Chapter Nineteen

The week passed quickly, as always. The days for me are the same, my life has become a fucking routine, so when it finally comes Friday night I just want to throw myself in bed and cry myself to sleep. It’s hard to try to find yourself again after so much time lost inside myself, after being trapped in a world where no woman should stay. It’s so dark and scary...

The worst thing is that for years I thought I was guilty of everything, that my attitudes led me to live that way, I had no one to help me. I moved away from my friends and my parents, I had nothing and no one, it was just me and Ethan, but in fact it was always me and me.

I wipe my tears and try to push away those thoughts that only give me trigger. I hear my phone beeping and I remember I have an appointment with Cassian. Damn mouth that only brings me confusion and trouble, if I had stayed silent I would not have to lie to him again. I hate lies, but they are now part of my life. I unlock the phone screen and see the notif