All Chapters of IN MY DARKEST HOUR YOU ARE MY LIGHT: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

KELSEY POVWe were all eagerly waiting for Tara's so called announcement. I glanced at my wrist watch and it was already getting late.Her lips curved into a stunning smile perfectly showing her white teeth."Marcus and I are getting married."What?I looked at Marcus but his face didn't show any emotions I couldn't understand what was happening. Was this all planned?I was stunned. It felt like I received a huge punch in the gut while I was still in shock the others started clapping.The glass of water in my hand fell to the ground and shattered instantly."Married?" I whispered softly.All eyes turned on me. I felt tears burning my eyes. No, I couldn't start crying here, not now. I was about to excuse myself but Tara stopped midway.I couldn't even look her in the eye because she won and succeeded in hurting and breaking me apart.

KELSEY POVI was really bad at love and it reminds me of that song bad at love by halsey. It feels like the song is all about me.I just felt like drowning in my own sorrows and being lost. Lost at sea to finally find where I belong. Maybe I had a future but Marcus wasn't going to be a part of it and that was the most painful part of all.I could picture a new house and soft giggles being heard outside. I would be in the doorway watching my baby girl play. She would be adventurous just like me she would love to explore just like dora the explorer.Hmmm. The mere thought just made my heart swell with joy. But I felt guilty consuming me again. Would my baby hate me because I never had the guts to tell her father the truth about her actual existence?I feel like I'm keeping her father away from her and once she's older she'll eventually find out the bitter truth and hate me.The mere thought left me in ruin

KELSEY POVI mostly spent my two weeks living indoors just laying in bed, watching TV, listening to music and stuffing my face and that kind of became my routine.I tried calling Sasha multiple times to try and apologize to her but she never answered any of my calls and I honestly think that I've lost my best friend for good this time. I took her advice for granted and now she walked out of my life because I can't handle my shit. The mere thought of her broke my heart and I just wanted to cry all day. Jane would occasionally come to check up on me but I kept assuring her that I was fine."Are you sure that you're doing fine? Jane asked in a worried tone.I gave her a small smile." Yes fine."" I could spend the night Kelsey just to make sure that you have all the necessary care."Jane was a good friend but I was doing fine on my ow

KELSEY POV  I cannot believe that Marcus Is finally declaring his love for me. I felt happy and sad at the same time. I wish things were different between us so that we would start over but I could see that it was already too late for us because Marcus was officially going to be someone's husband tomorrow.  I stared at him with wide eyes, tears still rolling down my cheeks and surprisingly he wiped them away. "Marcus you've destroyed everything between us and I don't know if I'll ever trust you again" she whispers softly. He nodded quietly. I know he has confessed his true feelings to me but still wasn't enough to fix everything between us. "It's not enough…" I whispered softly. "I know Kelsey" he rasped quietly as he stroked both of my cheeks gently. I had missed him terribly having him so close to me aga

KELSEY POV  I was really glad to have such good friends like Jane and Sasha. Once we arrived at the wedding venue they all made sure to stay by my side. I looked at the entrance wishing that it was getting married to Marcus and not that witch Tara. Maybe Marcus is blinded by her money if that's the case then I'm very disappointed in him. "Are you going to be ok?" Jane asked curiously. I nodded quietly. "Yeah I want to do this Jane it's time I also move on and try to forget about Marcus." Jane gave me a small smile and nodded.  I was really tired of getting asked the same question over and over again my answer also didn't change. My mind was already made up. We walked into the church and I noticed Marcus standing at the altar. He looked very handsome in his black suit and our gaze lingered for