JaylaThere are some examples of things or people which are hardcore enemies to each other. Voldemort to Harry Potter, Coke to Pepsi, jealousy to relationships and so on. The biggest of which is me to my alarm clock.No one in the world can actually say they enjoy waking up early to go to school. Someone can be an early bird for all I care, but when it comes to waking up for school, we all hate it.And obviously, I am no exception. Only God knows how much I want to throw my alarm clock across the room every morning, but my alarm clock is my phone and my parents aren't going to buy me a new one if I break it.I groan, curse and complain before I get out of my bed in the morning, just like I always do. Today, even more than any day, I have a stronger reason not to want to go.First of all, I know that the teachers are going to give me pitiful and curious looks as if l just escaped death. I mean, I really just escaped death but they don't have to remind me of that every single second.S
Jayla Isn't it funny how you will tell yourself that people's words can't hurt you and you will feel that you are so strong, but then when they say something hurting, you will be reduced to abawling mess again?Maybe l am just weak. Maybe I am still weak. I have to be, to let them affect me so much that I even threw up. I have to be really weak.I play their words in my head over and over again and I am a hundred person sure that their conversation was all about me. And I am also a hundred percent sure that they despise my guts above everything.But I don't remember doing anything bad or mean to them. I don't remember doing anything that would make them hate me this way but they do.The kind of hate that makes you blind to everything and the only thing you can only think about is hurting the other person.I am well acquainted to that hate to know how toxic it is. Yet I choose to live in that toxicity.When you tell the world that you have been hurt and you show them your scars, you
Jayla"Eddie," I whisper when he comes in front of us bearing a warm smile on his face.I am surprised that he is here willingly. Because after he stopped replying to my messages, and stopped answering my calls which I tried to do after I came back to the pack, I was convinced that he — just like everyone else — has given up on me too. I was convinced that he no longer wants to be associated to me and he wants me to leave him alone.And so seeing him here with nothing but warmth on his face is so surprising. But it is a pleasant surprise."Jayla," he says, beaming at me and immediately comes directly for a hug.He is acting just like the Edward l know and remember. He has always liked greeting everybody with hugs."Where have you been?" I ask him as he pulls away.I know that this question coming out of my mouth is weird. And it is simply because I am the reason why this school was closed for a month and the reason why we probably didn't meet.But I still ask him because I have to pret
JaylaI wake up, stretching my limbs out to get rid of the kinks in them. Yesterday was a really eventful day for me. I haven't had much fun in a long time like I did yesterday and it was because I spent the time after school with Anna.She had previously asked me to hangout with her so that I could give her a tour of the pack and I agreed. So yesterday, we went on a tour of many places and ended up getting to know more about each other over ice cream and burger. I am glad that I didn't decline her invitation otherwise I wouldn't have had as much fun as I did yesterday.But before I went out to meet her, I made sure I did all my homework first. I smile as I recall Shane calling me a nerd. Well, I am a nerd and I am proud of it. At least, it is better than being a player like that horrible Jasper. If he thinks I have forgotten about what he did to me because I haven't mentioned it to him, he will be in for a shock. I am still sketching out my plan. Very soon, he will get what a lowlif
JaylaAs I take a bite from my sandwich and chew it slowly with my head down and my eyes on my laps, I feel as if a type of magnetic force is pulling my head upwards so that I can look at my front.I try to resist the force but try as I might, I just can't. In the end, I push all common sense aside and raise my head up just like my instincts have been pushing me to. And as I do so, the first thing I look into is Tyler's beautiful greenish gold eyes. His eyes are mesmerizing and captivating as always but I quickly avert my own eyes from his, looking back down at my lap. And just as I do that, his gaze doesn't linger in my direction anymore. He just takes his eyes off me and looks in another direction before walking away, going deeper into the cafeteria to probably look for a table since he doesn't sit with Jasper and his group of friends anymore.But at that moment, my mood drops drastically just as Tyler takes his seat at an empty table. In fact, I can even say I feel a pang of hurt
JaylaI open my eyes slowly, blinking them lazily as I try to adjust to the blinding sun coming in from my window.Then I backtrack. Blinding sun? How? This is not the time I usually wake up to prepare for school. The sun isn't out by then. Then why is it out now? It can't be out by this time except...As I come to the realization of what I think is happening, I shoot up from my bed in panic, my eyes widening. If I should judge by the reflection of the sun through my windows, I should be at school by now.But why am I not at school? Did I sleep through my alarm. Maybe I did but I can't be too sure if I don't check it first. So I rummage around for my phone on the bed and when I tap on the screen, I don't see any sign of me sleeping through my alarm. Then what happened if that didn't happen?My eyes involuntarily flick up and as I see another thing on my phone, I have a sigh of relief. I really shouldn't have worried myself about sleeping through my alarm and missing school because tod
Jayla I am jarred awake by the sound of my phone ringing. Why is it ringing by this time? Who could be calling so early in the morning? And a Sunday morning for that matter! It had better be for something important or else...I snatch the still ringing phone off my bed and when I look at who is calling, I let out a hiss because it is the last person I expect. It is Jessica and I can even predict the reason she is calling me without picking up the phone.I know she is calling to apologize to me in hopes that I will forgive her, but as I have said before, I am not ready for that at this moment. The time to forgive her has not yet come.I let the phone ring out until the call disconnects. Then I sigh and collapse back on my bed again, ready to go back to sleep. There is still time for me to squeeze in some sleep before I will have to wake up finally. I am already dozing off and about to fall into the land of sleep when the phone rings loudly again, jarring me from my state of almost sle
JaylaFew hours later, I am still in bed and the only food left is two slices of pizza and a bottle of soda. I have eaten the rest of the food. I am full now and I smile as I rub my stomach. No wonder the gym is not for me. I am too lazy for it. Since I have the day all to myself, I need to start on some things. There is no use lying around like this without something to do. So I start to think of Jasper, as usual, and how I am going to punish him for what he did to me. And now, I think it is time to start mapping out my plans. The first thing I think about is just exposing him to the pack members, telling them of all his atrocities and how selfish he is. Surely, they wouldn't want to have such a person as their future Alpha, right? I don't think so.But another issue is this: I don't think they will believe me. They might think I am just looking for sympathy after what happened to me back in that rogue pack. And I know that they don't really know who Jasper is and what he can do.