1: Rejected Mate

I smiled as I reached back home. It's been 2 years since I saw those people I love. I wiped my tears as they strolled down my bare face. I can't help but to realize I have been away for too long.

I want to see them badly. My family, especially him. 

These walls were the only thing hindering me from seeing them now. I took the only thing I was carrying these years, it was the diary he gave me. I managed to preserve this the whole time, it was the only memory I have.

I took a deep breath before going inside the gate. Once I stepped in, a cold breeze of air welcomed me. I missed this feeling.

It's good to be back.

This day is a very special one, so I tried to get back here as soon as possible to see this. It's his birthday today, and this is the time we will be together in this lifetime. We all know I am his mate after all. 

I headed to the place where I know they are right now, and I smiled as I saw them all celebrating. 

But my happiness didn't last long as I saw my best friend standing beside my man, and he was gently caressing her tummy, it's a baby bump.

They look happy together… 

And all these people were happy to see them too, they were cheering for them, including my parents. 

A pinch of pain started making its way to my eyes down to the weakest part of my body, my heart. 

I can't even say a word, my tears were just flowing down nonstop. I don't know what to do. How can I face them?

"Analisse?"

A voice called me. My body was shaking but I tried to maintain my posture. I turned around to see that person.

"Rose…" I called her, it's almost a whisper. I can't help it anymore, I burst out the emotions I was suppressing. Seeing her right now makes me want to hug her tight. 

Once she realized it was really me, she ran towards me and hugged me. She started crying like a child, like she used to do when we were young. I missed my man's sister. "W-Why?" She asked me between her sobs. "W-Why only n-now?" I can't say a word. I don't know how to explain myself, especially now. 

"I…I want to see him." I told her. She faced me but her eyes can't look straight at me. She bit her lips and was about to say something when I heard all the people murmuring around.

I looked around to see that they were looking at us, at me. 

I almost melted when I saw the man I love looking at me, but…I can't see the love in it anymore. 

I don't understand anything, or am I just fooling myself? 

"Analisse…" Damn. I missed his voice. I missed how he used to call me like I was the only woman existing.

"A-Argus." Saying his name makes me want to cry, run to him and hug him tight and say how much I love him. I missed my man, but seeing my best friend clinging her arms around him, I just can't swallow it. He saw how I was looking at those arms but he did not do anything. 

I don't know if I still have a place here. 

"We thought you were already dead." It's her. My best friend who spoke.

"I…I was lost. I tried so hard to find this place that I almost died…" Every word I was saying was just hitting me, killing me inside.

I wish I was dead.

"You don't need to explain. You abandoned the whole pack, they think so highly of you but you neglected them. Is that a true leader?" Her eyes felt like a dagger, she's killing me using her stares. I feel like I don't know her anymore. 

She smirked and went down to that place I wish I was the one standing in. And I saw how Argus gently supported her. He cares for her. He now cares only for my best friend.

"That's not what happened, Samantha." I tried talking again but he she kept on stopping me. 

"The heck of what happened, Analisse! We don't like reasoning! You are incompetent and disgusting! You don't have even a tiny space in here anymore! We don't need you now, okay? It's better that you are out of our sight." She was saying those words while walking towards me. I tried touching her but the people around me stood beside her like I was going to hurt my best friend. I saw her smirking, as if she was enjoying what's going on. "See? I am the one they need now. I am carrying Argus' son. The future ruler of the Silver wolf pack." I thought all the pain I experienced outside could kill me. I didn't think that the pain of betrayal was the most painful one.

I can hardly breathe. The only thing I can do is cry.

"Don't cry," she said and hugged me. I was just standing there, I couldn't move anything in my body. 

"W-Why?" I asked her, it was just a whisper. I don't have enough energy anymore. It's draining me.

"Because you are not deserving to be the Luna. I tried so hard to be in this position and I will never let anyone take this from me, Analisse. Especially you, my best friend." She whispered, I was about to face her when she stumbled on the ground.

"Ah!" She shouted while touching her stomach. "It hurts!" I didn't know what to do so I tried sitting to help her but then her words stopped me. "She pushed me! She wants to kill my child!"

I looked around and saw how they were looking at me, their eyes were raging in anger. It felt like none of them was my friend. 

"Analisse!" I felt a nonstop pain inside my head when I heard him shout my name that I fell on the ground trying to cover my ears. He ran towards us and immediately helped Samantha. 

"She pushes me." Her voice was so sweet when talking to him. I witnessed how scared he was when he saw Samantha on the ground. He checked on her and even kissed her forehead in front of me. It hurts like hell. 

"I will handle this. Go back and rest." He told her and let people help her. I even saw her smirked at me one last time before leaving.

And now, he is the only one in front of me.

The man I used to love before isn't the man I am seeing right now. 

"Why did you do that?!" He asked me.

I felt a hand helping me, and saw it was Rose. She was beside me the whole time.

"She didn't push her, you lunatic!" She shouted at him but she just received a glare.

"I-It's okay, Rose…" She looked at me but sighed and let me face the man I hadn't seen for a very long time. 

"W-Why?... W-Why did this happen?" I was trying to be strong but I couldn't help crying. I was hungry, I was hungry to feel his embrace and to hear how much he loves me.

"She's carrying my son now. I am going to marry her." Every word from him back then was to make me smile. He did everything for me that I didn't think he would love anybody else but me. But now, all I can hear was enough to break my heart and soul.

"But we love each other right?" I asked him, wishing that he would say those words like before.

"I did. But that day you abandoned us is the day you turn your back on me." His cold stare was making me feel scared.

I tried holding his hands but he never let me. 

"You don't know anything." Those words from me carry all the bitter memories of the past until now.

"And I don't need to know your lies either, Analisse." I looked at him. I nodded my head and wiped my tears.

"B-But what about us?" I want to know if I still have a tiny part in his heart. Even a little bit, I will fight for him. I want to see it badly, because throughout the years it was only him for me. 

"There's no 'us', Analisse." And that breaks me even more. 

"I don't believe you. I don't believe all of this!" I shout my lungs out and pushes him. I pushed the man I love hard because of hatred, because of the pain I was carrying alone the past two years. 

"Take her down! She tried to hurt the Alpha!" One of his guards shouted and they all tried to catch me. 

There's still one last hope in me. The last thing I was holding on to.

I am still his mate, his destined one.

I fought using my remaining strength, hoping that he would stop them from hurting me. 

I saw how he stood up straight and looked at me coldly, but then I saw a tiny pain in his eyes. 

And my world stopped when he looked at the people around, even to my parents who did not even show a tiny care about me. 

He closed his eyes and looked at me. I saw the wolf in him. I saw him pleading to Argus, the pain inside him was visible. I kept on shaking my head, no.

'Don't do this.' I heard my wolf talking to him.

But it's too late for a plea.

"I, Argus David, rejects you, Analisse Forster, as my mate."