Lahat ng Kabanata ng Why Are you Still In My Brain?: Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 10

LENA’S POINT OF VIEW I’m Aleena Mitchell, an American-Australian woman and I’m twenty-eight years old. I have almond-brown eyes and dark medium hair. I could bring all your sexual fantasies to life but thank God I'm only into pussies. I never had sex with a man before and that would be my worse day ever. People say I'm tall, I've been told, my mom is a Jew, I’ve been raised as a Jew and I believe in the signs of the universe. I met my dad once and my mom told me that he chose his girlfriend over my mom. He doesn't even know that I exist before I met him and my mom never told him about me. The relationship between me and my mom is like the usual mommy and daughter relationship. My mom had 3 jobs when I was ten, she worked a lot to pay my school bills. People keep asking me "Why did you become lesbian at a young age? You’re hot as fuck Lena, every man in this world could volunteer to be your slave if you wanted to!" Well, that's a good question and easy to answer. For me "God

Home sweet home, I’m home and I haven’t answered Lena’s messages, all of them. Today is a big day for me. I finally got a job as a writer in Purple magazine and today is my first day at work. Stirring and scrunching my face in dismay, I squinted and rolled over towards the sound of my phone, it was Alaia. Propping myself up on my elbows whilst lying on my bed I unplugged my charger from the phone and answer Alaia’s calls before slumping forward and face-planting my pillow. “Hey, Girl… Good luck for today!” Alaia says. “Awww thanks, honey! Please pray for me, hope I’m not ruining my day today” I say as I heavily sigh and chuckle. “You would never bitch! Good luck” Alaia replies. “Thanks, Al…” A sweet smile comes through my face as I hang up the phone. “I fucking hate morning!” I mumble as I throw the phone to the bedside. My phone rings once again, I reach over my phone at the bedside “Uggghhhh shit!”

Well, I slept peacefully last night thanks to Lena because she’s on my mind, always. On the other hand, I haven’t talked to Ben since Lena and I make out yesterday morning. I’m in a grey area and I have no idea about what happened to my life. I felt bad for Ben because I betrayed him. Ben is a good guy, I knew but I don’t think that I’m happy with him, I was but now my happiest place is Lena, she’s the person that I’ve dreamt of, I don’t know if this is real or not or it's just my fantasies, it’s complicated. I don’t know if Lena and I could end up together or not but hopefully. Last year my Abuelita asked me about my plan for marriage and she wants to see Ben in person. I have no plan yet, maybe because I don’t think that Ben is my future. My family is homophobic, I guess but I’m not sure. I don’t know yet, I haven’t talked to them about my gay side but when I was 16 my family and I ever watched a movie together at the family gathering, before I move out, my family and I like to spe

The alarm woke me up and it was 6:30 AM. My eyes slowly start to open, I turn on the light and the light is about to blind me, I rub my eyes and get ready for work. I jump up and quickly get dressed. I stare at the phone screen. “Shit! It’s 7 AM” I mumble. “I'm supposed to be there at 07:15!” I say. I run downstairs and booked the Uber. I walk through my workplace knowing that I’m late and I see Alaia sitting in the lobby. “Hey, Maia..” Alaia says as she waves her hand. I walk through her in rush “Hey…” I say. “Lena asks me to wait here!” Alaia says. “She’s here?” I say. “Yes in hours…I guess” Alaia says. “Fuck…fuck…I’m late!” I mumble as I hug Alaia and run to my workplace. I lean on my seat and turn on the computer. Lena and Alaia walk through the workplace “Attention please…” Lena stands in front of the employees and introduces Alaia as the new employee. “Here’s Ms. Alaia Smith. She’s your work partner, please be cooperative and have a good day” Lena says as she stares at me. “A

I point my eyes to the tree behind the car’s window occasionally looking at Alison in the back seat. Lena keeps an eye on the road as she drives, little Ali sleeping in the back seat; I unwrap the chocolate cookies, and eat them. I stare at Lena as I chew the cookie “You want it?” I say. “I’m driving honey” Lena chuckles. “Lemme feed you!” I say as I run my hand to Lena’s mouth. “Ngap….” She opens her mouth and eats the cookie. “Mmm...” She chews the cookie and I eat mine. “Mmm… I love the flavor but I usually bought the peanut one” I say as chew the cookie. “I love everything about you...” Lena says in a whisper. “Pardon me? I can’t hear you” I say. “I don’t say anything!” Lena says in denial. “Aahhh...Come on!” I say as I’m begging her. Lena chuckles as she points her eyes at the road. When I look at Lena, I realize this is all I wanted, a beautiful wife, and a cute baby girl. I smile and wonder; how could someone like Lena could take my heart like this, I’m falling in love. Rosa