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"Wow, so fast, bro." I just smiled at Jane as she made fun of me for coming to the rendezvous early. I often come late when she invites me for a meet up. And now, it really look different because I look so eager. I did not know what will be her important thing to say but I guess it is kind of a good news. My system just automatically get excites for no valid reason. I sat in front of her with the round table between us. We were here in a well known restaurant. I asked Jane's order and so we choose nice food that will satisfies us. I tilted my head to her while we were waiting for our order to arrive. It will took minutes, tho. "So, what will be the important thing you will say to me?" She chuckled. "Really? As fast as that? I did not know that you are now interested to what would I say." I slightly rolled my eyes. "Just spill it." "Bro, y

ASTRALLAINE'S POV "Congrats, Astra!" I laughed when Simon embraced me with so much joy. "Thanks, man." I tap his shoulders, motioning him to let me go already which he did quickly. "Congrats also." We will be going to celebrate for making the deal successful with our client. We really have planned and practiced more for our presentation because our client was a big time business man and we cannot lose the opportunity to make deal with him. "Let's go. I will treat you," he said. "Maybe later? I am sleepy," I pouted that made him to chuckle. Then, he tousled my hair. "Alright, let's go out later. Rest first. Maybe I will just fetch you at what time?" I looked up to think. "Maybe at seven." He just nodded his head and went off. I entered my room and lied on my bed so I could relax. I did not get enough sleep these past f

After asking the council about the address of my family, I went off to head the place they tell me. It is a very good thing that they have their address, because if not, I will struggle looking for them in just half of a day. I should not stay long because I will goo back to my home as soon as possible. But if I will took long, I will cancel all of my appointments and meetings and move it the next day. This is about my family and they matter the most. Yes, it has been so many years but my love for them never left me. Even if I don't feel them anymore, my heart still wants to be with them. I longed for them. I bit my lower lip as the map says that I am already near their place. I am nervous and excited at the same time. What will be my reaction once my eye gazes at them, anyway? Should I jump in so much joy and ran to them to embrace them? Or, should I cry? Tears of joy? Oh, the latter was so hilarious. I wonder how they

Upon arriving home, I did not stop the car right in front of the gate of the house because I still saw the car where Jinx went out lately. Faye said that he already left! But why is his car is still there and parking? Is Jinx was inside the house together with my sisters? I sighed heavily. Why am I even trying to avoid that man? That I am afraid that he might saw me again for the first time in years? Why do I still have this feeling that I do not have the guts to face Jinx again? To show myself to him? To look at his face? To look at him in the eye? The mere thought of myself standing in front of him is like making me weak. Like, I came back to my old self where I have nothing but him alone? It feel nostalgic. I shook my head. Why am I still staying here? Do I have plans to lock myself here in my car? To stay here all the time and will just wait for Jinx to get out and go off the

Time really flies too fast. When you want it to go slow, and adjust, it will just do the opposite one. And when you want it to fly fast, it will go slow. And the best thing to do is to not expect and think of something that is impossible that will definitely hurt your feelings in no time. Expecting is the thing we should avoid to keep our heart safe from pain. For us not to be disappointed, let us stop imagining things that will never happen. I subtly let out a small and light sigh before I looked up the stars. They were twinkling, and they look so happy the way they shines. Everyone of them were apart, that they have quite far distance. And that just means that we can shine alone. That we all do not have a companion to see the light and be the light. It will be our choice if we chooses to be the source of light to whom who only see darkness. I chewed my food and shook my head. Why am I thinking this? I mean, I am not even sad nor feeling lo