Chapter 5

       

Tiffanye POV:

   In a few minutes, I will be pulling up to my old pack. I dreaded coming back to this place, because of all the bad memories I had to endure here with the people that I call my family. Also, another bad memory that keeps surfacing in my head is the night I and my ex-mate rejected each other, I still remember the aftermath of it.

   Flashback: I open the door walk into the house, and close it behind me. I started heading up the stairs, before I could walk up “Where the hell have you been?” I turned around to see that it was my father standing there with an angry look on his face, and arms folded. He gave off a look like he wanted to rip me to pieces, my relationship with my parents is not a good one at all. I never understood why they resent me so much? I never did anything wrong, I always respected my parents. But it was never good enough for them, they just ignore me because in their eyes I don’t exist and it hurts.

“I ask you a question little girl, answer me.” my father shouted impatiently.

“I, I- I was cut off from him.

“I’m just going to guess, you were out there whoring around, where did we go wrong with you? You should be more like Sunshyne, and be a good girl who is pure to the soul.”

“ It really hurts that you will think so little of me dad. To think that I would be out there fucking every Tom, Dick, and Harry? That a low blow even for you.”

“ I call it as I see it, also why would you becoming in at this time in the morning dress like that?” He said pointing at my clothes which were nothing but a tank top and shorts.

I responded “ Maybe if you would just ask me, and not always assume the worst in me then you would know that I am still a virgin. Also, could you have considered that I made had gone from a run, and just came back?”

“ It doesn’t matter, you will worthless in my book, just a waste of space that's why I cannot stand the sight of you. How about you do everyone a favor, and just disappear, no one wants you around” After saying that he walks away.

 Soon after I ran upstairs into my room, I close the door immediately tears begin to fall because of the what I was feeling right now. It felt like my father cut me deep in my heart when he said those things to me. I can also feel Jazebelle whimpering, I wonder how much can I take before I become broken? Being reminded every day that I’m worthless, to the point that I consider myself the black sheep of the family. sometimes I ask myself was I born by mistake, or was I being punished by the moon goddess?

“Tiffanye” I was brought out of my thoughts by Jazebelle voice.

“Yes Jazzy”

“We need to leave this place, I’m tired of us enduring the pain, people in this house don’t care about us at all, so why stay somewhere we not want?”

“I agree with you Jazzy, what about Journee? She the only one who shows us, love”

“ I understand Tiffanye, if we explain everything to her, I believe she will understand why we left. It’s up to you, I feel that we are better off living somewhere else than here” Jazebelle said going back to my mind.

Deep down I knew that Jazebelle was right, I have to leave if I want peace. The worst part is leaving Journee behind, I know she will be o.k. cause our parents treat her well. So I went into my closet and pull out two suitcases, and begin packing, I did not have a lot to pack, it was mainly clothing since my parents don’t believe in buying me things. Our relationship was never like this I remember the times that both my parents adore me, and would do anything to protect me.

   It all changed after my tenth birthday, that was when my father begin to look at me differently. And soon his behavior changes enough that he pulls away from me. shortly after my mom took notice, and went right along with my father and decided to turn against me herself. Now I have to face reality, when I finish packing my last bag, I went over to my desk, wrote Journee a goodbye letter. I know that it will hurt her, I hope that she will forgive me one day.

   I grab my bags headed to the door, I turn the knob, and open it. before I step out I turn around, took one last look at my room and close it. In minutes I was out of my house, running into the forest. When I reached the border I cross, I said the words that I never thought I would say.

“ I Tiffanye Rebel denounce Acewood no longer my pack”.

Flash back end.

“Tiffanye” I hear Jazebelle call my name which brought me out of my thoughts.

“Yes Jazzy”

“Are you nervous about returning back to the pack?”

“ A little, don’t worry we will be fine. Remember we're only here for Journee that's it.”

“ I know, I’m just worried about bumping into our ex-mate that's all”.

“I think we will be ok, I don’t think he was from our pack anyway.”

“You probably right” Jazzy said going into the back of our minds”

In minutes I was pulling up at the gate of the packhouse, I stop immediately a guard came out, and I recognize, him approach my car.

