Masuk
Pakin’s P.O.V
“That’s him, isn't it?” I narrowed my eyes at the silver 2020 Porsche 911 GT3 RS parked in the shadows of the stadium parking lot.
“Chai.” One of my closest male friends, Tew, nodded in agreement. His gaze, too, was fixated on the luxury supercar. I couldn’t blame him; it was a pretty sweet ride, though I wasn’t all too impressed, considering I had one of my own.
“Sign me up for the race,” I told him. “I’m going to compete.”
“Aarai na?” My friend looked at me in shock, as if he didn’t really understand if he heard me right…or if I’d just lost my mind.
I don’t know why he was so shocked at all. Come on, I was basically one of the wealthiest people Tew had ever known, and my own car, an Ashton Martin Valkyrie, was unparalleled in strength and speed.
But, perhaps it was because of the fact that I was not a racer. I mean, sure, I raced sometimes for the fun and the thrill. But in the world of true automobile racing, I was nothing but a novice. No professional training, no standing point.
So I guess it was natural for Tew to be worried about me. Skeptical even.
Still, I rolled my eyes. “Didn’t you hear me?” I looked at my friend in irritation. “Go register me for the race. But don’t you dare use my real name. Got it? Or I’ll end you.”
“Dai, dai.” Tew sighed exasperatedly, opening the door and stepping out. He’s heard that threat so many times it was like a mantra at this point; just as he knew I’d never make good on that threat. “I’ll just register you as Pakin.”
With that, Tew shut the door and moved towards the gathering of people in the middle of the track where names were being registered and bets were being placed. But my eyes never wavered, forever focused on the silver Porsche, my gaze holding a kind of threatening intensity that the racer inside wasn’t aware of.
I tightened my hands around the steering wheel at the thought of the man who was probably sitting there in the car with a girl or two, blowing him off or having the time of his life. I shuddered at my own imagination.
I could still remember the tears in my best friend’s eyes. May, the woman I had loved since I had realized the meaning of the word; the woman who had come to me in despair in the middle of the night, seeking refuge.
“He used me, Pakin! And then tossed me aside as if I meant nothing!” May had cried in my arms, her heartbreaking sobs raking through her whole body. “I know he is called the Track King for a reason, but I never thought he’d do this to me! How could he be so heartless?”
It was at that moment that I promised to her, and to myself, that I was going to avenge her honor. And now here I was, ready to take him on in his home court.
Was I brave or just stupid? Maybe a bit of both. After all, I wasn’t doing this just for the hell of it. I was doing this for May, for love. Why else did people do stupid things if not for love?
Leaning against my seat, I stared intently at the car. It was heavily tinted, parked at a spot devoid of lights, so I couldn’t make out any silhouette or movement inside it. But I was willing to bet that the people inside were preoccupied.
And sure enough, after a while, the driver’s side door opened, and out went Sean Cheewagaroon, followed by an unknown woman. Both of them had disheveled hair, and the woman’s shirt was unkempt, like she had hurried to put it on.
“Shia!” I cursed at the sight of them. Well, well…I was right after all.
What’s worse was that Sean didn’t seem to care about the woman anymore now that he was finished with her. She tried to cling to his arm, but he brushed her away, not even glancing her way as he went to talk with some people in the gathering he seemed to know.
I clenched my hands into fists, infuriated. I felt bad for the woman; she was yet another one of his victims. She looked close to tears, her hands reaching for his once again before they fell limply at her sides; but seemed to take the hint and left soon after. Poor woman, looking at her pitiful state made my blood boil.
How could he be so cruel? So…arrogant?
I stared at him, taking in his features. Sure, he had a face that was considered good-looking, but he didn’t seem to be all that. Dark hair that shaped a perfectly angular face, and dark eyes that seemed to miss nothing.
He had an athletic build, and maybe because of his status as a pro racer, he seemed appealing to a certain audience. But that was it. He was a player, and well-known for it. And that red flag should have been enough to turn anyone off. Still, women were drawn to him like moths to the flame…and one of those women had been May.
