He’s a VIRGIN! Seriously what the hell! How is that possible? I know he says he has great self-control and has been waiting for his mate but wow. I don’t think any man would wait this long, let alone when there are plenty of women more than willing to get in his bed. What would have happened if he never crossed paths with me? Would he have remained celibate his whole life?I can’t even fathom that. I mean, I should be flattered, right. He’s waited and saved himself for… well, for me. And I am. I’m also not sure about this because I was only one other guy’s first time, and he was mine. It was hands down the worst sexual experience of my life. The guy had no clue what he was doing and tried to go in the wrong hole more than once. I shuddered at the memory. I really hope that while he’s inexperienced, John has

Learning the history of his pack was eye-opening, to say the least. I don’t think I’ve heard of a pack whose alpha is selected by their wolf’s gift rather than birth order. It was truly remarkable to hear how the Bloodmoon Pack formed, and their goddess herself chose its Alpha. I’m sure my family’s guild would love to hear about that. They’d want to find a way to end the alpha line, which would mean killing Logan and his mate since she’s expecting. I managed to internalize my shutter. The very idea of killing a pregnant woman or a baby I couldn’t. It’s what made me the weaker sister. I felt bad enough for what I did in the name of our family. I don’t know what was more surprising. How Bloodmoon's alpha is selected or that becoming alpha wasn’t John’s dream. I suppose I can under

I shouldn’t have shut down like that. It's not his fault. I don’t want him to think he did something wrong. My family, my past, the reason I left home is these are things I don’t speak of. I have told John more in one date than I did any of my exes combined. And that scares me. Why have I told him as much as I have? Is it because of the mate bond? Is it because he’s supernatural, so he knows the world I was raised in? I couldn’t tell someone like Drew about what my family really did. He would never understand. As far as he knew, supernatural creatures were make-believe.  I’m going to blame it on the mate bond. I wouldn’t otherwise so easily tell him about my past. Even if I’m withholding some important details. But I can’t tell him those things. As much as my family and hunters around the world see werewolves as monsters, I know they aren’t all monsters.

Damn it. Damn it all to hell. Why did my sister have to find me? Better question: how long has my family known where I am? Have they known all along and just left me be? It’s possible. But Isis running away has brought Sakina to my door. And worse yet, she saw John. He’s not safe. His pack isn’t safe either. I groaned as I grabbed my phone and realized I didn’t have his contact info. I smacked my hand to my forehead. “I really should get his number. I need to tell him. I do have Aurelia and Logan’s numbers. But I’m not sure I want to call one of them to ask to talk to John. I don’t know if Aurelia knows about what’s going on between John and me.Logan does, but he seems a tad on the aggressive side. And I don’t think I’m his favorite person, so to hear that his pack may be in danger because

I was checking the entire drive to the Christian ranch to be sure we weren’t being followed. I was relieved to not see any cars following us. And just to be safe, I had left my cell phone at the office. I don’t trust what lengths my sister would go to track me. I can’t let her be anywhere near John or people in his pack.  Of course, when I arrived, the man had my heart fluttering with this whole opening doors and offering his hand. I’m not used to the chivalrous sort. And then he called me darling. Seriously, what century is this guy from? And great, now he’s going to call me love. I don’t know if I can stand that. It’s not that I don’t like the idea of pet names. It just means that we are moving closer to having a relationship. And I don’t want to get more attached to John. As soon as he knows the truth, he’s going to want to get as far away from me as