks demanded all of his concentration.None of it helped.Avoidance didn’t stop awareness.It only sharpened it.Every sound in the hall—every soft footfall, every scrap of a whispered conversation—made his body tense, anticipating her voice. Every glimpse of dark hair in the corner of his vision sent a jolt through him before logic corrected it.This wasn’t control.It was fear disguised as discipline.He ducked into the faculty lounge hoping for a moment of quiet. Instead, Daniel was already there, leaning against the counter, swirling his tea with lazy indifference.“You look,” Daniel said, squinting at him, “like someone who tried to outrun an emotional problem and lost.”Adrian ignored the
He avoided her.Or tried to.He came into class two minutes late so he wouldn’t have to speak to her before the lecture.He dismissed the group quickly at the end so she couldn’t linger.He kept his eyes on his notes instead of letting them drift to her mouth.He took his lunch in his office with the door locked.It wasn’t discipline.It was survival.But Eden didn’t seem to notice—or she did, and played innocent.During the discussion, Eden didn’t sit back and take notes the way many students did. She leaned forward slightly, pen resting against her lips, eyes narrowed with the kind of focus that made Adrian’s chest tighten.When another student offered a surface-level interpretation of the reading, her hand lifted immediately—calm but certain.“I’m not sure that works,” she said, voice quiet but steady. “If we accept that premise, then we’re ignoring the author’s argument about moral agency in the final paragraph.”The room shifted.Two students straightened.One frowned.Another ti







