j e a nIt's the weekend and I am having my day off. I have been on shifts and studying all week. I know I have to keep on reading books but I guess procrastinating for a day would not be too bad. I badly needed a break. I enjoy my time during my shifts but you cannot deny the negative energy revolving around it.

j e a nI am bored. I can't focus on my shifts. I just want the day to be over. For some reason, I can't wait to go home. Am I being lazy these days? It's not really me to be like this. Ever since my birthday, which was two days ago, I have been feeling like this. It's weird. I should not get used to feeling like this. Having these habits, and I'll have my dreams fall down in front of my face in a snap.

j e a nMatteo and I had the next few days touring around Paris. Each day is great. I am definitely having the time of my life in this place. He only asks me wherever I want to go and we will go there right away. Even if it's me shopping for apparel and makeup which might take hours, he was there beside me waiting patiently. He just wants me to see me enjoy the vacation and I highly appreciate that. I ne

j e a nMatteo and I flew back to the U.S. the following morning. We have not really talked ever since that incident. He does not seem to have the courage to speak to me today. I do notice that he seems to not be himself today. He is just, silent, literally not saying a single word. His features showing disappointment, sadness, and regret. I do understand why he is like that. Today's the day he is about

j e a nI just got home from rotations. Three days have passed ever since I have been here. I enjoy the silence of the home I am in right now. The quietness helps me focus on my studies. I have no time to go to the grocery and buy food, I always end up ordering food and get it delivered at home. It is getting quite unhealthy, though. I should find time to at least go to the groceries. I pulled out my pho