It’s been a while since I left home to enjoy a movie or simply take pictures at the mall. Ethan says I wouldn’t even be able to prostitute myself on the street, since no man would want such a thin woman with such an ugly body. At first, I believed he said it just to try to attack me when we fought, who does not speak shit at the time of anger?! But now I realize that he really thinks these things and it makes me want to die, I wanted to be good enough for his love.
I know it seems like I protect him, even after the assaults, but he was once a good man. At first he helped me with the lack of money and my problem with self-esteem, this should count as something good. I fell in love as soon as I looked into his beautiful green eyes, his black shoulder-length hair enchanted me, the pose he had was confident and quite attractive, his skin was so white that when I smiled at him I could notice the red coloring on his cheeks. In high school, I suffered a lot of racism, since I was the only black child with a scholarship. I remember that once I spent an hour in the bath rubbing myself in an attempt to get clearer, after I saw that it did not work, I cried in my mother’s lap asking why God made me so, I just want to be like the other children. My mother, she... It’s been a long time since I’ve seen her or talked to her, the last time we saw each other she hit Ethan in the face, he got very angry and since then says he’s protecting me from her outbursts of anger, but my mother is not like that, she never hit anyone, but I also do not judge him, Being called a slut is nothing good to hear, I even tried to defend her from him, but it was no use. My life may not be the best, but at least I do not starve or live on the street, the only thing I need to do is please Ethan, since I do not work outside, is my obligation as a housewife........ I stir the soup in circular motions, careful not to spill a drop on the stove, Ethan likes everything clean, so I always take my spare time to clean everything. After a few minutes, I turn off the stove and seeming to guess, Ethan appears in the kitchen with his face closed and sits at the table, waiting for me to serve him. I put a generous amount of soup on the deep plate and put it in front of him.- I hope you like it, love. In return I get only a nod, so start drinking the soup without even looking at me. He may seem tough, but in the beginning of our relationship was an incurable romantic, living surprising me with flowers and gifts. I miss that time, nowadays he hardly looks for me to have sex, and when he looks for me he only cares about his own pleasure and turns to sleep.- Jack told me he saw you wandering down the street today. I said I don’t want you on the street, it’s too dangerous and you know it. I sigh and nod trying to convince myself that he is just protecting me, the streets are increasingly dangerous for women, especially black women. - I know, I’m sorry. I lower my head and turn my attention to my plate. As soon as we both finish dinner, I get up from the chair and do all the dishes, I take advantage and tidy the kitchen too. As soon as I finish, I lean on the counter for a few minutes seeking courage to talk to him, I always have to know how to approach Ethan, or else we will have another fight and the last marks are still fresh on my arm. After gathering all the determination I have, I go towards the room and see him getting ready to sleep, he is already in his pajamas every night. I approach him and sit next to him a little reluctantly in fear of his reaction. Usually when contradicted he gets very aggressive. - I was thinking about buying some clothes tomorrow, in the afternoon. Winter is coming and my socks are pierced. I force a friendly smile to try to tame the beast. I get a cold look and a tremor goes through my body. It’s never good when he looks at me like that.I’ve told you a thousand times, I don’t want you leaving the house, Kate. We have everything we need here and if I don’t buy it myself, you don’t lack anything. Ethan is so angry that I can see in his eyes how much he’d like to break up with me right now. I take a deep breath and run my hands through your hair.— But I’m in need of clothes and I swear I’ll go in the afternoon. The streets are not dangerous at this time and there are many people walking, no one will try anything with me. I try to make him see that this protection is totally ridiculous, I know how to take care of myself very well and in the afternoon the streets are safer.Subject closed, you’re not going anywhere.Ethan lies in bed and ignores me, as he always does. I take a deep breath again trying falsely to stay calm, but I’m tired of it all. The anger makes me totally uncontrolled to the point of making me have the courage to face it, which I never did out of fear. Even though it is not a good idea, deep down a voice tells me that I should have faced it long ago.— Tomorrow I will buy clothes and there is nothing you say that will stop me! I am a woman and I can go wherever I want and whenever I want, I get tired of you holding me at home. I speak with determination and cross my arms under my breasts, tired of being treated worse than dog. The man gets up from the bed and comes at me with wide steps. I widen my eyes and try to run when I realize what he will do, but I am pulled by my hair hard and my body falls to the ground. I try to get rid of the squeezing thrashing and ignoring the strong pain in my scalp, but the first slap catches me by surprise and makes one side of my face burn. Th
I catch him without thinking twice and leave the room. To prevent lock the door, will know if he wakes up and I’m still here. I pull my suitcase to the exit and get out as soon as possible of this house that only behind bad memories. I take an Uber to the bus station further away, when I get to my destination, some people stare at me curious, the pain of blows, I can walk just limping and yet my ribs scream. I see that the bus bound for Canada has arrived and buy a ticket to Toronto, is a big city and far from New York. I hope I can survive in a completely unknown country.*FOUR MONTHS LATER* I’ve been in Canada for four months now and to be honest, the experience has been horrible. Once I got my work visa, which fortunately took only three months to leave, I got a job as a waitress, but I did not stay long, since the owner decided to retire and travel the world. I was lucky to get my visa that fast, but it helped the country to be short of workers, since the retirement rate is incre
