It's been 2 days since I last talked to Connor and in all honesty, I feel utterly bored and have been down.I can't blame anyone but me. This is my own doing and now I will have to deal with it.I'm pretty sure that I'll be annoying Vicky soon with how I have been been in these two days. I've withdrawn a little bit and we don't talk as much and that I know greatly, how frustrating it can get for Vicky. I can't lie and say that there isn't that twinge of hurt, when I walk past him or have him avoid me at every chance he gets. It's there and damn it, I can't help but admit to missing him. I still don't get what it is about him that makes trying to put distance between us so hard, I mean we don't exactly know each other but gosh, if I don't miss that boy.Even through my internal battle of trying to suppress any thoughts of him or the fact that I miss him, I can't ignore that I pretty much asked him to stay away from me and to leave me be. I was doing

Distracted, that's me. I've been like this for most of the time mom has been here, telling me all about her Mr Perfect. Okay, I love my mom but gosh, the way she has been carrying on about this person makes the idea of meeting him one thing to dread doing. I feel like she's trying way too hard for me to be impressed, which is not the case at the moment. I mean I'm not very fond of the way their relationship seems to moving , its pace proves quite fast and I don't want my mom to get burnt and crash like her past relationships, where I was one left to help her get back onto her feet. In those times I've found myself neither having a choice but to be dragged into watching soppy romantic movies, eat alot of junk food and listen to heartbreaking songs.No, not this time. I can't go through all that again.Placing all concerns aside and actually taking a good look at my mom now, I notice something I haven't seen before, it's diffe

I knew that I shouldn't have asked him, now I'm instantly starting to regret it. Okay, so after I asked him about the way he was looking at me, I got my answer. Not much was said but his actions spoke for him, when he started to climb the tree that I was sitting under. Now here I am, busy climbing the tree and mentally praying that I don't fall. "Ha." A sigh escapes me after I finally join him and I am sitting as comfortable as I possibly can.Looking down, I realize that it is a bit high, which doesn't help that dizziness wants to take over right now.Moving my eyes elsewhere but the ground, I feel his eyes on me, making me to look at him, only to see a frown on his forehead." Are you okay?" " Yeah, just trying to figure out how much injury I'll get once I make the jump." " You are not jumping from here." He says, shaking his head." Why not?" I ask , frowning at him." Because I don'

Two weeks trial.It has already begun and already a day has passed, I don't know how I feel about this because a part of me wants to go home, while the other finds itself wanting to stay.I don't even know if this is about me anymore or maybe it's Connor or just my fears of getting back into the outside world.Vicky and I haven't spoken to each other since yesterday.I don't know, maybe this is me being stubborn but I'm still a little mad at her, for what she did. Even though Vicky and I are going through a minor glitz, I do miss talking to her.She's my friend or more like my big sister and guardian here. She knows me and I think more than my own mother sometimes does.I did mention the two week trial thing which instead of him being affected about this, his eyes began to twinkle and I instantly knew that he was summing up some crazy thought in his mind.I shake my head slightly and try focus on what I'm doing. It's my day acti

" Na, na, na." I hum to myself while I make my way to my room, I've just gotten back from my activity and I feel like having a nap.Entering into my room, my eye immediately notices something laid on my bed. Leaning closer , I see that it is  a note.~ Something crazy. Meet me on the roof                   C~A small grin forms on my face as I place my book on my bed. Not even thinking twice, I get out of there, getting ready for this ' something crazy '.My eyes don't miss Connor sitting on the bench that we had sat on once upon a time, I stand in front of him with the note in hand. " Found your note."" Good," he says before rising to his feet and grabs ahold of my hand, then walks with me to the center of the roof.