“ Who are you, what reason are you on our property?” the guy said.

“Really Quincy, after I struck you into the strip club many times until you found your mate. You act like you don’t know a sister?” I said.

Quincy began lifting his eyebrows, and when he remove his sunglasses, he stare at me for a few minutes that was when his eyes became wide, then he blurted out “Tiffanye”.

“In a flash,” I said with a chuckle.

“Oh my God, get out of the car girl, I want a hug” Quincy stated.

I nodded, and open the car door, soon as I was out of the car, I received the biggest bear hug ever. The hug felt comforting, and I could not help but smile. Because somewhere in the mess of all things I knew that someone or some people will care for me. When the hug broke, I and Quincy look at each other in silence, suddenly Quincy spoke: “ I cannot believe it’s you Tiffanye, how long has it been?”

“Five, I left the pack five years ago.”

“Why, what happened? It was a shock to everyone, that you left.”

“It’s a long story, anyway how have you been?” I asked changing the subject.

“Been good me and my mate have a son now. his name is Quin, short for Quincy of course,” he said with a chuckle.

“That’s good congrats I’m happy for you,” I stated.

“Thanks, I appreciate it Tiffanye, anyway why are you here?”

“I’m here because Journee found her mate, she wants me to help plan her mate ceremony.”

Quincy respond “ That’s great tell her I said congrats. Have you found your mate yet?”

I tense up at hearing that, and so did Jezebelle. But I soon fix my face and smile “No, I have not.”

“Don’t worry Tiff, you will find yours one day” Quincy assure me.

“ I sure will, are you going to let me in now?”

“Right, open the gates” Quincy shouted. Then he look back at me, and said “ It’s nice seeing you Tiffanye.”

“Same here,” I said getting back in my car, I start it up, and begin driving heading to my parent's house. As I was driving I notice that everything looked the same bag trees, everywhere houses were spread out and families gathering around spending time with one another I always wonder what it would be like to have a picture-perfect family? The ones that will be there for you, and protect you with every bone in their body, most of all I always wonder how it would feel like love, and security? It's nothing but a dream that never came true, it just faded away with the bad memories of my past.

   I’m pulling up in the driveway of my parent's house, as soon as I parked the car, not a minute went by as I heard the front door open. Then came to Journee running out, I stepped out of my car immediately I felt arms wrap around me.

“Tiffanye, you’re here, I missed you so much,” Journee said.

“Same here sis, it’s been a long time, not a day goes by that I don’t think of you,” I said smiling. I pull from the hug to see how much my baby sister had grown. She stood about 5’6 medium built, brown-skinned, with light brown hair, with chocolate brown eyes. It’s amazing how Journee had grown into a beautiful swan.

“You have gotten so big Journee, time really had flown.”

“Yeah it had Tiff, I’m glad that you are here.”

“I have to ask you Journee, does mom and dad know I’m here?”

“Of course they know, I told them that I wanted you here.”

“What did they say?” I ask going to the back of my trunk and retrieving my bags.

“What can they say? I told them that I wanted you here, rather they like it or not. I’m not going to be living here for too long, because my mate belongs to another pack. And he is also a beta, that’s even better for me, I get to leave this place.” Journee said with a smile.

“Had it really been that bad since I left?” I ask as we head into the house.

“ You have no idea Tiffanye, a couple of years after you left, Roderick return back from Alpha training. When he did he found his mate, shortly after  Alpha Senior retired handing over the title to Roderick, and his Luna.” Journee stated.

“Ok, so who is Roderick mate?”

Journee turn her nose, and sighed “ You would not believe if I told you”.

“Humor me” I reply.

“Sunshyne is Roderick mate”

 I was in shock, which is considered to be an understatement, nothing surprised me. I never thought in a million years that Sunshyne will turn out to be Luna. That is another accomplishment that my parents can be happy about, especially my father, he will end up gloating about how precious Sunshyne is. She can’t do anything wrong in his eyes, and that is how it has always been, Sunshyne is the perfect daughter.

“Well I must say that I’m not surprised, but then again Sunshyne always wanted to be Luna, she got her to wish now,” I uttered.

