I could not help but keep staring at the person in front of me. He looks cuter than before, I thought. Standing sideways with his body partially resting on the door frame, his pink lips fuller. Dressed in a blue round neck, which made his abs revealing coupled with his new haircut. My eyes gaze down as I take in the nice smell of his cologne and view of his exposed legs which were hairy, making him more of a perfect body.  "Checking me out? Not bad.", Joseph brought me out of my reverie as my face flushed instantly.   I can't believe I was mesmerized by his look. I'm so stupid. Trying not to be obvious with my liking for him, I hissed.  " Why are you here? I thought I told you not to vis

Have you ever felt this feeling of loneliness, empty void, guilt, and regrets? I felt that after Chris departed from the hostel.It has been three weeks but it feels like yesterday. I felt a surge of loneliness and regrets knowing I was the main reason why the attraction cycle happened to him. If he had not been attracted to me, things would have been better.Most of the time, I wish I was the only one being affected. I wish I was the only one being attracted to the same sexes and not the other way round. It feels like I am suffocating and the person I can rely on has left to figure out about himself.I think that is the best decision from his point of view. I never tried to visit his department, as per the promise I gave to him. To never try to see him, or contact him. To him, he needs time to heal and stop the weird feeling haunting him.Joy, who would have been on my neck about Chris later informed me that Christopher informed her that he i

 Just seeing the message made me weak somehow. Maybe because I care about him due to the attraction I had to him. I looked at my phone which showed Josephine's contact.I glanced slightly but did not see Josephine. She was not around either."Hello, students, sorry I am late", the voice of Mr. Lekan rang through my ear as I groaned inwardly. I forgot we were having another lecture.The whole lecture was not a good one as I kept slacking in attention, writing and I never raised my hands to answer any question. I kept peeking at my wristwatch to check the time." Michael, you seem off today. Quite unlikely of you", the voice of Mr. Lejan jolted me out of my state, as I stood up nervously, the murmurings of my coursemates echoing 'that is true'."I'm sorry about that sir. I will try to listen attentively now", I promised as I bow my head slightly, " Better do. Your contribution is important in my class", he buttressed, as I nodded sitting

I peeked at him, as I blinked my eyes, hoping it was a trance, but it was not."A confession?", I asked " Yes, but you need to rest. I'm leaving now since I have a lecture. I will inform your assistant that you are sick", he said, shocking me again.I thought he wanted to confess something. He is…. I couldn't find the right word to describe him. He placed me well on the bed, as he covered me with a blanket.He later went out, closing the door, bringing nothing but making my heart go crazy. I would have been able to stop Joseph from getting attracted to me but, I guess it was impossible.This feeling of mine feels like a plague, tormenting me everywhere. It would have been best if I am attracted to the same sexes, and not vice versa. Joseph almost raped me, that alone sends every part of my brain spinning. My eyes started closing, as I gave in to sleep.******I felt strengthened as I could not help but prepare a homemade snack

 I can't help but have a cold foot seeing Joseph. His hair was wet and looked messy, with his eyebrows darted in different directions. The light illuminating from my room makes his face clearer as his eyes were red. His lips paused in a thin line, as he tried to talk as I perceived the smell of alcohol which made me cough, the reeking smell filling my nostril."I have fallen dee..ply for you. Why are you avoiding me", he stuttered as he staggered forward as I held his shoulders." It feels so terrible with this feeling. I can't stop it and I feel almost less when you are on my mind. Please forgive me. Help me out", he stated as he leaned closer to me.My heartbeat as the thought of him kissing me came to my mind, making me shudder inwardly. I can't let this happen. I can't kiss the same sex neither can I give my first kiss to him. I have to stop this", I told myself only for him to fall on my shoulder, as his head rested on my shoulder."Joseph", I