เข้าสู่ระบบSierra’s POV
The text made my blood freeze. *He was in the house.* Louis didn’t say a word. He moved fast. He grabbed my arm and pulled me out of bed. We ran to Katie’s room. She was still asleep. Louis picked her up, blanket and all. She mumbled but didn’t wake up. He jerked his head toward the hallway. We ran, barefoot, to the big painting at the end of the hall. Louis pushed it sideways. Behind it was a door. A safe room. We never used it. Until now. He shoved the door open. We went inside. It was a small, white room with a couch, a fridge, and a wall of TV screens showing every camera in the house. Louis locked the door behind us. It made a heavy *thunk* sound. He laid Katie on the couch. She curled up in her blanket. I stood there, shaking. I was so scared I felt sick. Louis went to the screens. He turned them all on. The house was dark and empty on the cameras. Nothing moved. “He’s messing with us,” Louis whispered. His hands were fists. “He wants us to panic. He’s probably not even inside.” “But how did he know we were home?” I whispered back. “How did he know you were here?” Louis didn’t answer. He just stared at the screens. We stayed in that room for hours. Katie slept. Louis and I sat on the floor, our backs against the wall, watching nothing happen. I was so tired. My eyes kept closing. My head leaned against Louis’s shoulder. “I’m sorry,” he said into the quiet. His voice was rough. “For what?” “For all of this. For bringing this… this ghost into our lives. Into Katie’s life.” “It’s not your fault,” I said. But it was hard to mean it right then. “It is,” he said. “My past. My secrets. They’re like rocks. I tried to build a wall with them to protect you. But the rocks have cracks. And things are crawling out of the cracks.” I lifted my head to look at him. In the blue light of the screens, his face looked sad. And scared. I’d never seen him look so scared. “We’ll fix it,” I said. I didn’t know how. “What if we can’t?” he asked. He looked at me, his eyes searching my face. “What if this breaks us? For real?” I didn’t have an answer. I was so tired of being brave. Katie made a little sound in her sleep. We both looked over at her. Our kid. The reason for all of it. Louis put his arm around me. He pulled me close. I fit against his side. It was warm. “I’m not letting go,” he said. His voice was low in my ear. “Not of you. Not of her. No matter what crawls out of the cracks.” I believed him. For the first time in a long time, I really believed him. It wasn’t a business deal anymore. It was a promise. I turned my face toward his. Our noses were almost touching. I could feel his breath. “Then we don’t let go,” I whispered. He kissed me. It wasn’t like the kiss at the party. That was fireworks. This was different. This was slow. And sad. And real. It felt like we were saying sorry and hello and don’t leave me all at the same time. When we broke apart, we just looked at each other. My heart was beating hard, but not from fear this time. “We’re not broken,” I said. “Not yet,” he said. He rested his forehead against mine. “And we’re not going to be.” We sat like that for a long time. Holding each other in the blue light. Watching our sleeping daughter. Waiting for a ghost. It was the worst night of my life. But it was also the first night in a long time I didn’t feel alone.Sierra's POVThe first trimester hit me like a truck. A big, smelly, nausea-filled truck.I forgot how awful this part was. With Katie, I was young. Twenty-seven. I bounced back from everything. This time? Forty-two felt very, very old.The smell thing got worse. Coffee was enemy number one. But then it was also eggs. Then chicken cooking. Then Louis's cologne. Then the cleaning stuff the housekeeper used. Then the garbage can in the kitchen. Then flowers. Flowers!"I can't smell anything," I moaned, lying on the bathroom floor at 3 a.m. "Everything smells like everything."Louis sat beside me, looking helpless. Men always look helpless when their wives are puking. It's kind of funny, if you're not the one puking."Do you want water?" he asked."No.""Tea?""NO.""A cracker?""Louis, if you say one more word, I will divorce you."He shut up. Smart man.---The tiredness was worse than the puking.With Katie, I worked through my pregnancy. I was busy. I had energy.Now? I couldn't kee
