Toma helped me a lot to make things better for me. I really appreciated how he would always show and give me things that can uplift my mood. Though these days, I'm not so bothered with seeing Xia anymore.Processing her past and being in a relationship with her recently suddenly feels like it's no big deal anymore. Still I get the unfair and disgusted feeling towards her when I'm in a bad mood, so I just distract myself whenever I get those thoughts.I was having lunch alone at the cafeteria which I didn't mind at all, sometimes I'd like to be alone rather than filling my memories with Toma's face everyday. "…hey Yuji!" Hino suddenly greeted me. It's been a while since we got to talk."Yo.""You mind if I sit here?""Sure, be my guest."As he sat, we began to catch up and talk about some school stuff. Nothing interesting at all-"You guys broke up!?" He was so surprised to hear it.

When I got back to the dorm, I saw Toma fixing himself up like he's going somewhere. It made me laugh how he looks at himself at the mirror so self-conscious. "Are you going on a date with Cami tonight?" I asked.He got surprised by my presence. He must've been too focused on himself not noticing that I already got back."A-Ah yeah, geez, you scared the hell out of me." He looked embarassed as he said that.I could only laugh seeing how awkward he is. "Dude, you look so uptight.""Who wouldn't be? The person I like seeing me like this…" he mumbled."Don't worry. I think Cami will like you just the way you are."He sighs and looked defeated. "You think so?""Yeah. She's your girlfriend after all, so you should think that.""Uuuugh." Then his face looked like he's about to cry."What the heck is wrong? Shouldn't my words cheer you up?

I was kind of worried that Toma didn't come back last night, though he possibly just slept with Cami. I wished he sent me a text that he's staying over her place for the night though. But it wasn't so necessary to do and it's not like he should tell me everything he's doing.…we have seperate lives after all. The thought made me sad all of a sudden. I felt stupid pushing Toma away months ago, just because I'm getting sick of seeing his face and having to look out for his ass all the time.Toma is really the best friend I have, he actually stayed by my side when I needed someone. I stared at the rain outside from the window and muttered to myself while holding a cup of coffee. "Hmm, I wish he comes back sooner."sfx: BAMSuddenly the door opens so loudly and Toma was there standing, looking pale and wet. "Toma!" I grabbed some towels and rushed to cover him."Hehe, I'm home." He said as I wrapped him

It was good that Toma recovered quickly, when we got back to school there was a lot of catching up to do. Those weren't the only things that bothered me though. I quite often catch Xia taking a glance on me, and when there was this guy came to pick her up, she'd shot another glance before leaving.Weird and annoying, that was the only things I could feel of at the moment."…Yuji, is there something wrong?" Toma asked. We were together having our lunch like the usual. These days, it seemed like he already forgotten about the three month distancing and kept on sticking with me.It's not like I'll try to push him away again, since I realized that he'll try to find ways to keep on hanging out with me. "Nothing, there was just this annoying fly that bothered me this first few subjects." I told him."Ahh, maybe you haven't washed yourself well. If you'd like, I'll help cleaning you." He casually said, that's when I hit hi

"Uncleeee!" When we arrived, Toma was the first one to greet my dad, as if he was the real son. Though it doen't upset me how he act like that, he only annoys me with his loud voice of his."Toma! Yuji! It's nice to see you two again." Dad said while patting Toma on the head like a dog."Yeah, we won't be here for long though, so let's dig in on that feast!" Toma excitedly got in the house first looking like a starved animal. I only sighed and went inside the house with my dad.It was nice being with dad again, I find it comforting to see him around. I just feel a bit sad sometimes whenever this house reminds me of mom. That's why I chose a boarding school, it was kind of unfortunate Toma had to tag along. I'm like babysitting and studying at the same time.As it was time to sleep, we had Toma use the guest room while I rest in mine. He insisted to sleep in my room, but I want him out of sight even once in a while.