My fist trembled as I climbed out of my car. It wasn’t my first time appearing in a rally, in a place like this where people of all walks of life bet on unusual things—from money to whatever the hell they pleased.
It was not my first time in a place that reeked of vices and curses, a place that smelled like burnt rubber and gasoline.
But it was my first time here in such a place as a participant. I was usually just an observer, an illegal racing enthusiast. But now I was here as a contestant, and I had already won two bouts.
Now I was about to challenge the so-called King of the Tracks in his turf.
I let my legs take me to where he was, marching up until I was close enough for him to notice my presence and glance at me.
“You versus me,” I cut straight to the chase. “Let’s race. It’s in my best interest to make you eat dust.”
He raised an eyebrow, amusement and surprise crossing his features. He took a long drag of the cigarette tucked carefully between two of his fingers, tilting his head to study me as if he had just encountered a strange specimen.
“Pakin…” I heard Tew’s low, shocked voice from somewhere behind me. “He has never been defeated; he’s the King of the Tracks. You shouldn't get too cocky and dismantle the food chain from above.”
“No,” I said firmly, still holding his gaze. “I mean it. Race me.”
I heard the crowd around us go silent. It was clear that they were shocked, but I didn’t know whether it was because they admired my guts or thought I was just plain stupid.
“Oh?” Came Sean’s intrigued voice. “And how much do you want in return, should you…win this race?” He gestured towards me with his hands vaguely, the cigarette blowing smoke in my direction.
I shook my head. “No, I don’t want money,” I said. “I have no use for that. What I want in return is for you to bow in front of me, and admit that you, the King of the Tracks, are an unperturbed asshole.”
Cue more gasps and noises of shock. But even with such a painfully vocal audience, Sean didn’t appear to be taken aback. Instead he laughed at my condition, as if I had just made the joke of the century, which infuriated me further.
“Is that what you want now?” he said, and I had a difficult time distinguishing whether he was mocking me, or if he was just amused. The thought of him mocking me flared my anger further.
“Well?” I narrowed my eyes, not backing down.
“Well, then. I accept your challenge.” He threw the cigar on the ground and crushed it under his boot, before taking a step towards me. “But I have a condition of my own.”
I raised my eyebrows, waiting for the asshole to make some kind of ridiculous demand.
“I have no use for your money either,” Sean countered, still looking amused. “So if I win, then you have to sit on my dick and ride me all night.”
Pakin’s P.O.VI sat there, staring at Sean, but his words barely registered. My mind felt like it was splintering, like a glass pane fracturing under too much pressure.I tried to hold onto something—anything—but my thoughts slipped through my fingers like sand, leaving me grasping at nothing.May had lied.Not just a simple lie—this was something bigger, something deeper. It wasn’t a misunderstanding. It wasn’t a mistake. It was calculated, deliberate.I felt my stomach twist.I had always known that May liked to flirt, that she enjoyed the attention. I had seen her bat her lashes at boys in school, had watched her play coy with men who were drawn to her charm.But I never once thought that the girl I grew up with—the girl I called my best friend—could twist reality so completely.Taking her virginity and then abandoning her…that wasn’t just a lie, i
Pakin’s P.O.V“We met because of May…”The words were out before I could stop myself.Sean’s expression shifted, the warmth in his eyes flickering with confusion. His fingers, still wrapped around mine, twitched slightly, as if bracing for something he wasn't sure he wanted to hear.“What… what do you mean?” His voice was careful, measured, but I could hear the uncertainty beneath it.I swallowed the lump in my throat, my palms growing clammy despite the cool hospital air.There’s no turning back now.“The reason I first approached you at the racecourse…” I hesitated, before continuing on, “It was because of May.”Sean stiffened, his fingers momentarily loosening before tightening again. He furrowed his eyebrows. “May? What does she have to do with this?”My heart was pounding so loudly it drowned out the r
