I wanted to rip Sakina’s throat out just for her past crimes. And now that urge, that thirst for blood, was even more prevalent as she threatened innocent pups of my pack. Though I must wonder how the hell these two always find themselves in danger. Aurelia rescued them from a Syndicate rogue two years ago, and now they got ambushed by this hunter. Might need to discuss with them the need to be more vigilant. That’s a problem for later. Right now, I need to get Iver away from Sakina while protecting Sarael and Evan. Neither of them was making that task easy on me. I had to put myself between Sarael and her sister when she got the idea in her mind to try and talk to the deranged bitch.  But then Evan started to act on impulses, and I had to stop him from getting himself killed. I am not explaining to their mother why even one of her sons died on my watch.

I was just relieved to know the hit to her head didn’t result in more than a minor concussion. I’m still suppressing my rage and the desire to slowly and painfully kill Sakina for even touching Sarael. That she injured her had every protective instinct in me, in Irving on high. Sarael is correct. I know that I can’t just kill Sakina, though. If she dies, the rest of their family will come looking. And while the idea of meeting your mate’s family is supposed to make you happy, I don’t want to meet her family. I don’t think I could be in the same room as any of them without feeling the urge to kill them.To not linger on those dark feelings of hate and anger, I focused on Sarael. I prefer that any day. Especially when we are touching, and I feel the sparks of the bond. It soothes me. It helps Irving to even connect with h

For as calming as having her in my lap is, it's equally problematic. Between my natural physical reaction to her plump backside and that she's basically announced to everyone of importance in the pack that we aren’t actually a couple, I don’t know what’s more embarrassing. And to make it worse, she uses the face I’m still in the stages of wooing her as a reason I shouldn’t blame Alexander for Sakina finding my pack.I frowned as she wiggled out of my lap and declared that she would be returning home after checking on her sister. I don’t want her to go home. I want her to be here with me. I know Sakina is locked up, and therefore the immediate danger is gone, but I have this feeling this is just the tip of the iceberg. I sighed and stood up, placing a hand on the small of her back. “Is that a good idea?” Loga

Of everything she could have said, I did not expect her to say I would be staying. I always feel like it’s one step forward and two steps back with Sarael. I never know if I’m actually making progress with her. It’s rather dizzying. And as welcoming the thought of staying here with her is, I fear that it’s just a ploy. That she’ll eventually tell me to leave, and then she’ll be left unguarded. Irving, of course, doesn’t think rationally about any of this. All he heard was that our mate had invited us to stay with her. To stay the night with her. He’s a little over-excited at the idea of spending the night with her and what that might mean. I don’t know which of us wants to not be a virgin more, but I at least can think clearly to not get ahead of myself. For all I know, if she doesn’t send me away, she’ll have me sleep on the sofa or in her guest room. Irving

We have officially gone well beyond any of my experience. I’d only kissed Lydia a few times when we were in our early teens before we shifted and knew we weren’t the other’s mate. There weren’t really any feelings or strong connections between us. She just happened to be there since her grandmother was mine and Logan’s nanny. So it was more about geographic convenience. And I suppose for her, the fact I was the Alpha heir played a factor in why she wanted to kiss me.Till Sarael, I could at least look back on those moments with Lydia with some fondness to fight off the loneliness being without my mate evoked. Lydia, of course, long ago moved on, joining a pack on the east coast with her mate. I was very happy for her and her mate. But now that I’ve found Sarael, those moments are just faded memories not worth replaying.Kissi