When morning came, I had no appetite to even take a bath -- all I wanted was to stay in my bed for twenty four hours and just feel nothing. Yeah, I wished to be dead even for one day. And then I would just wake up feeling so relieved and healed a later on. Breaking news : Neil Sandoval is said to be currently dating a well-known model. That's what welcomed me the moment I turned on the small tv. I was about to turn it off when a video had played -- it was the one I saw in the event yesterday. Feeling my chest contracting, I closed my eyes, hoping all my problems were just a dream. This could not be. I was expecting my video with Neil to be shown out, not Neil's whereby he's kissing Feli. From Daniel:I am coming in there. I buy lots of foods for you. I wanna discuss with you about Marcus. Marcus. Speaking of that evil man, I was certain he's the reason behind all these pro

Luckily, I managed to speak so that I could make him believe that he was disturbing me even though he really was not, I even wanted to hear his voice until I drifted off into sleep. I hanged up first the call that night, wanting him to stop me but since he did not at all, I just ended our call. I slept with a broken heart  -- well, it wasn't new to me anymore.When I woke up, I realized that I just did so late, since the clock read ten o'clock in the morning! And then, I remembered my conversation with that evil Marcus!'I do not wait, Sydney. I am lazy'. I still could remember his favorite line. He did not wait. He instantly got tired, and so without thinking so long, I went to the bathroom and bombarded myself with lots of soap. Damn!I chose my favorite white t-shirt and wore it. I partnered it with a faded jeans. To make a disguise as what I had planning to do days ago, I found my shades inside my small drawer. Feeling contented of my appearance while s

Lies after lies had been said by that damn mouth of hers. Only fool people would only surely trust her words. Even the reporters seemed to be addicted by her answers. I chuckled again. Why was she like that? I was the wife and I never said that to anyone -- I kept that as my deepest secret -- and she was just an intruder yet liked to say things that were very imposible to happen."I know you are craving. And you just do not like to see me that's why I just ordered online for you," that was the message pasted in the box of foods. At the bottom of it, Daniel's name was being highlighted. I was planning to be back at being a dancer again, and so eating foods high of calories would be not really good in my health. I should maintain my body because this was one of my assets.And yeah, withdrawing from any of my old cards never flashed in my mind again, because through those things, she would know how much I spent in a specific week or month. That's why I wanted to prove to

It's early in the morning as I thought I did not have anything to do but to take a rest because I have had just worked yesterday as a dancer. Still, I felt so tired and I gussed I could not take to work during day and night times. Yesterday, I could say that I had a very awkward moment as I did my job. Just imagine a wife wearing an exposed dress swaying her hips in front of a man who happened to be not only her solid customer but also her great and handsome husband.My manager kept talking about professionalism and every dancer in her club knew the essence of that word.I looked at my phone again, registering what I had seen seconds ago, confirming something. And I was right; the message was for me since I could see my name being placed before the content.I did not mind anymore the one who texted me, because what's important was the message he/she texted me. I sighed again. Who the fuck made the idea of me joining in a reality show and for God's sake it was li

"You can say no to me, Sydney, and I will just inform Neil," my manager again, waking me up from my senses. "Actually, he says that's the decision is all yours. If you want to entertain him, then it is totally okay with him; if not, it's still okay for him."At the end, I said 'no'. Call me childish or what for being unprofessional but I really was not ready to dance in his front. I mean, I used to dance with him especially when we were doing love before but our today's situation was kinda different before."Okay, I will just inform him." My manager smiled at me to obviously calm me down, and she went gone, so I was left staring at my own reflection in the mirror.Alright, I whispered to myself, I did the right thing.Seconds later, I forced myself to be okay for me to have a better performance, and now I was currently performing in front of my customers, pleasing them using my sexy dance moves. What confused me the most was that I could not find Nei