Lahat ng Kabanata ng The Crush's Crusher: Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

She knew I was the most affected from what happened to my brother, JamesThey both know, my parents, yeah, the both of them.I stared at the ceiling without looking at it but past it in thoughts.The sound of my phone ringing again brought with it, a strong wave of pounding in my head, resulting in me wincing painfully as I cradled my head between my cold and clammy palms as I ignored the incoming call again.Must people be this persistent? I've been ignoring and the person kept calling, can't people read hints again?It's so freaking obvious that I don't wanna talk to whoever that was calling but it seems the person wasn't ready to give up yet.Oh well...******"Did you eat today?" Mum asked, standing by my doorstep, the bright lights from the hallway beh

   He was sitting on the far edge of the long waiting chair, away from the rest of the people."Fay?" He asked, squinting his eyes almost closed and I shrugged my shoulders.Of course it's Fay."Is it me or, did you get prettier?" He asked, a hint of a smile playing across his lips, I got tired of standing so I rested on the wall opposite him.What did you expect? For my poor legs to break? Old habits don't die."I dunno, you tell me." I mumbled out to him as I shrugged my shoulders again."Well, I think you've gotten prettier than the last time we saw." He stated and I smiled when he kept on staring at me."Why didn't you ask for my number anyways?" I asked.I've always wondered."Well maybe I was waiting for you to ask for mine." He replied with a light chuckle and I shrugged again."What

   Showering and getting dressed in plain black shorts and a crop top coupled with a black jacket, I stood before my floor length mirror in my room as I observed my appearance in the outfit.I woke up this morning, more like just standing up from the position I was in after not managing to get a wink of sleep the whole night. All I did was think and think about everything and nothing in particular before finally lifting up the bed by around 7:45am.It's a Thursday today and it doesn't even seem promising. Most days now doesn't seem promising if I'm being honest with myself.I took a slow and long shower after doing nothing for an hour, the cold and chilled water, giving me goosebumps and shivers the moment I stepped under the hard spray, I didn't even bother to cover my cornrows with a shower cap this morning, all I wanted to feel was the water all over my body.Surprisingly I felt a little bit b

     I ended up not changing out of the clothes I was dressed in before he the call, I only ditched my extremely short crop top for a slightly and non fitted black crop top and switching my black jacket to a black jeans jacket.I wasn't joking when I said I was going all black today.Strutting out of my room with my black bag containing my phone, power back and a charging cord, a bottle of perfume, and money, I strapped the bag over my shoulder as I made my way down the stairs.It wasn't a surprise that the cook wasn't around, I couldn't find her anywhere in the kitchen when I filled my mouth with cool water from the kitchen tap before spitting it back into the empty sink. I did it two more times before wiping my whole face with a handkerchief.I headed outside, closing the main door to the house quietly and locking it before dropping the key into my bag.M

Why haven't I been eating?Do I know?No_ NO."I don't know, I don't feel like." I pushed the words out."You don't feel like? You mean you weren't hungry this morning?" He asked, trying to get to the root of the problem."Kinda." I reply, nodding my head along with my answer.He let out a sigh before turning to face me more properly on the sofa."Hey, look at me." He instructed, his gaze burning holes into my slightly bent head.I let out a sigh as I forced myself to look away from my seemingly cute fingernails."Just talk to me." He let out softly, his fingers drumming quietly on the chair rest behind my head, the sound drifting into my ears."I'm talking to you." I replied with raised eyebrows."No, I didn't mean that kind of ta