Sierra's POVI was forty-two years old when my body decided to play the biggest joke of my life.Katie was fifteen. Fifteen! She was already talking about college and boys and how embarrassing we were. Louis and I were finally at the easy part. The "we survived parenting a teenager" part. The "we can sleep in on weekends" part.Or so I thought.It started with the smell. Coffee. I'd loved coffee my whole life. But one morning, Louis made his usual pot and the smell hit me like a wall.I ran to the bathroom. Threw up. Came back pale and shaky."You okay?" Louis asked, concerned."Fine. Just... coffee smelled weird."He looked at me funny but didn't push.The next morning, same thing. And the next. And the next."You're not fine," Louis said on day four. "I'm calling the doctor.""It's probably a virus.""For four days?""Viruses can be long."He gave me The Look. The one that said he wasn't buying it.---Dr. Patel was young and nice and very professional. She ran tests. She asked ques
Sierra's POVMeeting the Crofts was one thing. Building a relationship with them was another.After that first coffee, we didn't see them for a few weeks. Life got busy. Katie had school projects. Louis had work. I had foundation meetings. The usual chaos.But they sent cards. Little notes. Margaret had beautiful handwriting, old-fashioned and careful. Edward's was shakier, but you could tell he tried.*Dear Louis, Sierra, and Katie,**I saw the most beautiful flowers today at the garden store. Purple ones, like Katie's sweater. Made me think of her. Hope you're all well.**Love,**Grandma Margaret**P.S. Edward is learning to use email. It's not going well. Send help.*Katie loved the cards. She taped them to her wall. She started writing back, little notes in her messy kid handwriting.*Dear Grandma Margaret,**Thank you for the card. My sweater is still sparkly. Mom washed it and it didn't die. School is boring but art class is fun. I drew a horse. It looked like a dog but that's o
Sierra's POVThe months after Margaret died were strange. Not sad exactly. More like... quiet. Like a door that had opened and closed again, leaving us different on the other side.Louis read all the letters. Every single one. He took his time, like he was saving them. Some made him laugh. Some made him cry. Some he read to me at night, his voice soft in the dark.*Dear Louis,**Today I saw a little boy at the park who looked just like you. He was maybe three, with dark hair and serious eyes. He was building a sandcastle all by himself, so focused. I sat on a bench and watched him for an hour. I pretended he was you. I pretended I was just a normal mom, watching her son play. It was the best hour I've had in years.**Love always,**Mom*"She watched other kids," Louis said after reading that one. "For years. Just to feel close to me.""She loved you so much.""I know. I just wish..."He didn't finish. He didn't have to. We both wished for more time.Katie handled it better than I exp
Sierra's POVThe second photo changed everything.We couldn't just wait anymore. We had to do something. Louis spent hours on the phone with lawyers and private investigators. I spent hours staring at the photos, trying to see something we missed.The woman in the pictures. Louis's birth mother. She had my eyes. My dark hair. My smile. It was like looking at a ghost version of myself from thirty years ago."Is it weird?" I asked Louis one night. We were in bed, both too wired to sleep. "That she looks like me?"He was quiet for a minute. Then he said, "Maybe it's not weird. Maybe it's... I don't know. Fate? Something?""Do you believe in fate?""I believe in us." He turned on his side to look at me. "I believe that somehow, through all the mess, we found each other. And we stayed. That's enough for me."I wanted to believe that too. But the photos made everything feel complicated.The next morning, Louis's investigator called with news. They'd traced the postmark on both letters to a
Sierra's POVSix months after the beach house. Six months of normal, happy, boring life.I say boring like it's a bad thing. It's not. Boring is good. Boring means no ghosts. No trials. No fear. Boring means waking up and knowing the day will be full of small things. Grocery lists. School runs. Dinner with the people you love.I've learned to love boring.Katie was in eighth grade now. Almost done with middle school. She had a little group of friends who came over on weekends and ate all our snacks and giggled about boys until midnight. Louis pretended to be annoyed, but I caught him leaving extra snacks outside her door."She needs to eat," he said when I raised an eyebrow."She needs to sleep.""She can sleep when she's dead.""Louis!""Too dark?""Way too dark."He grinned and kissed my forehead. "I'll work on my dad jokes."The foundation was going well. Really well. We'd helped over two hundred kids in the last year. Kids with absent parents. Kids who needed someone to believe in







