All I feel is Numbness

I walked into the corner of the room with my ripped and bloodied shirt, groaning with every step I took, my body screamed out to me in pain begging me to relax and take a break to heal.

But I had so much left to do, that can't be left undone unless I want another hell on earth.

' Terra, are you awake? ' I asked my wolf but got no response

'Guess you are still out then' I muttered,

I couldn't blame her for being exhausted. Healing me always took a toll on her health. She was underfed and had to keep me in peak physical condition, so she was often tired and weak.

Dumping the bloodied shirt into the bin, I went into the bathroom to clean up, the wounds stinging as they got exposed to cold water. After doing my business and washing away the blood all over my body, I picked up another oversized shirt that I got from the bin, yes the bin is where I pick up my clothes from, all the ones I brought with me had been taken away since they were too pretty for a slave, their words not mine; and paired it with ripped jeans.

I'm not entirely sure if it was the design or it ripped due to overuse but either way, I'm grateful I have something to wear.

I went out of my room, making sure to keep my head down and avoid the eyes of the passerby. My body hurts but I can't stop, and I'm not entitled to use the medical facilities either

I continued my chore, cleaning out the plates they used for breakfast while fetching the ingredients that would be used for lunch.

Rule 10: All pack members must have a three squared meal unfailing and it must not be late.

How inhumane, I get to cook all three meals for five hundred healthy wolves but I won't get to have any.

Once I confirmed that they had all gone to their various training exercises, I began cleaning the rooms.

Once done with the cleanings, I went back to the kitchen to start preparing for lunch, upon getting there I met my best friend alongside some omegas cutting the vegetables and meats needed for lunch.

"When did you get back?" I asked as I moved closer to her, excited to see her again after so long.

I could use some peace at this moment and she always brought that with her.

"Just a few minutes ago" she replied with a smile as she brought me into a side hug, I winced out in pain at the crushing hug

"You look worse babes" Jissa whispered into my ears, her voice sounding pitiful and pained

"I'm good" I lied, I wouldn't want to hurt her feelings about leaving with her mate

"You can't lie to me darling" she commented and went back to cutting vegetables

"Did you bully the omegas to help with the cooking?" I asked curiously, knowing that they all hated being anywhere around me

"No, it wasn't me this time. The Luna asked them to help you out," She explained

"Oh" was all I could say, I could feel a glare sent my way from the direction the omegas were sitting and whispering amongst themselves

As we continued cooking silently in the kitchen I felt a familiar feeling and my heart leaped with joy.

They were here!

My parents are here!

I should find a way to tell them about reconsidering their plan to merge.

Damien walked into the kitchen carrying several shopping bags in his hands, he dropped them by the door and glared at me in disgust and hate before pulling me into his embrace, scenting me all over with his scent to cover the traces of blood and mine scent, making it seem we are a happy couple.

"Go get changed, dress properly we need to greet your parents, and you better behave yourself any slip-up and you'll find yourself to blame," he threatened and handed me one of the bags "Use the guest room beside my room" he added and walked out

"That fucking piece of shit!" Jissa swore with a pissed-off expression.

I didn't know what to feel, pained, angered, or sad.

But none of those emotions surfaced instead, all I feel is numbness.

Nothing else but numbness.

I marched out of the kitchen, tuning out all the curses my friend was throwing at Damien and his father.

I heard her following behind me while trying to pacify me.

But I'm not angry,

I'm going to stop whatever they plan no matter what!

I got dressed as commanded, looking the best I have in so many months. Jissa helped me with light makeup and brushed up my hair into a ponytail.

I exited the room and braced myself for the acting that was to come, I met Damien and my mum walking towards the alpha's office

"I've missed you so much!" My mum pulled me into her tight embrace, my heart tightened at the thought of lying to her and my father.

' I can't do this' Damien glared at me from behind my mum, mouthing me ' to behave '

"I've missed you too, Mum" I hugged back, fighting back the wince that threatened to fall from my lips.

"Oh dear, you smell so much like your mate" she giggled looking at me, I smiled without a reply. It was his plan to them think we were a loving couple

"Where is Dad?"

"Oh he is in the alpha's office, we came to finalize the merge of the two parks. Aren't you excited? Your dad and I can't wait to step down for you and your mate to take over!" She announced excitedly pulling me along with her as we entered the alpha's office.

My father eyed me for several minutes before pulling me into a hug "It's been rough hasn't it?" he whispered into my ears as he rubbed my back fondly and my eyes widened in shock

He knew?

How did he know?

"I may be old, but my alpha sense is still very much active" he replied to my silent question

I thought I had been alone all this while, but my father knew.

Tears of joy threatened to fall as a sigh of relief left my mouth.

I'm saved.

"Alpha Roderick, since the Supreme Alpha will be visiting your pack in the next few days, why don't we wait for him to be a witness to the merge? It's such a grand event and it would be worth it with the Supreme alpha in attendance." my father suggested.