LOGINChapter 4
I felt Cassian's fingers on the handcuffs, heard the click as he released them. My wrists were raw, aching, but before I could even process the relief, his hand wrapped around my arm and flipped me onto my back. I gasped, my eyes flying open to meet his brown gaze—so different from his brothers' blue eyes. There was something burning in those depths that made my stomach clench with fear and something far more dangerous. "We don't need those," he said, his voice a low rumble as he tossed the handcuffs aside. "I'd love to see you do so much as try to get away from me." He leaned down, his face inches from mine, his breath hot against my lips. "The more you resist, kitten, the harder I go. So think carefully." My entire body trembled. I wanted to push him away, to beg him to stop, but some dark, twisted part of me wanted this. Wanted him. And that terrified me more than anything. Cassian didn't rush. He took his time, his calloused hands trailing over my sweat-slicked skin, exploring every curve like he was memorizing me. His fingers traced the marks his brothers had left—the bruises on my hips, the bite marks on my throat—and something flickered in his eyes. Possession. Fury. Hunger. "Look at you," he murmured, his hands sliding up to cup my breasts. "Marked. Used. Dripping with my brothers' cum." He squeezed roughly, making me whimper. But then his thumbs brushed over my nipples, gentler than I expected, sending jolts of pleasure straight to my core. My body arched involuntarily, betraying me once again. "So responsive," he said, almost to himself. His hands moved lower, tracing my ribs, my waist, my trembling thighs. "Even after everything they did to you, you still want more, don't you?" "No," I whispered, but it was a lie and we both knew it. His hand slid between my thighs, and I gasped. I was oversensitive, swollen, aching—but when his fingers brushed my clit, pleasure sparked through the discomfort. "Liar," he growled, his fingers sliding lower, spreading my folds. "You're dripping, kitten. And not just from them." He was right. Despite everything, despite the exhaustion and the overstimulation, I was wet. My body was preparing itself for him, craving him, and the shame of it made fresh tears prick my eyes. Cassian's gaze locked onto my face, watching every expression, every emotion that flickered across my features. Then he pushed one thick finger inside me. I cried out, my back arching off the bed. I was so sensitive that even that single finger felt overwhelming. "Shhh," he murmured, but there was no comfort in it. "I'm not even close to done with you yet." He added a second finger, stretching me, and I whimpered. My hands flew to his wrist, trying to push him away, but he caught both my wrists in his free hand and pinned them above my head. "What did I say about resisting?" His voice was dangerous, dark with promise. He added a third finger, then a fourth, and I sobbed. The stretch was intense, burning, but underneath it was pleasure building despite my protests. "Trust me," he said, his brown eyes boring into mine with an intensity that stole my breath. "I'm merely doing you a favor, preparing you to take me. My brothers stretched you out nicely, but you might need a bit more to be able to accommodate me." My gaze dropped involuntarily to his cock, and my heart stuttered. He was huge—thicker and longer than his brothers, the head already glistening with precum. There was no way I could take all of that. No way. "Eyes on me, kitten." My gaze snapped back to his face. His expression was hard, unreadable, but his eyes... there was something there. Something that looked almost like concern before it vanished behind a sneer. "Spread your legs," he commanded. I hesitated, fear freezing me in place. "Now." His voice cracked like a whip. Slowly, shakily, I let my thighs fall open. "Wider." I obeyed, spreading myself completely for him, exposing every intimate part of me. The vulnerability was crushing, humiliating, but the way he looked at me—like I was something precious he wanted to destroy—made heat pool low in my belly. "Wider," he growled. I didn't think I could, but I tried, my muscles trembling with the effort. He crawled between my spread thighs, his massive frame dwarfing mine. One hand slid under my waist, arching my hips up slightly. "Deep breath, kitten," he murmured. Then, with no further warning, he slammed his entire length inside me in one savage thrust. My mouth opened in a silent scream. The pain was blinding, the stretch impossibly full. He'd buried himself to the hilt, and I could feel him everywhere—in my belly, in my throat, consuming every part of me. "Fuckkkk!" he roared, his head falling back as his entire body went rigid. "So fucking tight. So perfect." The pain hadn't even begun to settle when he started moving. His thrusts were brutal, merciless, each one driving deeper than I thought possible. I tried to close my eyes, to escape into darkness, but his voice cut through. "I said," he warned, breathing heavily, his hand grabbing both my wrists and pinning them above my head with one hand, "eyes on me, kitten." But I could barely keep them open. The sensations were too much—pain and pleasure blurring together until I couldn't tell them apart. "Do not let me ask again." His free hand gripped my jaw roughly, forcing me to meet his gaze. "Keep your fucking eyes on me while I fuck you. Unless you'd love me to punish you. Trust me, I have all the time." "Please..." I cried, tears streaming down my face. "I... I can't... it's too much." I forced my eyes to stay open, to hold his stare. His brown eyes held an intensity I couldn't decipher—hunger, yes, and lust, but something else too. Something that looked almost like awe, like he couldn't believe I was real, before he masked it with another sneer. He leaned down and crashed his lips on mine, swallowing my cries. His tongue forced its way into my mouth, claiming, possessing, silencing me as he continued to pound into me with savage force. But the kiss... the kiss was different from his brothers'. Beneath the brutality was something almost tender, the way his lips moved against mine, the way his tongue stroked mine. Like he was tasting me, savoring me, like he couldn't get enough. When he pulled back, I was gasping, and I realized with shock that pleasure was building again. My seventh orgasm of the night, and this one felt different. Bigger. More consuming. "That's it," Cassian growled, his eyes never leaving mine. "I can feel you getting close. You're going to come on my cock, kitten. You're going to come harder than you ever have." "No... no, I can't... not again..." I sobbed. "You will," he