When I woke up, I smiled because Brooks had his arm over me and was holding me close to him. I laid there for a few minutes thinking about how perfect laying next to him felt. I had to use the bathroom so I lifted his arm and slid out of the bed. He stirred but didn't wake up. I closed the bathroom door and did what I needed to do. I washed my hands and then washed my face to wake myself up a little more. When I came out of the bathroom I looked inside my room and Brooks was still asleep. I went back into my room and got some clothes to change into and since he was asleep, I figured it was safe to change in my room. When I got dressed I turned around and he was staring at me with a smirk on his face. I asked why he was looking at me like that and he said, "you are gorgeous and have an amazing body cutie." I blushed and said you were asleep so I didn't see a reason to change in the bathroom but I will next time and I smiled at him. I asked him if he was hungry and he said yes. I aske
I made us a fried chicken salad with garlic rolls for dinner and we sat down at the table and began to eat. Brooks reaches across the table and places his hand on mine and says he is thankful he gets to spend another night with me. After dinner, we put in a movie and I was laying with my head against Brooks's chest. I must have fallen asleep because one minute I was content watching a movie and the next I was sitting on the ground in the woods from what I can tell and someone was laying on the ground next to me. I leaned over and saw Brooks's face. I shook him but he wasn't responding. I rolled him over and that's when I saw the blood. I screamed out but no one answered. I screamed and I cried. I leaned in and pressed my forehead to his and told him I loved him and I was sorry. I sat straight up and was covered in sweat and had tears running down my face. Brooks sat up and asked what was wrong and I started sobbing. He pulled me close to him and held me until I pushed him away and sa
BROOKS I have never felt something so tight wrapped around my d*ck before. It felt as if Crystal's body was made for me. When she told me it was ok to start moving, I slowly thrusted in and out of her. I could see the pleasure I was giving, on her face. I started to feel a little guilty though. I knew this was wrong and I have been working my way up to getting her in bed. I couldn't help myself though. Crystal looks older than she is and has an amazing body. No man in their right mind wouldn't try to sleep with her. I just happened to be the lucky one, when she moved into my neighborhood. I snapped out of my thoughts and focused on giving her what she asked for. I sped up my pace on my thrust and hearing her moan had me throbbing. I felt like I was going to bust right then but I held back and I kept thrusting while changing my pace. Seeing her innocent facial expressions as I thrust into her, had that guilty feeling stirring again. I knew I couldn't just stop right in the middle of t
CRYSTAL My dad is home and I haven't seen or heard from Brooks since the day he left. I have tried to call him but no answer and I even walked twice in 1 day over the past 2 days to see if I could see him outside. I haven't seen his SUV either. I hope he is ok and I hope I didn't do anything to make him mad. I tried to keep my thoughts at bay and act like I normally would but it was hard to do. I mean I just lost my virginity to him and now I am getting nothing. My dad calls me into the living room and asks me what all I did while he was gone and I told him I sat around and watched movies, slept, and did my chores. He told me he was going to take me shopping tomorrow and I was able to get whatever I wanted without him butting in. I laughed and said thank you and gave him a hug. I went back to my room and grabbed my journal and headed outside to sit and write. I don't know how long I had been sitting there because I was lost in my journal and had written 4 pages so far. I looked up a
BROOKSWhen Crystal left, I sat in my explorer and thought about everything. I feel so damn bad for doing that to her. When I found out she was 17, I should have stopped thinking about sleeping with her. She is still a kid and I am a man. I shouldn't be feeling the way I do about her but I can't help it. There was something about her but I couldn't pinpoint what. When I was on my way home today, I turned the radio off and sat in silence trying to think and it hit me. I actually have real feelings for her. It wasn't the fact I wasn't getting laid that kept me from sleeping, it was not being close to her. I have to be close to her to function. I can't think unless I am with her and when I am not with her, she is all I can think about. I've been gone a week trying to distance myself from her but yet she has been the only thing that is on my mind. That's why I decided to talk to her when I got home. What in the f*ck am I going to do? I can't just walk up to her door and her dad answer an
BROOKS It's been a little over a month since we were together. I have been having dreams about Crystal lately and it's driving me crazy because I don't normally dream and now that I am, I want what I have been dreaming about. I have to get up and go for a checkup at the VA and I don't want to go. I have one every 6 months unless I get sick. I got dressed and called my mom to let her know I was up and going to my appointment. When I got off the phone with her, I got in the car and headed out. As I was passing by Crystal's house, I saw her sitting outside on the back porch. She looked like she was sick. I slowed down and she looked up and gave me a faint smile. I asked if she was ok and she said she was waiting on her dad to take her to the doctor. I told her I was headed to my 6-month checkup and I would be back in a few hours. She said she would call me when she gets home. I blew her a kiss and headed to the VA. When I pulled up at the VA, I took a deep breath as I got out of the ca
CRYSTAL It's been a week and my viral infection is gone, but I haven't seen or heard from Brooks. I chose not to call him because I was still a little hurt at his relief. I know I am not ready for a baby and I know he could get in trouble if anyone found out about us, but now I feel like he doesn't really want to be with me. How could I have been so stupid? I gave in and gave him what I knew deep down he wanted. I think if he tries to contact me, keeping my distance from him for a while might be a good idea. I sat down on the rail on my front porch and opened my journal. I started sketching the bushes in front of my house and as I was looking at them I saw his SUV. I put my head down and tried to avoid any looks if he was looking this way. I peeked to see if he was gone and the coast was clear. I went back to sketching the bushes and when I finished I asked my dad if I could go for a walk. He told me he didn't care and I headed out the door. I decided to walk down the road instead o
BROOKSI don't understand why she got so upset at my relief when she said she wasn't pregnant. I mean she is 17 and I am 21, she knows we can't get caught. I know she is falling in love with me but I can't fall for her. This was all supposed to be a lay, and that was it. I don't want to be in a relationship but I care for her and I shouldn't. What is wrong with me? I have never been a relationship guy, I have always been a f*ck them and leave or become f*ck buddies. I have never cared for any of the girls before. I also have never been with anyone younger than me, maybe that's what it is. I'm like one of those mentors who care for their mentorees. No that can't be it because I can't stop thinking about her. This girl haunts my mind every minute of the day. My mom walked into the front door and I said I have a question. She asked me what it was and I said can you tell me what it means when a guy or girl is on someone's mind every waking minute of the day? My mom laughed and told me it