Ethan lies in bed and ignores me, as he always does. I take a deep breath again trying falsely to stay calm, but I’m tired of it all. The anger makes me totally uncontrolled to the point of making me have the courage to face it, which I never did out of fear. Even though it is not a good idea, deep down a voice tells me that I should have faced it long ago.
— Tomorrow I will buy clothes and there is nothing you say that will stop me! I am a woman and I can go wherever I want and whenever I want, I get tired of you holding me at home. I speak with determination and cross my arms under my breasts, tired of being treated worse than dog. The man gets up from the bed and comes at me with wide steps. I widen my eyes and try to run when I realize what he will do, but I am pulled by my hair hard and my body falls to the ground. I try to get rid of the squeezing thrashing and ignoring the strong pain in my scalp, but the first slap catches me by surprise and makes one side of my face burn. The scratch as much as possible, but this seems to make him more angry, he throws slaps and more slaps and as soon as he gets tired, starts kicking me.I cry for help several times, but as always no one comes to save me. Tears roll down my burning face and sobs come from my lips. I give up trying to struggle and stay quiet in the fetal position feeling the kicks and slaps all over my body, just wishing to disappear or die soon. What have I done with my own life? That’s not life, it’s hell.When he stops feeling my whole body ache like I’ve been hit by a car, I drag myself close to the dresser and Ethan comes after me with a smile on his face, it was always like that, always that same disgusting smile.— Kate, Kate, Kate... always so stubborn, you know I hate to discipline you, but you like to challenge me. Everything I do is for your good, love. You know that, but now it seems you’ve forgotten. No one will ever love you like I do, there will never be a better man for you than me. His words hurt me more than the beating, he is right, no other man will want me, I was never very attractive and during those years I feel that I got even worse, I’m not beautiful enough. I drag myself away from him, my whole body throbs, but I stop only when I feel the chest of drawers against my back.- I hate you Ethan! Damn the day I met you. The monster approaches with even more anger and this time I feel that he is able to kill me. When he’s about to pull me by the arm, I take the lamp from the dresser and hit his head hard. Ethan’s body hits the corner of the bed and falls to the floor. A pool of blood quickly forms and I muffle a scream with my hand, crawl to it and check if it is breathing, to my relief he is, do not want to be responsible for someone’s death, I would never forgive myself. I sit on the bed and stare at his body unconscious on the floor. I’m thinking about calling an ambulance, but I don’t want to be arrested for attempted murder or anything, as much as I’m hurt, that’s his word against mine. If Ethan wakes up, what will he do to me? Would he forgive me? Who I’m trying to fool, if he wakes up and sees me here, who dies is me. Despair starts to take over my body and I run towards the wardrobe. I need to get away before he wakes up.I take my suitcase and put all my few clothes inside, without worrying about folding or organizing, I don’t have time for that. My hands tremble and my breathing is completely unregulated, I feel that I can faint at any time, not to mention the pain I feel in my body. I collect my things in the bathroom sink and look at my reflection in the mirror. For years I thought I was a beautiful woman, my hair is afro in a strong shade of black, my skin is black and I love her so, my body was already beautiful, before the bruises and weight lost by the nights he left me without eating. One of the things I love most about me is my black coal eyes, my lips are full and I remember how much Ethan loved them. I swallow the crying and focus on getting out of here safe. To leave, I need money, but I haven’t worked for years, and the one who always kept the money was Ethan. I stop for a few seconds and remember where he kept the money, Ethan never trusted banks due to taxes. Limping back to the room and lifting the mattress, I smile in relief to see that the envelope of money is still here.I catch him without thinking twice and leave the room. To prevent lock the door, will know if he wakes up and I’m still here. I pull my suitcase to the exit and get out as soon as possible of this house that only behind bad memories. I take an Uber to the bus station further away, when I get to my destination, some people stare at me curious, the pain of blows, I can walk just limping and yet my ribs scream. I see that the bus bound for Canada has arrived and buy a ticket to Toronto, is a big city and far from New York. I hope I can survive in a completely unknown country.*FOUR MONTHS LATER* I’ve been in Canada for four months now and to be honest, the experience has been horrible. Once I got my work visa, which fortunately took only three months to leave, I got a job as a waitress, but I did not stay long, since the owner decided to retire and travel the world. I was lucky to get my visa that fast, but it helped the country to be short of workers, since the retirement rate is incre
I sigh and follow to the kitchen. I pour some coffee in the cup and drink as I look at nothing, thinking of a miserable life I had with a miserable man. I remember the call I have to make and run towards the room, take the newspaper inside my bag and digit the number, take the phone to my ear and starts calling. Four rings later, I am greeted by a gentle voice on the other side of the line.- Belmontt companies, good morning. What can I do for you? I swallow a little nervous with the new direction of my life. I’m afraid of not adapting at work and being sent away on the first day, I did a lot of housework in life, but never for other people.-Good morning! I read the classified in the newspaper and wanted to see if the vacancy for Cleaner is already complete. I cross my fingers and hope they haven’t filled the slot yet, if they have, I’m so fucked.- Let me see... No. Not yet busy, would you like to schedule an interview? I think for a moment if that’s what I really want, but I pr