Pakin’s P.O.VA steady, rhythmic beeping pulled me from the depths of unconsciousness. The scent of antiseptic wafted in the air, sterile and sort of metallic. My eyelids felt heavy, my limbs weighed down as if I’d been asleep for years.Slowly, I forced my eyes open, blinking against the bright fluorescent lights. White walls. A faint hum of activity outside the door. The realization crept in belatedly—I’m in a hospital.Disoriented, I tried to move, but even that was a struggle. My thoughts were slow, muddled, struggling to piece together how I got here.Then, movement.Sean.He was by my side in an instant, his face filled with relief and concern. His hair was slightly disheveled, dark circles under his eyes, as if he hadn't slept in a while.“You’re awake,” he breathed. “How are you feeling?”When I opened my mouth to answer, my throat was dry, my voice
Pakin’s P.O.VMy hands clenched the steering wheel so tightly that my knuckles turned white. My breath came in short, uneven gasps, the air around me thick and suffocating, pressing against my lungs like a vice.I could feel my pulse hammering against my throat, a frantic, erratic rhythm that sent a sharp ache through my temples.The world outside the windshield blurred, streetlights and passing cars smearing into streaks of color, but it wasn’t just my vision—my mind felt like it was unraveling, spiraling.My chest tightened, my stomach twisted, and a cold sweat broke out along the back of my neck.I couldn’t breathe.The betrayal, the laughter, every lie May had ever told me crushed down on me all at once, and suddenly, I wasn’t even sure where I was going.I just kept driving, gripping the wheel like it was the only thing keeping me tethered to reality.But no matter how much di
Pakin’s P.O.VI stood in front of my closet, flipping through my clothes, but my mind was far from the fabric beneath my fingertips. I had anticipated resistance, anger—maybe even another argument first thing in the morning.But not this. Not May slipping away without a word.And for some reason, that unsettled me more than anything else.Was this some kind of new tantrum? Was this another way to punish me for something that wasn’t really my fault?I pulled on a plain black shirt, tugging it over my head before grabbing a jacket. My fingers hesitated on the zipper as my thoughts spiraled.May had always been a constant in my life, but last night had made me question so much. Had I really been as blind as I felt now?I thought I’d find her all swaddled up in the guest room, nursing a hangover, but the fact that she just left… did she not want to fix things with me? Had she ever truly seen me the way I saw her—as someone she cared for, rather than just someone who was convenient to hav
Pakin’s P.O.VI woke up to a dull, persistent ache radiating from my temples, the remnants of yesterday’s exhaustion wrapping around me like a thick fog.My body felt sluggish when I rolled across the bed, as if even the act of breathing required more effort than usual.Blinking against the soft morning light seeping through my curtains, I slowly sat up, moving my shoulders to shake off the stiffness that had settled into my muscles overnight.Did I sleep in one position the entire night? Was I coming down with something?Whatever it was, I just knew it felt off. My head was heavy, my throat dry, and there was a faint, lingering pressure behind my eyes that made it clear—I wasn’t feeling my best.But whatever was going on with me had to wait.Because today…Today I had to face May. I just…had to.I exhaled sharply, rubbing a hand over my face as I let the reality of the situation sink in. Last night had been an adventure of sorts—a very, very draining one.Imagine walking into your ow
Pakin’s P.O.VMy instincts kicked in before my thoughts could catch up. May’s terrified expression pulsed in my mind as I moved, legs propelling me across the room faster than I realized.Everything else blurred—the muted conversations, the low thr
Pakin’s P.O.VMy entire body was tense, every nerve on edge as Sean’s hand rested too familiarly on my thigh.I tried to ignore it, to will the sensation away, but when his fingers began to move, lightly squeezing the fabric of my pants, and it became im
Pakin’s P.O.VI continued to drive through the city streets with no destination in mind. It was like I was in a horror movie, and he was the evil spirit that haunted me. Distance could not keep him away, in the same way that moving houses would not help the main prot
Pakin’s P.O.VThe next day, I walked into the university with deliberate slowness, like I was a soldier heading into battle, hoping to mask the tension I felt.My body was still stiff from the night I wanted to forget, and my heart wasn’t any lighter. And even though Tew and Leon had dropped the to