“Yeah, but it’s not all that it cracks up to be,” Journee said.

“What do you mean sis?” I ask giving a concerned look.

“Ever since they became Alpha, and Luna they became snobs. Looking down on other people, only caring about themselves. When there is a problem with the pack, they just ignore it. just last week our head warrior Jeremiah got injured with a broken leg. Do you know that ass hoe Roderick had the nerve to tell Jeremiah that he still had to patrol with a broken leg and all?”

“That is terrible” I started shaking my head.

Journee utters “ It gets worst, you know being Luna you suppose to care for everyone and be the heart of the pack. In Sunshyne case, it’s the opposite. All she does is shame half of the she-wolves here, also you know every time we see her we suppose to bow our head with respect? She also wants you to kiss her feet too, and if you don’t comply she would go wine to Roderick, and from there she would have you thrown into the dungeon.”

“ Are you kidding me?” I ask in shock.

“ I wish I was Tiffanye, I just know that I have to hurry up and leave this pack. It’s already starting to fall, I overheard some people talking about leaving, and I don’t blame them”. Journee started shaking her head.

“Did anyone inform the former Alpha?”

“No, once Alpha Senior headed over the title to Roderick, he decided to go on a long vacation. So no one knows where he is at”

“ Let pray to the moon goddess that this pack will not fall. Even though it’s in shambles right now I still don’t want anything bad to happen to it. It’s our childhood home after all”.

“ I agree Tiff, come on let me take you to your room,” Journee said pointing to the stairs. I nodded and followed her, when we got to the top we did not have to go far, because my room was the second to the right. I begin to become nervous all of sudden, it was the fact that I have not been in this house in 5 years. I feel that everything is starting to come back to me, the bad memories that I thought I blocked from my mind are now trying to resurface.

   My body started to tense at the thought of seeing everyone mostly my father. He and I in the same room is a total recipe for disaster, I was brought out of my thoughts when I felt Journee grab my hand. She must have seen the look on my face. I can tell she wanted to pity me, but I would not let her, this is supposed to be her time to feel happiness, I don’t need her to feel that she had to endure my pain, so I set it aside.

 “I’m ok Journee, I’m just nervous that's all, it’s been 5 years.”

“I know Tiff, come on let's get in your room.”

When Journee open the door to my room, I took one look, it was just the way I left it. A queen-size bed with pink and white sheets, a nightstand on the left side of the bed, and a black desk in the middle corner facing one of the windows. The walls still had blue color, I was impressed because I had no idea what I was going to walk into.

“See Tiffanye, I left your room the same, I just come here from time to time just to do some dusting here and there. In case you ever decided to come back home” Journee started walking over to sit in my bed.

“Thank you, Journee, at least I know that someone cares. Where is everybody?” I asked not seeing anyone.

“As you know Sunshyne lives in the packhouse now, mom out with her friends, Dad of course doing pack business, and also teaching Emiliano beta stuff before he takes over.”

“Ok, I guess I get settled in now” I uttered.

I understand, you need your rest” Journee said getting up from the bed and heading to the door. Before she left, she turn to me and said “ I forgot to inform you that we have dinner tonight with Sunshyne, and Roderick at the packhouse.”

“Do I have to go?” I asked.

“ You already know Tiff, that dad is going to make you go because he cares about his reputation” Journee retorted rolling her eyes.

I could not help but chuckle a bit, It was so true, that our parents base their lives on having a good reputation. Especially our mother, because she comes from the line of Alphas, since she was the only girl my grandfather spoil her rotten. That she was accustomed to a certain lifestyle, what makes matters worse is that our dad gives into a lot of her bullshit, but that is how it goes in the Rebel house. Everybody gets what they won't accept me, that is why I’m a loner who rather is alone than be hurt.

“What time is dinner?” I asked.

“It’s at 8, so you have plenty of time,” Journee said.

“Ok, I’m going to take a short nap for now” I replied letting out a yawn.

“Ok sis, I see you later” Journee stated leaving out closing the door behind her.

After Journee left I took off my shoes, and coat and got straight into bed, soon darkness took over.