บททั้งหมดของ HELENA: บทที่ 21 - บทที่ 30

I woke up in a tiny room with no Television, aircon, or even electric fan. Only a bed with a white blanket and white pillow and a glass window that is impossible to open. I looked around and I found a camera. A surveillance camera. I know that they are watching me from outside. I stood up and I tried to open the door but it was locked from outside. I tried to shake the door but it was too hard and too strong. I can’t even shake it and it is impossible for me to open it.    “Hello, is anyone there?” I asked but nobody answered. I put my ear against the door to listen if someone is outside but I can't hear anything either. I tried to shake the door but I couldn't shake it. It is too hard and heavy. I feel like they don’t want to let someone out once they put it in.   “Hello!” I called again but this time in a louder voice. Almost

I woke up sweating and gasping for air because of the dream that haunts me or rather I'd say a nightmare or a past that keeps on coming back. I looked around to make sure that I am really awake now. The window is already there and the light is not blinking anymore. I saw the CCTV facing me. I pinched my wound and I felt pain. Yes, I confirmed that I am already awake and alone inside this room. Good thing that it is just a dream even if it looks real and I hope it is not another lost memory that keeps on coming because I don’t want to taste another bitterness from the past. I don’t know what time it is and I still feel sleepy and tired even though I just woke up. I didn't sleep well because of the nightmare that I had. I feel sick too, maybe because of staying long inside this boring room. That is why I really need to go out as soon as possible even though I don't know-how. I yawned because I still want to sleep but I am scared that I might

I heard the door open again and I felt nervous because of the crime that I committed. I tried to wipe the blood on my hand but it is already dry and I can wipe it. So I hide it behind me. The man wearing white with a tray of food went inside and put the tray on my bed beside me. He looked at me because I was looking at him and then he looked under the bed to where I was looking.  “No… no… no” I whispered while I am still nervous and scared that he might discover the dead body that I hide under my bed. He looked at the floor where I was looking. I hope he will not see the bloodstains left on the floor. I looked away when he looked at me for a second and he said “Eat your food now and take your medicine”  And he was about to leave and close the door when I told him to wait. He looked at me again but I couldn't look back at him. 

I didn’t notice that I fell asleep and another day has passed and I am still here inside the hospital. It is so quiet that I can almost hear my own heartbeat. I feel pity for myself because I feel like I am a lab rat used for experimentation. While on my bed facing the wall I heard the door slowly opening. I turned around to see who it was. I stood up when I saw the man go inside holding a tray of food again with my medicines. He put it beside me and told me to eat it and take my medicine before going out. I stare at the food. One pale macaroni soup, egg sandwich, water in a plastic bottle, and medicines that I don’t want to take. I eat the egg sandwich and the macaroni soup even though I don’t like the taste because I am already hungry but there is no chance that I will take the medicines that they gave me. Like what I did to the first batch of medicines that they gave me.

They found Helena dead inside her room. The blanket was tied to her neck and she is lying on the floor. She has bruises and wounds on her arms, legs, and face. Which is they didn’t know how or where Helena got it. They checked the record of the CCTV but they didn’t find anything and they didn’t see anyone get inside her room. Her body and her room are full of fingerprints from different people. Which the investigator didn’t know from whom are those fingerprints. Her death is a mystery because the last record that they watched about Helena seems like she is talking to different people even though she is all alone inside her room. She is talking as if there is someone inside her room. She looks so distressed, scared, hopeless, and disturb. There is a record also that she is just standing alone, sitting alone, facing the camera alone and she looks like she is not herself.