will you marry me

I stared at the ceiling for ages, thinking of what life had turned into in twenty four hours. I would have been normal if I stayed at home, Kate dragged me to a club, and here I am, in an ancestorial house with a stranger

And now I am drowning in an emotional pool. Should I ask Lucian questions, I have trillions of questions I would love to ask, maybe I should just keep it to myself, it's just teenage foolishness, maybe if I become older I would understand life a little more, I will have everything figured out

I am too desperate for love, and it's now catching up with me, there's no way I would fall in love in twenty four hours, and want to be with him for eternity, maybe It is lust not love, I must have the carnal desire to have sex with him, Kate infused this trash in my head now I am a mess.

Maybe that's why, I had such erotic dream, I need to focus more on my studies, rather than an impossible love, I sighed in fraustration as I dig my head in-between a pillo