I woke up feeling the pain in my chest. I guess this is already the hangover that's hitting in me but no... Even with my headache and even though I was drunk that time, I still can't forget everything. I can clearly remember it and every word he said to me. My brain didn't even let me rest and made me remember it in my dreams just to hurt me over and over again and I guess, that's what satisfy me.  Isn't my pain too much? Is everything I've been through still not enough to be put in such a situation as this which will literally break me? Because if it's still not enough, then this world is too heartless and unfair already. Why? Am I the only one the world can make fun of? Fuck them!  I would even love to think that it was all just my freaking dream but I know all of that really happened. All those things were the truth that slaps me every time. It can even be my greatest nightmare.  I've been asking the wo

I woke up feeling a bit of pain down there and sore all over my body and when I realized what happened last night, I literally get up with my eyes getting bigger, and there I saw him beside me, sleeping peacefully like an angel but damn! That's not what I should think of right now.  Damn it! Why did you even let him do that, Heszhia? But honestly, I don't know why I also did that. It's just that, when his skin touched mine, everything running inside my mind was erased like he's controlling my body. His every touch just made me list my mind and listen to what my body is shouting and that's him. I also want him and I wasn't able to stop myself because of that. I just sighed instead of screaming because of how annoyed I am with myself. I can't do anything about it anymore. I can never take it back and all I could do is to forget about it but I admit that I can still feel him on mine just like what happened last night. I just can't forget a

"Good morning, my queen," Cayden's voice greeted me the moment I opened my eyes when I felt the sun kissing me and so as him placing a kiss at my temple while caressing my hair softly like what he's doing every day every time I'm waking up. It's like this has been his habit after what happened to us. I don't know how it's possible but he became extra sweet to me every day and I don't even think I'll be able to live if I'll lose him. I just hope that we won't end up just like how my parents did.  It really bothers me how were both acting like it'll just end but he's always telling me that no matter what happens, we'll both fight for each other and if I don't have the strength to do it anymore, then he'll be the one to fight for both of us which I'm holding on right now. I hope he won't give up on me and realize that I'm not actually worth it for him to sacrifice things. I don't know. It's just that I'm someone too complicated and I'm just really praying that

I was counting days from the start and even though Cayden is stopping me from doing so, I still didn't stop myself and again, feel struck my chest after knowing that the end is near and my happiness will already end even though I still don't want it to end. I can't even count the days left back then but now, I can't help but to be bothered by it and be nervous for I don't know what I should expect about everything. What will happen after this? How about Cayden? What will happen to us? Will we break this relationship that we have and just focus on our mission? Because honestly, it pains me just by thinking about that and I don't want that to happen if I can just decide for us but what if it's him who doesn't want it anymore? Yes, we were enjoying but it's already nearing the end now. What if after the happiness that we felt, we won't be able to stay on each other side with misery as the one who's running after us?  I am hoping that Cayde

"So, I guess it's goodbye?" Dad called us while we were looking at the time machine in front of us. This is the time machine that he used to go here since we can't get the time machine back from the government and it'll take us years before we can even build one. He took care of this already and today is when we are supposed to leave. Today is when we're supposed to turn our back away from happiness and I guess, I'm ready for this.  I already am ready for this, I even made myself accept that we should already end our happiness to move on with our plan and succeed in just a few months but making me see my dad in tears is also hurting me. The pain in his eyes is so visible that anyone will know it if they can see him right now and as his daughter, this is also painful for me.  How will I even take this knowing that I'm breaking my father because I want to save the world which is my goal even when I was just a child? I grew up wanting