로그인Ryo......
I froze the moment I felt some one sit down beside me. The chair scraped softly against the floor, I don't have to look up to know who was that. I kept my eyes on the coffee, like the coffee needed all my attention. David didn't seem to notice anything strange, he was mid sentence explaining something related to work, eve smiled All along, making sure her hands were touching David hands. And then a Heard his voice, frank voice the voice u would love to forget. " Good morning" he said. His voice Clam and collected and in a complete unfamiliar voice like we have never met before. I raised my head up from the coffee and glance at frank, he was sitting there dressed casually, his expression neutral like nothing had happened between him and I, there wasn't any hint that he was in my body some few hours ago. David then turned to him, " you are awake this early." "Well I had to come down for breakfast" he said. David made a gesture, "you guys haven't met yet right." He said. My heart beating to fast. " Frank " this is ryo my best friend. " ryo " meet my long lost brother of mine Frank. Frank turned to me fully this time, his expression unreadable, nice to meet you he said. For a second my brain scream to move, my body stiff, my brain saying not to touch him, but David and eve was watching, I had no choice but to. I shook frank hands, Nice to meet you frank. Hoping my voice didn't betrayed me. His grip tighten around my hands, his thumbs brushed slightly, warm against my skin, before he could let go, it was slow enough that I knew it wasn't an accident. I pulled my hands fast from his. David smiling satisfied. I cleared my throat, ummm frank, David always talks about you, I said hoping to change the awkward situation. "Humm he did?" Frank asked. Yes a long time ago, David replied. Frank let a faint smile, and then turned his attention to the menu. Breakfast was set, and placed on orders, the place was filled with smell of foods, but I bearly noticed, I sat there stiffy aware of every movement. I felt Frank knee brushed against mine under the table, and Inhaled sharply nearly knocked down my coffee. "Are you okay" David asked. " yes I said quickly, " just tired." Frank shifted again, his legs pressing more firmly against mine this time around, I clenched my hands, keeping my face more neutral, my heart beating too fast I bet it might just give me away. "Relax" you are looking guilty, he leaned colser to my ears and whispered, only to my hearing. I didn't respond, I couldn't respond, i felt of I answer, our night sex might just slip out of my mouth. His foot brushed against my ankle, slow and intentional, I dug my hands into my plam, beneath the table. It was insane. We are sitting at breakfast table with David and eve, and frank was playing this kind of game , I short him a warning looks, but he only showed he was amused. David started talking about something that involve High school, " did you remember mark Thompson?." I shook my head"what about him!" I asked. "Apparently his is sick and diagnosied of HIV" David said. I stiffened. David continue unaware, someone from our school ran into him, he said he let himself go completely, you know drugs, Hook ups, and I Heard he was gay after high school. That statement caught my ear's. "How would anyone like his own sex gender,"Eve frowned sightly and laughed under beneath. I felt my chest tighten, losing appetite before I could say anything, frank beat me to it. " that's a stupid thing to say" frank said. "Excuse me?" Eve frowned. Liking someone of same gender doesn't change anything and loving same gender doesn't gives you HIV, He replied. " Why you so defensive" eve asked, smiling tighten. Frank shggured " I don't like ignorance." David frowned uncomfortably, " you don't have to start an argument frank. Eve turned to me and asked, ryo you must think being a gay is disgusting right. Don't drag me into this eve, this is inappropriate breakfast talk I quickly said. Frank looked at me with more interest. David laughed awkwardly, " let's change topic". Eve huffed, but didn't argue further. The room feel into uncomfortable situation, with eve throwing daggers to Frank, but he leaned more relaxed in his chair, satisfied like he has gotten what he wanted. Not long after, he stood up, I have something to do, " nice meeting you ryo." I looked up cut off guard. " yeah nice to meet you too" I said. Frank left without a word to anyone. Breakfast slowly turned heavy and slowly, as David and eve sat together, laughing as if no one else was there. Eve kissed David, it was so noticable like she wanted everyone to see and when I mean everyone I mean me. A massage pop up in my phone, and I frowned when I know who texted me. I know you won't contact me so, I saved my number on your phone so that way I can talk to you. My heart jumped as I locked phone, checking if anyone noticed. But eve and David were busy kissing and laughing loud enough. " I need some air" I said standing up. " text me " David said. I nooded. I left quickly, my chest bounding, and then there was frank with a black helmet, leaning against a black motorcycle parked, the moment he saw me, he threw the helmet at me. I bearly caught it. Come on let's ride. “She’s at the hospital,” he said. “They said she is stable now, but I want you to come and check her again.”For a moment, I didn’t respond.I closed my eyes and drew in a slow, heavy breath, the kind that never really reaches your lungs. Of course he would call me. He always calls when things fall apart when something breaks, when something bleeds, when something can’t be fixed by anyone else.