— Hi, I’m Katherine Amarantt. I think I spoke to you on the phone a couple days ago. I came for the job interview. I try to smile as friendly as possible and I hope I’m not looking crazy. It’s too early for me to be spontaneous.- Oh, yes! Mr. Belmontt is on the twentieth floor, but it was not with me that you spoke, certainly with his secretary. The girl returns my smile and puts her hair behind her ear. She is so beautiful that I got a twinge of envy, her red hair look beautiful in contrast to the sun, the freckles on her face make her a cute footprint, but the blue eyes give a more "sexy" and confident look. When I absorb what she said I get a fright, what do you mean "Mr. Belmontt"? Business owners don’t usually do that service.- Mr Belmontt? -He owns the company, right? He’s going to interview me? Isn’t that the secretary I spoke to?! I shoot several questions at once and feel the distress return. The woman just laughs at my despair, which makes me quite ashamed. Fuck, is it
- You’re here for the Cleaner job interview, right? He asks to break the ice and immediately thanks him internally, I had no idea how to start a dialogue.- Yes, sir. I answer trying not to stutter, he is so intimidating and beautiful, I feel like an ant near him, at this moment I regret not having done the law school I wanted so much, I could be here running for another vacancy and would keep a dialogue with someone important.- I asked my secretary to call the reference numbers on her resume, luckily everyone spoke very well about her.Belmontt tilts his body forward and supports his arms on the table, thus making us closer.- I’m happy for that, I’ve always tried to be the best version of myself in everything I’ve ever done. I answer frankly, I may never have a job in something that could give me a career, but I always acted as if each one was my dream job. He smiles weakly and analyzes me for about a minute, I was already beginning to be bewildered when he finally decides to op
The cotton candy is so close, I just need to stretch just a little bit and feel the sugar melting in my mouth. Take it, take it, take it, take it, take it... When I am a few inches from my goal, I hear a loud, annoying noise and start to fall. I scream as loud as I can and try to stretch my arms to hold on to the cotton candy, but it’s too late, the best invention of gastronomy is gone... I wake up in a jump and feel my head hurt, put my hand in place and Aliso in an attempt to ease the pain. I notice that I’m sitting on the floor and realize that I fall and hit my head somewhere, since I feel some liquid wet my fingers, I just hope I don’t get migraine. I hear again the noise that made me come out of my dream and I notice my cell phone vibrating on the coffee table, huff of anger and stretch to get the phone. I answer without looking whose number and yawn sleep.- Hello, who is it? I ask trying not to yawn again, my mother always says that it is rude to yawn while talking to people
I’m up for a job, spent the whole weekend researching Belmontt companies. They are a global network and the company as a whole is multimillion, which does not surprise me, the cars per app became a fever. To be honest, I never imagined myself with so much money, what do you do with so much money?! I get ready after breakfast, the first meal of the day always makes me more willing and humorous, so I always drink more doses of coffee. I leave my humble apartment towards the company, today I decided to go by subway to save, it is not often that I can afford to ride a taxi or one of the cars Belmontt s, sometimes ends up expensive the race....... When I arrive at the company, I see that inside it is even busier than last time. I take a deep breath seeking courage and enter as soon as possible, I take care not to bump into someone again and go to the counter already known to me, I notice that the receptionist is not the redhead the other day, but is equally beautiful.-
By noon, I had already cleaned more than half of my share, much to my relief. I go to the bathroom and change again, put my bag on one of my shoulders and go to Anastasia’s table. The closer I get, the louder her voice is on the phone, as the conversation seems important, when I arrive at the reception, I sit on the couch and wait until she finishes the call. It takes a few moments and the phone is turned off.- Finally it’s lunchtime, I’m starving. She picks up the black bag and walks around the counter gracefully.- I’m also hungry and tired. I get up from the couch and follow her to the large main elevator.- Good food will cheer you up, I’m sure. The woman turns smiling at me and enters the elevator that was already on our floor, realize that we are in the main elevator and do not even enter. I don’t want any trouble on my first day.- I go in the employee elevator, I don’t want any trouble on my first day. I say turning to her and heading t
day at work went well, when he gave my schedule, I changed for the last time and took the elevator to HR. The doors opened and I am flooded by the loud voices of the place, the environment is full of small cabins with partitions, each cabin has a table, computer, landline and chair. All the tables are full of papers and for a moment I feel sorry for everyone, dealing with the bureaucratic part must be the worst part of a company, hopefully Mr Belmontt has enough people to handle it for him, people who certainly work harder than him and at the end of the month receive a misery for all the effort. I walk to a nearby booth and stop in front of a man typing on a computer, clear my throat and attract his attention, which stops and looks at me intently.- Good afternoon, what can I do for you? The man takes off his glasses and runs his hands over his face, showing fatigue, but it is not only him who is tired, I feel exhausted and it is only my first day. - Good afterno