I sigh and follow to the kitchen. I pour some coffee in the cup and drink as I look at nothing, thinking of a miserable life I had with a miserable man. I remember the call I have to make and run towards the room, take the newspaper inside my bag and digit the number, take the phone to my ear and starts calling. Four rings later, I am greeted by a gentle voice on the other side of the line.- Belmontt companies, good morning. What can I do for you? I swallow a little nervous with the new direction of my life. I’m afraid of not adapting at work and being sent away on the first day, I did a lot of housework in life, but never for other people.-Good morning! I read the classified in the newspaper and wanted to see if the vacancy for Cleaner is already complete. I cross my fingers and hope they haven’t filled the slot yet, if they have, I’m so fucked.- Let me see... No. Not yet busy, would you like to schedule an interview? I think for a moment if that’s what I really want, but I pr
— Hi, I’m Katherine Amarantt. I think I spoke to you on the phone a couple days ago. I came for the job interview. I try to smile as friendly as possible and I hope I’m not looking crazy. It’s too early for me to be spontaneous.- Oh, yes! Mr. Belmontt is on the twentieth floor, but it was not with me that you spoke, certainly with his secretary. The girl returns my smile and puts her hair behind her ear. She is so beautiful that I got a twinge of envy, her red hair look beautiful in contrast to the sun, the freckles on her face make her a cute footprint, but the blue eyes give a more "sexy" and confident look. When I absorb what she said I get a fright, what do you mean "Mr. Belmontt"? Business owners don’t usually do that service.- Mr Belmontt? -He owns the company, right? He’s going to interview me? Isn’t that the secretary I spoke to?! I shoot several questions at once and feel the distress return. The woman just laughs at my despair, which makes me quite ashamed. Fuck, is it
- You’re here for the Cleaner job interview, right? He asks to break the ice and immediately thanks him internally, I had no idea how to start a dialogue.- Yes, sir. I answer trying not to stutter, he is so intimidating and beautiful, I feel like an ant near him, at this moment I regret not having done the law school I wanted so much, I could be here running for another vacancy and would keep a dialogue with someone important.- I asked my secretary to call the reference numbers on her resume, luckily everyone spoke very well about her.Belmontt tilts his body forward and supports his arms on the table, thus making us closer.- I’m happy for that, I’ve always tried to be the best version of myself in everything I’ve ever done. I answer frankly, I may never have a job in something that could give me a career, but I always acted as if each one was my dream job. He smiles weakly and analyzes me for about a minute, I was already beginning to be bewildered when he finally decides to op
The cotton candy is so close, I just need to stretch just a little bit and feel the sugar melting in my mouth. Take it, take it, take it, take it, take it... When I am a few inches from my goal, I hear a loud, annoying noise and start to fall. I scream as loud as I can and try to stretch my arms to hold on to the cotton candy, but it’s too late, the best invention of gastronomy is gone... I wake up in a jump and feel my head hurt, put my hand in place and Aliso in an attempt to ease the pain. I notice that I’m sitting on the floor and realize that I fall and hit my head somewhere, since I feel some liquid wet my fingers, I just hope I don’t get migraine. I hear again the noise that made me come out of my dream and I notice my cell phone vibrating on the coffee table, huff of anger and stretch to get the phone. I answer without looking whose number and yawn sleep.- Hello, who is it? I ask trying not to yawn again, my mother always says that it is rude to yawn while talking to people
I’m up for a job, spent the whole weekend researching Belmontt companies. They are a global network and the company as a whole is multimillion, which does not surprise me, the cars per app became a fever. To be honest, I never imagined myself with so much money, what do you do with so much money?! I get ready after breakfast, the first meal of the day always makes me more willing and humorous, so I always drink more doses of coffee. I leave my humble apartment towards the company, today I decided to go by subway to save, it is not often that I can afford to ride a taxi or one of the cars Belmontt s, sometimes ends up expensive the race....... When I arrive at the company, I see that inside it is even busier than last time. I take a deep breath seeking courage and enter as soon as possible, I take care not to bump into someone again and go to the counter already known to me, I notice that the receptionist is not the redhead the other day, but is equally beautiful.-
By noon, I had already cleaned more than half of my share, much to my relief. I go to the bathroom and change again, put my bag on one of my shoulders and go to Anastasia’s table. The closer I get, the louder her voice is on the phone, as the conversation seems important, when I arrive at the reception, I sit on the couch and wait until she finishes the call. It takes a few moments and the phone is turned off.- Finally it’s lunchtime, I’m starving. She picks up the black bag and walks around the counter gracefully.- I’m also hungry and tired. I get up from the couch and follow her to the large main elevator.- Good food will cheer you up, I’m sure. The woman turns smiling at me and enters the elevator that was already on our floor, realize that we are in the main elevator and do not even enter. I don’t want any trouble on my first day.- I go in the employee elevator, I don’t want any trouble on my first day. I say turning to her and heading t