MICHAEL I felt that familiar fluttery sensation in my stomach as I felt Jacob's presence behind me. Why did he have to surprise me all the time? And how did he walk around so silently? I thought he was a former army range and not a goddamn ninja. "Jacob, hi. What are you doing here?" I let out a nervous laugh. I looked him up and down. He looked damn good. Or maybe I was crushing on him even harder now that I found my newfound feelings for him. "It's the weekend and this bar is popular. What are you doing here all alone? Where is Alison?" Jacob asked. "She is busy," I lied. "I see. Well, I'm glad you're here. Now I don't have to drink alone." He chuckled and ordered us more drinks. I was already tipsy and usually went home before I got too drunk, but I wasn't about to give up the chance of getting drunk with my first man crush! "Ni...nice sweater. Is that cashmere?" I said. God, Michael...could you be more awkward?

JACOB I made a huge mistake last night and kissed Michael. I didn't know what came over me. I was never the kind of guy who would do crazy things after drinking a little. But when I felt the heat of his body as he pressed against me, and I looked at his lips, I couldn't help myself. I was so sure of what I wanted and it was to kiss him. Even if it was just for once, I wanted to taste his lips. So I made the impulsive decision and went for it without thinking of the consequences. What if he was angrier than he let on? What if he tells Alison? She was his girlfriend, after all. Alison respected me as her older brother, but she would lose it once she found out I flung myself at her boyfriend. But damn, my heart won't stop racing when I'm near him. Even now, as I drove him back to his car, I was having a hard time breathing because he was sitting right next to me. And now he tells me he likes me? What the fuck? "Ah, thanks

JACOB I almost didn't agree to tutor Michael. I figured things would be awkward between us after what happened that day. I expect him to be mad at me for outright rejecting him. I wonder if this was all Alison's idea to ask me for tutoring. "I don't know if I have the time," I said, thinking I could convince Alison that I was too busy to teach her boyfriend about physics. "Oh, come on, I know you have plenty of time. Do it for me. Pleeaase! It's not that you don't like Michael, right?" Alison pouted. The problem is that I like him way more than I should. I was trying to stay away from him, so this was a bad idea. "Look, he needs to do well because he needs good grades to keep his scholarship. His family isn't rich, so he needs the scholarship. So please just help him. It's important to him," Alison said and looked at me expectantly. Goddammit. I couldn't run away from him forever. And if I keep saying no, it might make Alison suspiciou

JACOB I could tell I shocked Michael with my request. Good, I probably shocked the gay out of him. "Alright then. If that's what it takes," Michael said and knelt in front of me. What. "What?" I said my thought out loud. "I said that's fine by me. You want me to show you? I will show you," Michael said and put his hand between my legs. This wasn't the reaction I was expecting. I thought he would retreat. I mean, I am not saying he wasn't into guys just because he lived as a heterosexual his whole life. All I'm saying is a lot of the times when straight guys become gay. They like receiving more than giving. "One thing you don't know about me. I like to be the top. So you'd have to do things you've never done before if you want to keep me satisfied and that includes doing things that will make you uncomfortable," I said in a lecturing manner. That's right, Mike. You wouldn't want me to rail that perfect ass of yours, I sa

ALISONI left Michael's house solemnly. I had a feeling he was lying to me about something. And on top of that, that asshole Nolan ruined my mood even more.He always comes in like a storm and ruins my mood. I hadn't been able to stand him since the day I met him, but I could do nothing since he is Michael's best friend. If it was up to me, he would be gone by now because he is the most annoying person I've ever met.Enough about him, back to Michael.What's his deal?Something was different between us. He seemed reluctant when I tried to kiss him earlier.A thought crossed my mind, and I felt panicked. What if he was cheating on me with another girl? Maybe that's why it seemed like he wasn't interested in me anymore. Although come to think of it, it made a lot of sense. It explained his distracted behavior and lack of intimacy toward me.I decided to talk to Jacob for his advice. I texted him and let him know that I