“I will come,” I finally said, my voice quieter than I expected. “I’ll come check her.”The line went dead soon after.I kept the phone pressed to my ear longer than necessary, staring at nothing, as if the silence on the other end might change its mind and take everything back. Slowly, I lowered it, my fingers tightening around it.I wished God, how I wished I could just turn it off. Pretend I didn’t hear him. Pretend none of this was happening. Pretend I wasn’t already being pulled back into something I had tried so hard to walk away from.But I knew myself better than that.Frank was watchin
Ryo......I froze the moment I felt some one sit down beside me.The chair scraped softly against the floor, I don't have to look up to know who was that.I kept my eyes on the coffee, like the coffee needed all my attention.David didn't seem to notice anything strange, he was mid sentence explaining something related to work, eve smiled All along, making sure her hands were touching David hands.And then a Heard his voice, frank voice the voice u would love to forget." Good morning" he said.His voice Clam and collected and in a complete unfamiliar voice like we have never met before.I raised my head up from the coffee and glance at frank, he was sitting there dressed casually, his expression neutral like nothing had happened between him and I, there wasn't any hint that he was in my body some few hours ago.David then turned to him, " you are awake this early.""Well I had to come down for breakfast" he said.David made a gesture, "you g
Ryo.....Thank God you are awake, a stranger's voice reach my ear's as soon as I woke up.I knew I couldn't be David voice, I knew that instantly, even though my head was pounding and my thoughts were slow and heavy. David voice was familiar, safe in a way that had nothing to do with comfort.This voice was slow and steady like some one who is supposed to be here.My heart jumped hard in chest.I closed my eyes, trying to process myself .This was the apartment David rented for his wedding.It was inside was of the big hotel in Switzerland. Every one and everything look so expensive like no one had ever stayed here before.The ceiling was white and pink, the walls were plain blue. The curtains was think and Black, and blocking the sun from coming in.The furniture was near and cold, like it was placed to be look at.A stranger was sitting on a chair, closer to my bed. Leaning on the chair as if he owns the hotel. He was watching me and relaxing i
Ryo......."I want you so badly," I whispered so badly, my hands still pressed against him."David " didn't move instead he stood, in the door way breathing slowly and tight like he was weighing on something dangerous.I followed him inside, shutting the door quietly, he didn't touch me immediately, he walked past me like nothing had happened, his back straight, shoulder tense, voice Clam." take of that shoe" he said.I kicked them off quickly.He turned to me eyes shaper than I ever seen before." Jacket "I peeled then off me quickly.My hands shook but not from fear but from the heat.I drop it on the floor with out thinking.David step close his hands came close brushing my face softly and slowly, his thumb dragged across my lower lips, and I trampled under his intensive stare." you have been thinking about this he said" I nooded." say it."I have been thinking about this, about you for years I said." you feel that?" His hands dr
Ryo......" First I would love to make a huge toast to the bride and groom, my Best friend".The words came out so clam and so cool just like I practiced, I don't know if my voice betrayed me or not but nobody cares, either ways all eyes were on me and I had nowhere to go.I raised my glass up to give a toast to the couple. I looked up catching up the warm glow of the Chandler above us, the hall was packed, white beautiful flowers lines , soft music playing behind me.Everything looks like it belongs to a wedding magazine.David stood at the middle of it all, looking handsome and confident with his white suit. And eve stood beside him looking flawless, resting her hands on his arms.The look perfect together. I forced myself to smile. I have known David for 15 years I said smiling. We met at high school actually David was my first friend in high school. I never In this life imagine I would one day stand here at his own wedding giving a spee







