23 : "Library"Library23February 25, 2015I'm inside my classroom, looking at my teacher but I'm actually not listening at all to any of the discussion. I was doing little scribbles on my notebook but I wasn't really paying attention. It's been two days since Gage left and he's probably in Asia now.Gage had left for Osaka Japan on the 23rd, and I was really devastated because I won't be seeing much of him for a week. An entire week. Even though he promised me that he will still check on me from time to time but it's different when I have him here. And I know it sounds selfish because he's not even my boyfriend but I couldn't get enough of him.He said, his free time will be on March 3rd then they'll be flying to Singapore on March 10th to continue their concert tour in Asia. I'm proud of him because he's reaching different and really far countries but I still kind of feel alone when he's not around which is really weird because I just met him and I already feel like this towards hi
24: "Adam"24You must all be wondering why I fell in love with the douche bag, Adam Stanton. Well, he was never like that when I met him.I was, 15, a freshman in high school when I met Adam. He was a senior, probably 18. Every girl in the campus loved him and adored him so much. I think everyone had a crush on him back then, even those who'd deny that they didn't really liked him because he's cocky, they knew they were lying to themselves and I wasn't one of those in denials because he wasn't my type at all.I first saw him on my first day of school as a freshman, he was at the parking lot with his senior friends. They were talking loud and looked cool. You know, the type of popular senior kids who would just waste time till the bell rings. They were like that. I first caught his attention when him and his friends were throwing the football around and one from them threw it hard at my direction as it landed right on top of my head. Like, fucking goal!My first impression on him?Jer
25 : "Baby"Baby25When we finished having dinner, we got back inside his car and started driving right away. He asked me where I wanted to go next but I really wanted to go home."Tate?" He calls while his eyes were set on the road."Yeah?""Do you remember how we met?" He asked with a grin."Football straight on my head." I pointed to my head and he laughs.I ended up laughing too as I remember it."And do you remember how I met you again one night while I was on my way to Dan's party?" He asks.My smile begins to widen."You hailed my taxi cab then you sat on my lap." He grins evilly.I snorted. "Hey on my defense, I didn't know there was someone who sat there."He laughs under his throat."But I'm glad it happened. I met you and we became good friends." He says.I smile."We're still good friends right?" He asks.I glanced at him."I mean after we've been through, we're still good friends right?" He assures.I remained quiet."I don't wanna lose you Tate. You've been a huge part
26 : "Why"Why26"Why not?" He asks.I shake my head. "Nothing."He remained quiet and just looked at me."Just don't call me baby." I added, saying it really softly.He slightly pulled his arm and himself away from me then looks away suspiciously. "Ex-boyfriend used to call you that?" He asks.I close the chocolate box and placed it on top of the table. "Yeah." I answer honestly."It's kind of our thing." I added.I stare back at Gage and he was just looking straight ahead. He chuckles softly then shakes his head too. His eyes travelled back at me. "Okay. If you say so." He answers.I sigh, "How long are you staying here in New York?""Well, I'm leaving tomorrow for London.""That soon?"He nods. "Management wants to talk to me then I'm flying to Los Angeles the day after tomorrow. I'm going to attend a friend's party."I fake a smile. "Well, I guess we need to spend most of our time today huh?"He nods as he rested his chin over my shoulder. "You're studying?""Yeah. Midterm week i
27 : "Big News"Big News27Last night was fantastic.Well, it's always fantastic with Gage.Sex with Gage is always the bomb.I lay my naked self next to a naked Gage. We were on top of my bed while my white-colored blanket was the only thing that covered us. His arm was under my neck and I was looking up at him while he was in his deep sleep. He's so handsome, dangerously and deadly handsome. Undeniably a fact.It was already five in the morning on my digital clock as I take a glance at it and to be honest, I was glad that I woke up earlier than him. He's leaving for London this afternoon, and I don't know when I'll see him again. He mentioned to me that he's going to Los Angeles for a friend's party I'm sure it involves Nadine.I sigh and take a pause as I sigh again.I pull myself away from his body, careful not to wake him up. I gently flipped the blanket off from us and watch his soft length still asleep. I bite my lower lip as I look at it, it's still damn huge even if it's not
28 : "Issues"Issues28Later that night, I still haven't asked Gage about his recent and shocking break up with Nadine because he still has not answered my messages from him since a while ago. I don't have the guts to actually ask him about it and my mind is so confused. He told me they were never together but now news got out that they broke up.Did he lie to me?When I got home, after going out with Monique to her doctor, I instantly googled about the recent news that Monique told me. I've read a few stuff and some of it really got into me. I think when he was in Los Angeles, he spend time with Nadine. I think he really went out with her at his friend's party. It was an exclusive party for sure because no pictures of Gage were circulated around online.I've spent the entire night googling about Gage and Nadine. And I've read so many things that actually hurt me even if I know I should not actually be jealous of them."Remember how earlier this year, everyone assumed Gage and Nadine
29 : "Los Angeles"Los Angeles29We've been on this plane for two hours now and I'm already excited to get off. Here I am, sitting on this chair next to Sam, on our way to Los Angeles to see Gage. I'm still mad at him but I know I need to hear what he has to say and it is up to me if I should believe it or not.I sit here as I look outside my window and of course, I feel nervous and thrilled at the same time to be able to see Gage again after eight days of not seeing and talking to each other, also after he actually seen zoned me. I have so many things to ask. I have so many things I wanted to know about him and Nadine."Sam?" I called out.Sam moves his head back to me. "Yes?""Did Gage really date Nadine?" I ask.He was surprised by what I asked and he just awkwardly looked away."I read online that she was thinking Gage was cheating on her," I speak softly. "Gage was also coming to New York when they were still together. I just don't wanna get involved."He glared at me. "I'm not
30 : "Proposal"Proposal30"I do not trust you." I say instantly.Gage pushes his hair off his face and looked troubled. I watched as his long fingers rake through his mop of hair before he pulls his head back up to me and looks me in the eye."I am being honest with you right now Tate. I am." He admits to me and in the back of my head, I want to believe him. I do want to so badly."I really love the thing I have with you more than the thing I was having with Nadine." He says with his doleful eyes. "I am not lying Tate." He persuades me.I roll my eyes at him because I do not know if those words would actually be nicer to hear that fucking was far more enjoyable than what he has with Nadine."Remember that time when I called you? When I was on tour? You kind of went off when you overheard Nadine in the background but I really wanted to talk to you than to spend the time with her." He explains and his words are tempting.I exhale heavily as I try to shake the thoughts off my head and