My body is stiff. Shit! I fell asleep on the table. Even if it's just my head, hope my baby not be in pain. My sleeping position is just sitting on a chair, from night until again, with my head on the table. What a strange sleeping position, and I wasn't conscious at all, even though I fell asleep sitting up.I also don't know what time it is. Stiff neck, cramped hands, and feet. By restoring my body system. I headed for the room, and the most beautiful view greeted me. I looked for a cellphone and just remembered, all night I didn't pull out my cellphone. Luckily it didn't explode.By yawning and feeling my back and neck all hurt. To move a little, it hurts a lot. I sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the surroundings. Why was my sleep so wholly and soundly unconscious? I see the clock on the cellphone screen. It's at 9 o'clock. I slept for a long time. It seems now I continuously wake up at 9. It's okay. Pregnant women are like this.And Gerald disappeared. He

Oma offers to stay overnight. But I refuse, I'm reluctant if tomorrow morning I wake up late. The culture of the people here doesn't matter to wake up late, or whatever they called. According to my mother's upbringing, I have to have more respect for my host. I'm afraid to wake up late because lately I always wake up late. Fianlly, we went home too because I forced Gerald to come home."Tomorrow is the weekend. Where are you going for weekend?" Gerald bargained."I don't know. What I need now, go home and sleep. I'm really tired." After being full, I said weakly I needed a mattress and lay my head on the soft pillow."Okay, go sleep." I closed my eyes. It felt like I could no longer hold back my sleepiness. I shouldn't have been stubborn and just stayed at Grandma's house. I was asleep, but vaguely, I heard a voice speaking. It was Gerald's voice, who was he talking to?"I'm sorry you don't have to call me now. I'm with my wife now." Gerald is on the phon

I cried all night. And when I woke up, I found my eyes were very swollen. I can't possibly meet Oma with looks like this. I'm the laziest when I'm not in the mood and get asked many things. I definitely won't answer, and make others shorcoming, and think of me as ugly.I also don't want to wallow in sadness.And now, it's 10 o'clock. Shit! I always woke up late.Forced to get up, I crept into the kitchen. I will compress my eyes. I saw that there were already various foods on the dining table. The orange juice is tempting to drink. But my eyes had to be compressed to reduce the puffiness. I didn't want my Oma to catch me crying all night. And Gerald left, not coming back.Past the dining table, I headed for the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. I will compress my eyes using ice cubes."Good morning." Oh shit! It was Oma."Good morning Oma." I answered but didn't dare turn aro

Mother: Rara, Rangga is in Germany. Meet him, dear. Apologize, and keep in touch.I read the message from my mother. I'm not a problem, meet Mas Rangga. I, want to apologize to him. Not wanting to be nostalgic, I already have a perfect husband. So I can't possibly, flashback or fail to move on. Since knowing Gerald, my heart has been filled with them all. Oh before thay, better you must know who is Mas Rangga. Rangga was my ex fiance before I meet Gerald, and we have affair at Mas Rangga back. And, Mas means called for man who is older than me. In my culture or my country, I have to know his age to makes me comfortable called him with his name or another special called. It's all about politeness. Should I meet Mas Rangga? Should I ask my husband's permission? I'm afraid Gerald is a misunderstanding, and it all feels terrible. We're okay now, rarely fight, and Gerald is getting more romantic, even though it ends up being perverted.But I feel bad, Mas Rangga h

After crying, I entered the museum again. I'm looking for Mas Rangga. I'm also not thinking straight. Emotions still overtake me. I was mad at Gerald, angry at my mother, and mad at myself.And stupidly, my cellphone is thrown away. I also didn't have time to pay attention, where Gerald dumped the  cellphone. After this, my cellphone is like it used to be. It won't be replaced. I just took a tired breath from my bad luck.I'm just looking for Mas Rangga like a child who lost his way. Before I already wiped all my tears, I don't want to look pathetic.Again, again. Damn it Gerald. And unfortunately, I love him very much.I went around looking again and never found Mas Rangga. I also don't know if Mas Rangga has come home. Because I wasn't sure how long it took, we left Mas Rangga.Look Gerald. I do, make your orders come back with Mas Rangga. My head is still dizzy. I don't know where to ta