snarled, and his hand released my jaw to slide between our bodies, his thumb finding my oversensitized clit. The touch sent me spiraling. The orgasm crashed over me like a tidal wave, so intense that I screamed his name. My entire body convulsed, my pussy clamping down on his cock so hard that he groaned. "Fuck, yes," he growled, but he didn't stop. He kept thrusting, kept circling my clit, prolonging my orgasm until I was sobbing, shaking, completely wrecked. And then he pulled out. I gasped at the sudden emptiness, confused, but before I could process it, Cassian grabbed me and hauled me up. In one fluid motion, he lifted me completely off the bed, my legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he pressed me against the wall.FINNI'd been thinking about this all day.Cole and me. Just us, in the context of everything else. Every other pairing had found its moment and we'd always been the two orbiting through everyone else, touching in someone else's context, never quite landing in our own.I turned onto my side.Cole felt it. He turned his head.We looked at each other."Hi," I said."Hi," he said.I reached out and put my hand on his chest. Felt his heartbeat — faster than it should have been for someone who'd just come down from something. Aware. Ready."Still thinking?" I asked."Not anymore," he said."Good."I kissed him.Cole kissed differently with me than he did with anyone else in this bed and I felt the difference immediately.No careful weight to it. No years of history pressing through. Just two people who had been curious about each other for weeks finally with nowhere else to be.He kissed me like we were equals. I loved it immediately.My hands went into his hair and his grip on my jaw tig
Nadia;It started with Finn's mouth on my throat.We'd been on the couch for an hour, all four of us, the television saying something nobody was listening to. And then Finn's mouth found my throat and that was it — that was the whole thing, the match to the fuse, the room going from zero to charged in the space of a single exhale.His lips were warm and deliberate, tracing upward from my collarbone to just below my ear, his hand sliding into my hair and tilting my head to give him better access. I felt the graze of his teeth and my breath left me in a rush.Luke was on the floor in front of the couch. He looked up.His eyes went dark.He stood up.Cole was beside me and he turned at the movement, watching Luke cross the room with that quiet focused attention he gave everything, and I felt the shift in him — the specific alertness of someone whose body has decided something before their brain catches up.Luke sat on the edge of the coffee table directly in front of me. Knee to knee. He
He walked me backward into the lockers.The impact was solid and real and I felt it through my whole back and I didn't care at all. His hands were moving now — off my face, finding the zipper of my practice jacket, pulling it down with the same efficient focus he brought to everything. I shrugged it off. His went next. I got my hands on the hem of his base layer and pulled and then we were both down to skin and the strip-lighting was too bright and the locker room smelled like ice and sweat and neither of us gave a single damn.I looked at him.I'd seen Luke Maddox shirtless a hundred times in this exact room. This was not that.This was Luke standing in front of me with his chest rising and falling and his eyes on my face and no pretense between us for the first time in two years. No performance of indifference, no careful management of where my eyes went and what I let myself register.I looked.The line of his shoulders. The specific architecture of him — different from what I expe
COLEThe ice was empty when I got there.Good. That was what I needed — the cold and the quiet and the particular clarity that came from having nothing between me and the thing I was trying to think through. I'd been in my apartment for two hours trying to do the same thing and my apartment had walls and a ceiling and all it had done was make everything louder.I laced up and stepped out onto the rink and the cold hit me the way it always did — immediate, clarifying, like a reset button for everything above the neck.I started skating.No drills. No structure. Just movement, the repetitive carve of blades on ice, the familiar burn starting in my thighs and spreading outward. I did three laps before I registered the other figure at the far end of the rink.I stopped.Luke.He was at the opposite goal running shot drills alone, the puck moving from stick to net in that same deliberate sequence he repeated until it was automatic, until his body could do it without his brain involved. I'd
We did not go to the bedroom.What happened instead happened right there — on my kitchen counter, in the warm low light, with the city doing its nighttime thing outside and the wine glasses forgotten on the opposite counter. He moved over me with that slow thorough rhythm that I was already understanding was specifically Cole — nothing rushed, nothing performed, just complete presence, complete attention, every movement deliberate and deep and devastating in its patience.I've had good lovers. I understood that category. Men who were skilled, who knew the mechanics, who could make the physical components work correctly.This was not that category.This was Cole watching my face while he moved, tracking every response, adjusting with a precision that made my brain go completely offline. His forehead pressed to mine at some point, his breath unsteady against my lips, one hand gripping the counter beside me and the other cradling the back of my head like he was protecting something.The
This was nothing like last night — last night had been first times, feeling the shape of something new, tentative in the way new things are tentative even when they're wanted. This was Cole having made a decision and arriving at it completely. His mouth on mine was slow and deep and overwhelming in the specific way that certainty is overwhelming — not urgent, not desperate, just total. His lips moved against mine like he had nowhere else to be and nothing else to want, one hand sliding deeper into my hair and angling my head exactly where he wanted it.I made a sound I hadn't planned on.His other hand left my face and found my waist. Pulled me in — not roughly, just inevitably, the way gravity works, the way things fall toward each other when there's nothing left holding them apart. I felt the full solid warmth of his body against mine and something in my chest went loose and warm.He walked me backward. I went. My back met the counter and he pressed into the space between my hips an







