"Then a family adopted me here. They took good care of me and treated me like a family. I didn't even want them to help me at first. All I wanted was to be alone or better yet to end my life but they didn't let me. They did everything for me to be alright even though they don't know anything about me and they shouldn't trust me that easily. I don't want to accept them because all I wanted was to be with your mother even if that means I'll need to die to be with her. I was so desperate and helpless that time and yes, I really am a coward." He then stopped before looking at me like he's remembering my mother through me before talking again. "I never looked at any woman after your mother. I was too crazy for her and I'm afraid to love again for I'm always thinking about your mother. I know I'm the reason for her death and if I'll love again, what if I'll also be the reason for another woman's death? I just love your mon too much that I can't ever forget her even though it's already yea

"Please... Don't leave. I know it'll be too dangerous for you and I want to be selfish for now. Please, Heszhia..." My father begged when I asked him to build a time machine already because we've already lost so much time. We had this topic the moment our talk ended about him apologizing to me. I thought I will end out well but I never expected that I'll also have a hard time convincing him. He's my father and of course, he has the right to decide for me. We should be entering that war now instead of being here but he's stopping me..he doesn't want me to go there even though that's just for everyone's sake. I may not know him but I also know that he wants the best for everyone but after everything he has been through, I know he's just afraid to lose me. "But dad, you know that I have to do it. I and Cayden have to do it for the world's sake. I can't just run away from it because it's my responsibility from the start as a human being from the future that I n

"Let's go! Hurry! Why are you so fucking slow, Cayden?" I shouted at Cayden while we were preparing for our journey today and that is to go hiking. That's my main goal today and I won't really stop bugging him if we won't be able to do that. And now, he's moving so freaking slow inside of his room. I guess he's fixing some things that he'll bring.  For fuck's sake he doesn't need to bring his whole room there! I was even faster preparing than him! I just wanna barge in inside his room but of course, I don't want to see what he's doing in there. I'm afraid I might see something I don't want to see. Who knows what my mom put on him so I just decided to wait outside his room to fasten him up but he seems to be getting so slow already. What is he even doing that it's making him buy so much time? "Just a sec!" He shouted back from his room and that's my call to go out and ride inside the car. I'll just wait for him there instead of shouting

It's been what? Two months, I guess? I can't even count the days because I'm just living every but of it. I don't want to miss even just a single second because this is just too precious to me for me to be able to enjoy myself when I didn't even imagine myself being genuinely happy. I only thought that will happen the moment I succeeded but here I am, almost dancing because of how happy I am and I want this to continue before we even leave. And by the time, I'll be more serious.  I'm just here to refresh my mind for a year and at the same time have time to be with my father and then I'll be more inspired to make everything we'll do, successful.  And yes, we're getting nearer and nearer to the end of this happiness of ours so as much as I can, I'm pushing myself not to rot on my bed and go out with them. Even though I'm already tired of moving around, I still prefer to be with them than be with myself again because that'll just make

It was so awkward for me to talk or to even stay close to him. I always get flustered because I'm not used to any of the moves that he's doing. I'm not even that familiar with it because relationships and such isn't a thing that I have experienced already but after a few weeks of dealing with it, he suddenly stopped being so annoying for me like I realized that I should already get used to it but I still hate it when he's unnecessarily touching me.  My heart is beating abnormally when he's with me and I hate it! I feel so weak around him and if I can just stop this, then I will do it because this is wrong in every corner. If dad will know everything about this, he will also know that this is wrong and it's not fun.  He's expecting us to be on good terms already. He may not be telling it but I know that he also wants us to happen so maybe I should tell every